Leo's Blog: Infinite Insights — Page 7
HBO made a 9-part documentary about the NXIVM cult called The Vow. Watch it if you want to understand how cults work. NXIVM is a case study.
Here's the trailer for it:
You will notice that I do not run Actualized.org like NXIVM, even though I easily could. I could use Actualized.org to extract money and sex. I don't. Why don't I? Because the point of this work is pure understanding of reality, and extracting money and sex is a distraction from that. Money and sex are not important, what's important is understanding reality.
An important aspect of the commitment to truth is to make a rule with yourself that you will not defend false things. As soon as you see that something is false, allow it to die. This is the opposite of what most people do, they cling to falsehood by any means possible. This is wrong. If something you love is false, have the courage to let it die. It will hurt in the short-term but it is healthy for you in the long-term. The more falsehood you let die the better and healthier your life becomes.
Contemplate: "What falsehood have I been defending?"
And then visualize yourself letting it die.
See! Just right there you can see that truth is death.
Note: I am not talking about suicide.
This doctor quit his $700k/yr big pharma job because he saw how corrupt the whole system is and couldn't take it any more. Good for him.
But imagine how few doctors in his position would have the balls to do that? Most humans just conform to corruption because it is too hard to go against it. And when they conform they don't even register it as such. They don't see it as surrendering to corruption, they rationalize it as good. In this way evil tricks people into thinking it is good. The degree to which the entire healthcare system is corrupted by profit-maximization is insane. This is a case-study in how evil metastasizes like a cancer. All of it goes back to not caring enough about truth.
Most doctors do not have time to actually service their patient's healthcare needs, because that would be too expensive. So instead they just ask you a few questions within a 10-minute window, and write you an overpriced drug. Because that's all that can be done in the structure of a 10-minute window. Doctors visits should really be like Actualized.org videos: 3 hours of diagnosing and troubleshooting your problems. Instead they are like TikTok videos. Doctors are part of giant bureaucracy which is not asking what is best for patient health, it is asking how to maximize profit. This is the wrong thing to be asking and truly is a violation of the Hippocratic Oath. The Hippocratic Oath is an obligation to treat patients ethically, to the best of one's ability. Most doctors only treat patients to the best of their ability while maximizing profit. That's why healthcare sucks. You can't trust doctors to have the time to care about you. Even if they want to care, the system just won't let them because it slows down business.
Here's the deep insight: Truth/Love is bad for business. You have to be a psychopath these days to succeed in the corporate world. Why does the corporate world suck? Because it leaves no room for Truth/Love. The corporate world is always about maximizing profit. This is devil-worship.
This is why I said that truth-seeking is really about changing your lifestyle. It's not just science or philosophy, truth-seeking always involves the emotionally painful realization that you are embedded deep in a corrupt system. Truth cannot be seen from within this system, placing the responsibility on you to leave the system. But you don't even know how you will survive outside the system. This is why most people never find truth. Truth-seeking requires inventing new, better ways of surviving, which takes serious work.
The reason I can do truth-seeking is because I invented a new way of surviving for myself. Actualized.org IS my better way of surviving. It is a way that allows me to serve my survival needs while also seeking truth. You need to invent something like that for yourself. I don't mean a website or a YouTube channel, I mean you need to invent a more truthful way of surviving that suits your values, interests, passions, and style. Do not limit your ideas to websites, YouTube channels, teaching, or coaching. Think more outside the box. Find new creative avenues. You can't just emulate me, you have to do something unique and fresh that suits your personality. It takes years to find that, so be patient and don't lose hope.
Key insight: In order to be a Good person you must challenge and refuse falsehood. Refuse to live falsely.
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People like to whine about how my work is long-winded or repetitive. This is so myopic. Actually, the ratio of depth of understanding vs time in my work is insane. My work is the most direct and efficient communication given the depth of reality that is being understood. People complain about my stuff being too long, but then they go waste 3 hours listening to a podcast where people talk in shallow circles about nonsense and get nowhere. My work demands hundreds of hours, but by the end of those hundred hours you will understand reality deeper than a PhD who has been studying reality for 40 years. My work is insanely direct and efficient because it must be to reach Infinity. That's my whole epistemic attitude: Cut through all the bullshit. You will not find much work that takes you this deep, this directly, this efficiently. Everything I say is important. If it takes 5 hours to say it, that's because it's so important. I will never spend 5 hours talking about trivial things. That's what others do, not me.
Watch out! When you think you're saving time by taking shortcuts, you end up wasting years chasing your tail. But hey, at least you can do it one 10-minute clip at a time. People waste years of their lives watching thousands of stupid 10-minute clips that get them nowhere. One of my 4-hour long videos is worth 2 years of academic study. When you combine 100 of my videos, you get a result that is impossible to get any other way. You could not read 100 books and get what you will get from 100 of my videos. Each of my videos is worth more than reading 1 book — in terms of depth of understanding reality. There is no book you can read, no course you can take, no PhD program you can complete that will give you as deep an understanding of reality as watching all of my videos several times over. If you invest 1000 hours seriously studying my videos, you will understand reality deeper than 99.99999999% of anyone who has ever walked the Earth. That is my promise. And my work will only get deeper.
If you don't understand that 1000 hours is nothing — nothing! — for the value that you will get in return, you are a fool. If you could understand everything I teach in 1000 hours, this would like winning the lottery in life. People are such piss-poor investors. They don't know how to see true value and true cost. I am literally offering people Immortality in under 1000 hours. And the typical reaction is, "Nah, that's too long." Okay, idiot. Have it your way.
It is like I am selling an F-35 fighter jet for $1 million dollars, and people walk past the storefront window, see the price-tag and go, "Meh, that's too expensive." No! It's nothing! I'm giving it away! You should be creaming your pants at the sight of a $1 million dollar F-35. That's a real student of this work who will go far. When you first discover Actualized.org, it should feel like, "This is the craziest, highest-value thing I've ever found in my life! I cannot believe this is real. This is too good to be true." That's my vision for what I am building.
Just as a side lesson for you, whatever you're working on, whatever you're building, build it so that when people interact with it, they feel that it's too good to be true. That's how you know you've made something great. That should always be the aim of your work: "How can I create something that's too good to be true?" And then create it!
My work is so efficient that I even bluntly told you how efficient it is, in case you missed it.
This is my favorite iconization of Infinity. It is more profound than the yin-yang of nonduality or the enso of Zen. If I had to depict ultimate Reality in one symbol, it would be this. This icon literally depicts Everything. This is God. It is elegant and beautiful, as Truth must be. The symmetry and Unity of God.
This is such an awesome heavy contemplation song.
You can contemplate some deep shit with this going. This is contemplating life and death. I drive alone on a dark desert road in the middle of the night and contemplate reality for hours. That's my religion.