Leo's Blog: Infinite Insights

The amazing thing about Awakening is, you can read 50 books on Awakening & God, you can study a bunch of Buddhism and nonduality, you can know all the theory, but when Awakening finally happens to you, it will feel totally different than anything you read and you will be in shock and disbelief. God is just completely beyond human imagination, even after reading spiritual books. God is like a new plane of Consciousness that you haven’t ever experienced before. This plane does not happen elsewhere, it happens right in your very room. It is like the entire room you’re in elevates to a higher plane. You don’t leave the room, the room elevates. Higher consciousness is not another universe, it is the elevation of your experience of our universe. Your current experience gets elevated without you traveling anywhere. God is not a different point in space-time, God is the elevation of wherever you are in space-time. If you are on the toilet, God will elevate your experience of sitting on the toilet. You will realize that the toilet is God. God is like cranking up your consciousness of the present moment, regardless of where you are.

God cannot be found by looking elsewhere, God is found by looking really deeply at the present moment. If you sit and stare without thinking at the present moment for 100 hours straight, chances are high you will see God. But if you try to chase God somewhere else, you will never see God. Anything that moves you away from consciousness of the present moment takes you away from God. God is literally just insane presence. Imagine being so present that your eyes bulge out of your head. Imagine being so present that you stop feeling you are human anymore. So the manual technique for realizing God is simply to sit, shut up, and be present as fuck for very long periods of time. That is the entire technique, but it's really hard to do. If you can't do that, then psychedelics.

When people talk about flying to astral dimensions, that is not Awakening. Awakening must be HERE and NOW. Always HERE and NOW.

The ego will say, "But how can God be HERE and NOW when I don't see any God HERE and NOW?!!" The answer is: HERE and NOW look mundane to you right now because you are not present enough. If you spent 100 hours straight being present, HERE and NOW would start to look and feel very different than they do now. Presence changes how you perceive HERE and NOW, more than people imagine. I promise you that if you are present hard enough, long enough, you will eventually see God. But that will be a painful process. There is no way to make that process fun. It will not be fun, it will feel like mild torture. It will feel like you are dying of boredom. That's not a mistake, keep going.

The entire point of meditation is to be so present that you stop being human. Literally. How many meditators can meditate so hard they stop being human? Very few. Meditation is literally nothing more than presence. And thought interrupts presence, which is why thought is bad in meditation. If your meditation is filled with a bunch of random thoughts, you are not being present so you will not realize God. For meditation to reveal God, your meditation needs to have very few thoughts. Your meditation needs to reach a point where it's like you are brain-dead. Imagine being brain-dead for the next 100 hours, but 100% present. That's true meditation.

This is one of the best visualizations of God-Consciousness that I've ever seen.

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Amazing!

You can't visualize Awakening much better than that.

What you're seeing in that animation is that the entire room is a Cosmic Hallucination. The entire room Awakens to itself as God.

That's what real spiritual experience feels like. Clearly that's very different from belief, or theory, or religion, or science. It's even different from most meditation. Most meditation cannot get you that conscious. But some people experience life like that by default, from birth, just thanks to genetics. Those people are the mystics, gurus, and psychics.

Note: That visualization is a bit exaggerated. You should not expect your Awakening to look so colorful and cartoony. Your Awakening will likely feel more grounded and mundane.

Imagine going to your guru or priest and asking him, “Is 1+1 really 2? I am doubtful. Please tell me."

It is not the guru’s job to convince you that 1+1=2. If the guru tells you "Yes", he has failed you. The guru’s job is to help you realize that you can know 1+1=2 by the the light of your own Mind. The guru’s job is not to tell you what the truth is, but to show you that you can find the truth yourself. The guru gives you homework, not the answer.

Don't ask the guru for the answer, ask the guru what work to do to reach the answer. Ask the guru what work he did to reach the answer.

Why can't the guru just give you the answer? Because the answer is a profound experience that needs to be created through work.

If you come to a coach and ask him, "What's it like to run a marathon?" What will be his answer? "Go run a marathon." Because running a marathon in a profound experience, not a theory. To know what a marathon is, you must run it. A good coach inspires you to run a marathon, knowing that the marathon will educate you. The real guru is the marathon, not the coach. No coach can teach you what the marathon can teach you.

This is why good gurus do not give direct answers. They are not being evasive, they need you to run.

This is how Pokemon was talked about when it first came out in the 1990s.

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The point is, your mind sees whatever it wants to see.

Why are there more mentally ill people in the spiritual field than the general population? Atheists and rationalists like to believe that it’s because religion is a mental illness. No! That’s wrong. It’s because people with mental illness have looser minds, which makes it easier for them to be conscious of the mystical aspects of Consciousness/Reality. Mental illness really means that there is no material Reality at all, but the rationalist mind is so rigid and dogmatic that it needs to deny this to maintain its solidity and sanity. The scientific, rationalist mind is terrified of discovering that its own sanity is just a hallucination. That’s why it dismisses mystical insight as mental illness. Mentally ill people have less scientific and rationalist minds, the scientists and rationalists take this a bug, but it’s actually a feature of Consciousness. This is not to say that mental illness is a good thing, it isn’t, but mental illness exists because Consciousness is much broader than scientific rationality. Mental illness has access to more of Reality can science does because science artificially limits itself out of fear of delusion. This is ironic, since science's fear of delusion causes science to end up deluded. But then again, that's exactly how fear works. Excessive fear causes the realization of the thing feared.

There is also more mental illness in artists than the general population — why? Because art requires connection to creativity and spirit, which requires more loose states of mind than science or academia. The kind of looseness of mind that’s required to create the best art would get your career killed in professional academic circles. But the problem for academia is, that kind of creativity is also required to do ground-breaking, revolutionary science. Which is why most science is so stale and lame. In theory, scientists and academics love ground-breaking new science, but in practice they are bigoted towards the states of mind required to generate such breakthroughs in understanding. Breakthroughs in science require breakthroughs in Consciousness, in perspective, not just more measurement, more math, more data, and more technological gadgetry.

Mental looseness vs mental rigidity is in a trade-off relationship. The looser the mind the easier it is to have crazy new ideas, but the easier it is to just become crazy and deluded. But the rigid mind has locked itself in cage and thrown away the key. It's really a question of, How adventurous and risky is your mind? The more adventurous your mind is, the more advanced things you can discover about MIND, but the more likely you are to become crazy in the process. Exploring MIND is a dangerous game. You can explore MIND so deeply that you stop even taking death seriously, which is more likely to get you killed. Ultimately, the reason scientists are so closedminded is because they are terrified of death and insanity. Ironically, the attachment to rationalism is fear-based, not logic-based. Logic does not tell you that you should cling to logic, the ego's fear and insecurity does. Logic itself does not regard itself as king, the scientific ego does. "Everything should be logical", is not a logical statement, it is an egoic statement.

Note: No, I am not mentally ill, in case you thought I was rationalizing my own mental illness. I wish my mind was more loose than it is. I suffer from mental rigidity, not looseness. I am too rational. I have to work hard to make myself less scientific. I spent decades undoing science in myself, which is why I can outsmart scientists.

The problems with democracy:

Note: I am pro democracy. It's just important to be realistic about its challenges. Democracy requires that we don't take it for granted.