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I will be hosting the first ever live, in-person Actualized.org Awakening Retreat in October 2026. (approximate date)

Here are the details:

• Live, in-person instruction and guidance from Leo.
• This is my most advanced set of teachings. 100% focused on God-Realization/Awakening. Powerful, unique, advanced things will be taught and realized. Your mind will be blown. You will become so conscious your eyes will crawl out of your head.
• 3 full days long. 6+ hours per day.
• This is a chemical retreat. You will be using a powerful but 100% legal psychoactive chemical. If you do not want to use chemicals, do not attend. Chemical use is mandatory and core to the retreat. Theory will be given but kept to a minimum.
• The chemical is 100% legal and non-toxic, an unscheduled & uncontrolled chemical, no shady grey-zone stuff. Does not fall under Federal Analogue Act. Everything we do is 100% legal in the state of Nevada. You will not be given any illegal drugs. The chemical is not weed.
• Chemical is administered via a custom protocol researched and pioneered by me. Protocol is clean, effortless, painless, quick, and safe.
• You will not be doing a long heavy trip, but using the chemical to rapidly boost your contemplation sessions. You will spend a lot of time contemplating existential questions along directed lines.
• Purpose of the retreat: To create a profound God-Realization in you. You will reach super-human states of consciousness you never thought possible. You will understand God like never before.
• This retreat is not about personal development. It's about deconstructing the ego and becoming GOD. This is an existential, ontologically focused retreat. We are concerned with realizing how the entire world is a hallucination.
• Group environment. You will be partnering and working with other attendees, helping each other in dyad form.
• Capacity: 20 people max
• You must be at least 24 years of age to attend. Your legal age will be verified against legal IDs.
• Every attendee will be video-interviewed and screened by me for suitability to attend. You can only attend if I determine that you are mature and healthy enough.
• Cost: $1700. This does not include your airfare, hotel, taxi, and meals. You must pay for travel, hotel, taxi, and meals on your own. You are responsible for scheduling all that.
• I wanted to make this retreat affordable, but organizing it costs quite a bit of money and labor, so I cannot make it cheap. My expenses for this retreat are $7000 minimum. So in the future it may need to be more expensive. If I do higher capacity retreats in the future the price can be cheaper.
• Location: Las Vegas
• Date: Tentatively planned for October 2026, exact date not yet set. May change slightly. Will probably fall on the weekend: Sat, Sun, and either Fri or Mon.
• I will hire private security to be on site to ensure physical safety of all attending. Everyone will be scanned for weapons.
• Prior psychedelic experience is good but not required. You will not be doing heavy tripping. Dosing will be tightly regulated and moderated for safety.
• You should consider your risk tolerance before signing up for this. There is always some inherent risk in using psychoactive chemicals and accessing radical, elevated states of consciousness. We will take precautions to minimize the risks and to create a safe environment, however, there is no guarantee of how your psyche will respond. If you do not want to accept responsibility for the risks of using psychoactive chemicals, do not sign up for this retreat. You should be okay with signing legal liability waivers to attend.
• This is my first retreat so it will naturally be a bit experimental as I iron out all the kinks and pioneer this new format. Don't sign up unless you are okay with the experimental nature of this first retreat. You can wait for future retreats if you want a more polished experience.
• Do not sign up to this retreat just to meet me. This is a serious, hardcore retreat, not a socialization event or a meet-and-greet. If you attend this retreat you will be doing serious psychological and spiritual work. Of course we will socialize, but don't come just for that.
• If you struggle with mental illness, suicidal ideation, or mental instability, this retreat is not right for you. This retreat will destabilize your mind and sense of self, so consider carefully whether that is suitable for you. You need to be a relatively well-functioning, mature adult. You need to be able to control your emotions and behavior. People with unruly behavior will be tazered and kicked out of the retreat by security. You must be able to behave yourself and follow instructions and safety protocols.
• Don't spend your last dollars to attend this retreat. If you cannot afford it, wait and save up. I don't want you to go broke from spending money on retreats. A retreat is a luxury thing. If you can't afford it, you have something to look forward to saving for. Don't go into debt to attend this retreat.
• I expect many people to have Awakenings during this retreat, but this cannot be guaranteed for everyone since people respond differently to chemicals. No one chemical works for everyone. But this protocol is the most effective legal method I know of for generating Awakenings. No other legal retreat on American soil has this much potential for deep Awakening.
• As far as I know, no such retreat has ever been held before. This is an innovative methodology developed by me to generate serious Awakenings within minutes. Most people will have profound mystical experiences.
• My goal is to make this a life-changing experience for people. This can be one of the most profound experiences of your life. You will experientially learn things that defy imagination. You will get a taste of the purest spirituality, with zero bullshit or ideology.
• We will not be doing any kind of cult activity. This will be a professional event, free of corruption, up-selling, sex, and ego games.

How it works if you want to attend:

• Send me an email to: , stating that you seriously want to attend.
• I will respond, letting you know if a spot is still available.
• I will email you a payment link for a $200 down-payment to reserve your spot.
• After your payment is received, I will email you with a date for a Zoom video interview. During this interview I will determine if you are suitable to attend. If you are suitable, then I will email you with a payment link to pay the remaining cost of $1500. If you are legitimately not suitable, your $200 down-payment will be fully refunded. If you are a troll or using this Zoom call to waste my time, your down-payment will not be refunded. Serious people only please.
• Once you have paid in full, your seat/attendance is finalized. In the months to come I will email you with further instructions, specific dates, times, location, etc. Any questions you have related to this retreat will be answered by email.
• Refund policy: Once you make full payment, your spot is reserved and refunds are not given unless you have special, unique extenuating circumstances that stop you from attending the retreat: like if you are seriously ill. Don't expect a refund unless you have a very good reason for it. Changing your mind is not a good enough reason. You need to be 100% sure you will attend before making payment. If you catch a serious illness, I will give you a refund. Otherwise you must attend.
• You need to make sure that you have at least 5 full free days for this retreat: 2 days for travel, and 3 days for the retreat itself. I will try to schedule the retreat dates to fall on the weekend, so you don't need to take as many vacation days from work.
• If for some rare reason I am incapacitated and unable to attend (like if I am seriously ill), full refunds will be issued to everyone.

This Oct 2026 retreat will only accept 20 people maximum. I expect these 20 spots to fill very quickly, so email me as soon as you can if you want in. If the spots are filled, I can put you on a wait list for a future retreat. I plan to be holding two such retreats per year in the future if things go well. So if you can't attend in Oct 2026, don't worry, you will probably have more opportunities in 2027 and 2028. If the first retreat is successful, I will consider doing a European retreat in the future for my European audience so you don't have to fly so far.

Note: Some details of this retreat may change in the weeks and months ahead as I fine-tune it. I'm still in the process of designing it. But the core methodology is set. Minor logistical issues may change to make things smoother for everyone involved.

Where I agree with feminism:

• Women should have equal legal rights and moral worth as men.
• Women should be treated with respect and not abused or exploited by men. A woman's sovereignty is no less important than a man's.
• Women should not be treated as sexual objects or objects to satisfy men's desires and needs. That women don't owe men sex.
• Women should not be discriminated against in the workplace.
• Women should be paid equally well for doing equal work. (But only if they do truly equal work.)
• That women deserve credit and compensation for unpaid labor like childcare and so on.
• There is such a thing as a male-centric view of the world, a male-centric epistemology so-to-speak, which is a problematic bias to have.
• That women should have equal voting rights.
• That women should have reproductive rights, abortion rights. Men should not have the right to force women to carry babies.
• That sexual harassment and abuse is a real problem that need remedies. That rape accusations should be listened to and taken seriously, (but also with due process).
• That toxic masculinity is a real problem.

Where I disagree with feminism:

• Overarching narrative of an oppressive patriarchy. Everything framed through the monolithic paradigm of patriarchy.
• That men and women are equal in biology or psychology. That you can't even distinguish men and women.
• That men and women should be treated equally and have equal expectations.
• That matriarchy is a solution to our problems.
• That men's objectification of women and men's psychology is merely bad patriarchal social conditioning.
• That women are equally capable to men. That women are as capable as men at war, combat, policing, construction, sports, engineering, leadership, etc.
• That women should strive to be more like men, more masculine, more in leadership roles. Turning women into men.
• That traditional gender roles are merely a social construct and can and should be changed or equalized.
• That people are born as blank slates and can be socially molded into any gender, any role. That gender roles are somehow arbitrary and could be otherwise.
• That men are the source of our problems. That masculinity is bad or problematic.
• That inequality can be measured simplistically by looking at gender ratios in jobs, or annual salaries, and the like.
• That women are victims. Women need to be more responsible for sexual abuse. Women are not innocent victims in all this. Women need to be responsible for being attracted to abusive and corrupt men.
• Overemphasis on identity politics. That it is an absolute good when a woman is elected or hired, regardless of other factors. There are plenty of corrupt, ignorant, incompetent women in the world.
• The post-modernist aspects of feminism which deny the existence of truth, human nature, biology, gender.
• That women enjoy privileges which men do not, and this needs to be understood and acknowledged.
• The simplistic attitude of "Believe all women". Women do sometimes lie and distort reality. Deplatforming people, canceling people, demonizing people without any due process, just based on accusations, is wrong. Men must have a way of defending themselves against slander.
• People should be hired based on merit, not gender quotas. But diversity is still an important virtue as well.
• That men need specialized advice and training on how to be masculine. Feminizing men is not a solution. Turning men into women is a big problem.
• That women have equal orientation towards truth as men.

Of course there are various kinds of feminism so it is not possible to characterize all feminists as being this or that way. Mostly I agree with 1st and 2nd wave feminism. 3rd and 4th wave post-modern feminism is where I start to disagree because it becomes detached from material reality and starts to get silly and self-absorbed.

I recommend you read some feminist work and come to your own independent conclusions. Do not adopt my opinions just because they are my opinions.

Another cult documentary I'm watching. Very good.

I'll be sharing about a dozen cult documentaries with you over the next month here. I suggest you study them carefully and learn the lessons.

The brain is an imaginary engine running on imaginary fuel. The fuel is neurotransmitters. Different fuel produces different performance. The brain’s default fuel is the lowest kind, with the least conscious performance, the least spiritual. Higher fuels produce higher spiritual performance, higher consciousness. Psychedelics are not “drugs”, they are different neurotransmitters, high-octane fuels. But higher fuels are not free, they come with costs and trade-offs. You get a temporary performance boost but the performance is unsustainable and stresses the engine. However, it produces incredible consciousness which is absolutely impossible to attain on the default fuel.

Everyone takes for granted their default fuel. Unless you’ve tried other fuels, you don’t even know you have a default fuel. There is no such thing as a brain without fuel. You are always running on some fuel, the only question is what? The default fuel is the lowest one, so your “sober” state is the lowest state, the least intelligent state, the least spiritual state. Humanity does not understand this. They think their sober state is the best when it actually the worst. Yet all human thinking, sense-making, science, decision-making, business, action, and religion is happening from the lowest state, which is why mankind is so corrupt and spiritually bankrupt, to the point of demonizing and criminalizing most high performance fuels. This is one of mankind’s greatest blind-spots. Even spiritual teachers are dishonest and ignorant of this blind-spot, further misleading mankind. The simple reason that mankind is so ignorant of God is because they insist on using the wrong fuel and that the fuel doesn’t matter — when it is the #1 factor in all of spirituality. You are trying to understand Reality using the shittiest fuel. That's why your progress is so slow.

Scientists are like people trying to launch rockets with unrefined crude oil, when they should be using liquid hydrogen. They don't understand this, and when you tell them, they don't believe you and make excuses. They will even demonize and excommunicate any scientist who openly admits to using high performance fuels. It is no different than how they demonized the use of telescopes in Galileo's time.

One of mankind's greatest stupidities and barbarities is to demonize brain fuels they have never tried. It is as stupid as demonizing telescopes. The tool is demonized precisely because it expands the ego's finite horizon.

Don't forget, your brain IS drugs. There is no such thing as a brain without drugs. Don't kid yourself, you are a soup of chemicals and what those chemicals are matters a lot. There are better and worse chemicals, and you cannot assume that your current concoction is the best, the "natural", or the truest one. You don't know what the best is.

Note: There actually are lower fuels than the default fuel. So I am oversimplifying. Moreover, the brain's fuels are much broader in effect than car engine fuels. A car engine's fuels don't have nearly as much diversity of effects on the engine as the brain's fuels do. Changing the fuel in your car cannot turn your car into a submarine. But with the brain, it can. So this fuel analogy understates the point. Fuel for the brain is way more significant than fuel for a car engine. People do not understand this.