Leo's Blog: Infinite Insights
Miscellaneous bits of wisdom and resources on personal development, life purpose, philosophy, epistemology, nonduality, psychedelics, etc. Published randomly throughout the week.
- penetrating mental vision or discernment.
- the sudden act of grasping the inner nature or truth of a situation.
- a deep understanding of a person or thing.
Insights here are meant to be quick and half-baked. Consider these food for thought.
I've deliberately disabled comments to keep the blog streamlined. If you want to discuss any of the blog posts, you can do so here: Actualized.org Forum
I've been playing this game lately. It's addictive and insanely replayable. Highly recommend if you like turn-based combat. I love turn-based combat.
By the way, another simple game that grossed over $50 million.
Buy It On Steam (it's super on sale right now. Nearly free!)
Also available on other platforms like Switch, iOS, Xbox, PlayStation.
People like to whine about how my work is long-winded or repetitive. This is so myopic. Actually, the ratio of depth of understanding vs time in my work is insane. My work is the most direct and efficient communication given the depth of reality that is being understood. People complain about my stuff being too long, but then they go waste 3 hours listening to a podcast where people talk in shallow circles about nonsense and get nowhere. My work demands hundreds of hours, but by the end of those hundred hours you will understand reality deeper than a PhD who has been studying reality for 40 years. My work is insanely direct and efficient because it must be to reach Infinity. That's my whole epistemic attitude: Cut through all the bullshit. You will not find much work that takes you this deep, this directly, this efficiently. Everything I say is important. If it takes 5 hours to say it, that's because it's so important. I will never spend 5 hours talking about trivial things. That's what others do, not me.
Watch out! When you think you're saving time by taking shortcuts, you end up wasting years chasing your tail. But hey, at least you can do it one 10-minute clip at a time. People waste years of their lives watching thousands of stupid 10-minute clips that get them nowhere. One of my 4-hour long videos is worth 2 years of academic study. When you combine 100 of my videos, you get a result that is impossible to get any other way. You could not read 100 books and get what you will get from 100 of my videos. Each of my videos is worth more than reading 1 book — in terms of depth of understanding reality. There is no book you can read, no course you can take, no PhD program you can complete that will give you as deep an understanding of reality as watching all of my videos several times over. If you invest 1000 hours seriously studying my videos, you will understand reality deeper than 99.99999999% of anyone who has ever walked the Earth. That is my promise. And my work will only get deeper.
If you don't understand that 1000 hours is nothing — nothing! — for the value that you will get in return, you are a fool. If you could understand everything I teach in 1000 hours, this would like winning the lottery in life. People are such piss-poor investors. They don't know how to see true value and true cost. I am literally offering people Immortality in under 1000 hours. And the typical reaction is, "Nah, that's too long." Okay, idiot. Have it your way.
It is like I am selling an F-35 fighter jet for $1 million dollars, and people walk past the storefront window, see the price-tag and go, "Meh, that's too expensive." No! It's nothing! I'm giving it away! You should be creaming your pants at the sight of a $1 million dollar F-35. That's a real student of this work who will go far. When you first discover Actualized.org, it should feel like, "This is the craziest, highest-value thing I've ever found in my life! I cannot believe this is real. This is too good to be true." That's my vision for what I am building.
Just as a side lesson for you, whatever you're working on, whatever you're building, build it so that when people interact with it, they feel that it's too good to be true. That's how you know you've made something great. That should always be the aim of your work: "How can I create something that's too good to be true?" And then create it!
My work is so efficient that I even bluntly told you how efficient it is, in case you missed it.
This is my favorite iconization of Infinity. It is more profound than the yin-yang of nonduality or the enso of Zen. If I had to depict ultimate Reality in one symbol, it would be this. This icon literally depicts Everything. This is God. It is elegant and beautiful, as Truth must be. The symmetry and Unity of God.
This is such an awesome heavy contemplation song.
You can contemplate some deep shit with this going. This is contemplating life and death. I drive alone on a dark desert road in the middle of the night and contemplate reality for hours. That's my religion.
When I was 20 years old I got the brilliant idea to write the truest philosophy book ever written. It was going to be 500 blank pages and its title was going to be Ad Infinitum. I was serious. I wanted to write an infinite book of nothing. But then I realized that no one would buy my revolutionary book. It was then that I realized just how biased humans are against truth. Just cause they won’t buy it doesn’t mean it isn’t true.
How come my book was 500 blank pages? Because I figured out that the foundation of all human knowledge was groundless. Nothing was actually knowable for certain. I realized that Reality is so unknowable that it would be false for me to even write a book arguing that Reality was unknowable, since that is unknowable. I was in such a deep epistemic skepticism that the truest thing I could write was nothing. But this wasn’t a lazy nothing. This was an actual, proactive nothing. I needed to write a book of nothing, a book of negation. Because that was the truth. This was long before I knew anything about Buddhism, enlightenment, Nothing, God, Infinity, or spirituality. This was the best philosophy I could do on my own, independent of human knowledge. I took university philosophy classes to figure out how to write a book of negation against all human philosophy.
At 20 years old I clearly figured out that everything humans know is slop. This is why I quit academia. No one in academia would accept my book even though it was the deepest truth. I was so serious about truth that I took no human idea about reality seriously. My mind was so pure, so unbiased, so uncorrupted by human knowing that no academic, no scientist could fathom it. Little did I know then where that would ultimately lead me. I could have never imagined it ends in Infinity.
Even today I think back on those days and marvel at how pure my mind was, how pure my thinking. Such wisdom that I need to reflect on it today just to set myself epistemically back on track.
This was the intellectual foundation on which Actualized.org was built. Laid 20 years ago. This is why Actualized.org is what it is.
The reason I discovered Peter Ralston's Book of Not Knowing is because I achieved profound not-knowing on my own, so when I saw it, I immediately knew from the title alone that this was the highest quality intellectual work in existence. Like recognizes like. The highest intelligence is Not-Knowing. Humans are too stupid to comprehend this. Recently I have achieved such profound levels of Not-Knowing Awakening that it transcends sanity. My Not-Knowing of God is astonishing. I don't know God so profoundly that I achieve insane new levels of Awakening that can only come from Not-Knowing. God is utterly Unknowable. Nobody has a clue how Unknowable. Brain-melting Unknowability. It's a race to see who can know less.
Sharing some of my fave survival videos. I love watching survival videos. One man alone in nature. So pure.