Leo's Blog: Infinite Insights — Page 3
A year ago I went to my usual family doctor to renew a prescription. We somehow got sidetracked in our small-talk and I matter-of-factly told him that I study spiritual stuff. He got excited and wanted my opinion on a strange phenomena that's been happening to him. He proceeded to tell me that throughout his whole life he has experienced hallucinations that had a big influence on the trajectory of his life. People would appear in his life and give him life-changed advice, only later those people turned out to be full-blown hallucinations. But the advice they gave him was very beneficial. For example, one time in his youth in India a hallucinated person gave him advice to become a doctor. Which he followed. Another time, while he was finishing med school, another hallucinated person gave him advice to move from India to America. Which he followed. In both cases things worked out very well for him.
Then he told me that when he sleeps, a strange shadowy man appears in his bedroom and touches him. This has been happening to him regularly for decades.
Since I am into spiritual stuff he asked me what I make of all this. I told him I believed him. I told him that lots of spiritually gifted and neuro-divergent people experience strange and wacky spiritual phenomenon which is difficult to explain. I told him I don't know what's happening to him, but one thing's for sure: materialism is false and all of life is just a hallucination. He's never done drugs or psychedelics. He's a decent, normal, sane, rational, certified doctor, not any kind of New Age quack. He's been my doctor for over 10 years. If he hadn't told you this story, you wouldn't think there's anything usual or spiritual about him.
How do you make sense of something like that?
I still can't explain it. One thing I'm confident of is that he is not lying and he is not merely deluded or mentally ill.
I think there's a lot of people out there like my doctor, but they never speak up because they don't want to be seen as "crazy", especially if they are professionals who need to maintain credibility. So they keep quiet, which makes materialists think that nothing spiritual exists. There is a huge stigma in professional culture against talking seriously about such things. It's all just dismissed a bad for business. Which, again, is just survival bias. Has nothing to do with the truth of the matter. Materialists do not understand that spiritual experiences like this are actually quite common, they are just flippantly dismissed. Be careful what your mind dismisses.
Materialist explanations of such phenomena are completely unserious and unscientific.
I've been playing the most recent Zelda game on PC. It's quite an amazing game. The open world is awesome.
I don't like the idea of playing it on a Switch. I like playing it on PC at high resolution and at 60 FPS. The Yuzu Switch emulator runs amazingly well. I'm able to run it at 1080p 60 FPS on an Nvidia GeForce RXT 4060 Ti and Intel Core i7-13700K CPU. In some parts of the levels the FPS drops down into the 30s, but it's still very playable. The Yuzu emulator also allows the installation of very handy mods to your Zelda game, like this mod for removing fog and bloom. The fog and bloom in the Switch Zelda games is just disgusting and ruins the whole look of the game. It looks so much better without it. The art director who implemented fog and bloom should be fired. Whoever invented bloom deserves a spot in the lowest levels of Hell. No other visual effect has single-handedly ruined more games than bloom. And then there's this mod for removing repetitive cut scenes and excessive dialogue in shops and shrines.
Yuzu opens up a whole world of Zelda modding:
Here are all the mods I use:
- 60 FPS mod
- Reduction of Bloom & Fog
- Streamlined Repetitive Events
- 4k Textures
- Skip Bloodmoon Cut Scene
- Fast Camera Tracking
- Better Beedle
It takes a bit of technical work to figure out how to download and install Yuzu. But it's not too hard. You can find guides and videos online if you search around. It's a superior experience to playing it on the Switch.
Note: Using this emulator does not need to be piracy. I suggest you still buy a physical copy of the game to pay Nintendo their money. This is for people who like to play on PC at high rez with mods.
I just had this crazy-realistic dream where I found a giant centipede in my closet, grabbed it with some tongs, and was wrestling with it for hours as it was hissing, spraying me with a hot toxic mist, and biting me. When it was biting me, even the pain felt real. I was completely lost in the dream.
And then I just woke up.
Where is that centipede now? Poof! Gone.
That's exactly what physical reality is.
The universe, all of science, your entire life, your family — just a dream.
Good interview addressing the irresponsible ways Big Tech is handling AI.
Tristan Harris is a good example of responsibility and maturity.
I'm firmly convinced that none of these AI companies will create AGI. So that's not the problem. The problem is how they will use more limited kinds of AI for profit maximization and corruption. Especially as their AGI dream implodes and they become desperate to prop up their vastly overinflated stock prices.
I am predicting an AI bubble stock market crash coming in the next few years because AGI will not materialize.
The situation is not going to be that we have some God-like AI, it will be that corruption and greedy monopolistic tech companies use AI to shove low-quality AI slop down our throats. We will be drowning in toxic capitalistic forms of AI. It will not vastly improve our lives, but waste our mental bandwidth with crap. That's the real AI future, not fantasies of God-like AI smarter than humans. The future is AI mediocrity, grifting, slop, ads, stupidity, scams, misinformation, and annoyance.
HBO made a 9-part documentary about the NXIVM cult called The Vow. Watch it if you want to understand how cults work. NXIVM is a case study.
Here's the trailer for it:
You will notice that I do not run Actualized.org like NXIVM, even though I easily could. I could use Actualized.org to extract money and sex. I don't. Why don't I? Because the point of this work is pure understanding of reality, and extracting money and sex is a distraction from that. Money and sex are not important, what's important is understanding reality.
An important aspect of the commitment to truth is to make a rule with yourself that you will not defend false things. As soon as you see that something is false, allow it to die. This is the opposite of what most people do, they cling to falsehood by any means possible. This is wrong. If something you love is false, have the courage to let it die. It will hurt in the short-term but it is healthy for you in the long-term. The more falsehood you let die the better and healthier your life becomes.
Contemplate: "What falsehood have I been defending?"
And then visualize yourself letting it die.
See! Just right there you can see that truth is death.
Note: I am not talking about suicide.
This doctor quit his $700k/yr big pharma job because he saw how corrupt the whole system is and couldn't take it any more. Good for him.
But imagine how few doctors in his position would have the balls to do that? Most humans just conform to corruption because it is too hard to go against it. And when they conform they don't even register it as such. They don't see it as surrendering to corruption, they rationalize it as good. In this way evil tricks people into thinking it is good. The degree to which the entire healthcare system is corrupted by profit-maximization is insane. This is a case-study in how evil metastasizes like a cancer. All of it goes back to not caring enough about truth.
Most doctors do not have time to actually service their patient's healthcare needs, because that would be too expensive. So instead they just ask you a few questions within a 10-minute window, and write you an overpriced drug. Because that's all that can be done in the structure of a 10-minute window. Doctors visits should really be like Actualized.org videos: 3 hours of diagnosing and troubleshooting your problems. Instead they are like TikTok videos. Doctors are part of giant bureaucracy which is not asking what is best for patient health, it is asking how to maximize profit. This is the wrong thing to be asking and truly is a violation of the Hippocratic Oath. The Hippocratic Oath is an obligation to treat patients ethically, to the best of one's ability. Most doctors only treat patients to the best of their ability while maximizing profit. That's why healthcare sucks. You can't trust doctors to have the time to care about you. Even if they want to care, the system just won't let them because it slows down business.
Here's the deep insight: Truth/Love is bad for business. You have to be a psychopath these days to succeed in the corporate world. Why does the corporate world suck? Because it leaves no room for Truth/Love. The corporate world is always about maximizing profit. This is devil-worship.
This is why I said that truth-seeking is really about changing your lifestyle. It's not just science or philosophy, truth-seeking always involves the emotionally painful realization that you are embedded deep in a corrupt system. Truth cannot be seen from within this system, placing the responsibility on you to leave the system. But you don't even know how you will survive outside the system. This is why most people never find truth. Truth-seeking requires inventing new, better ways of surviving, which takes serious work.
The reason I can do truth-seeking is because I invented a new way of surviving for myself. Actualized.org IS my better way of surviving. It is a way that allows me to serve my survival needs while also seeking truth. You need to invent something like that for yourself. I don't mean a website or a YouTube channel, I mean you need to invent a more truthful way of surviving that suits your values, interests, passions, and style. Do not limit your ideas to websites, YouTube channels, teaching, or coaching. Think more outside the box. Find new creative avenues. You can't just emulate me, you have to do something unique and fresh that suits your personality. It takes years to find that, so be patient and don't lose hope.
Key insight: In order to be a Good person you must challenge and refuse falsehood. Refuse to live falsely.