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Being an online content creator is very self-deceptive. Doing this work for 13 years, I have become aware of devious self-deceptive forces acting upon me. These forces aren't perceptible until years into the process. This has been my greatest source of personal self-deception. And I study self-deception professionally. Which leaves me terrified for content creators who have zero understanding of self-deception in general. They are so screwed.

Here are the major traps I've seen:

• The pressure to publish content on a weekly basis slowly corrupts your work. This pressure to publish pressures you to make shit up. Your mind will concoct things regardless of truth or health just to fulfill your content quota. This can spiral out of control into delusional worldviews and fantasy. Because you aren't paid for veracity, you are paid only for views, disconnecting your work from reality, from truth, from Goodness.
• Your audience's commentary creates an echo-chamber of praise and validation which goes to your head, leads to big ego, and paints a fantasy in your mind of what people think of you and your work. The praise is too positive and criticism is too negative and gaslighty. You end up with a very fictitious and biased picture of who your audience is. The feedback you get is extremely noisy, biased, and low quality. Sorting through it all takes a bad toll on your mind and ignoring it all isn't viable because you need feedback on your work.
• Audience capture: there is crazy pressure not to lose your fans, so you start telling them what they want to hear rather than the truth. What you create becomes dictated by your fans.
• Evolving yourself becomes difficult because your fans don't want you to evolve, they want you to keep feeding them more of the same content, not more mature content. The more mature and healthy your content becomes, the more fans you lose, the less views you get, the less money you earn. The higher quality your work becomes the less money and fame you get, which doesn't feel good.
• Algorithm capture: there is crazy pressure to create content that is popular, which only happens when you chase hot topics which the algorithm prioritizes. The algorithm slowly corrupts your entire body of work. You don't have a body of work anymore, you just have algorithm-chasing hot topics.
• Huge pressure to create drama content, clickbait content, low consciousness, and critical content because that's what gets clicks.
• You start creating content that is harmful to people and society. You start pumping poison, toxicity, negativity, misinformation, and ideology into the information ecosystem. Your content is not beneficial, it's just popular and you don't even care anymore because you've lost your sense of direction. Who cares as long as it's getting views?
• Your work becomes highly derivative and 2nd-order. Rather than creating original content you fall into the trap of easy reaction content, criticizing other creators, ridiculing and attacking others. You're no longer a creator, you're a reactionary troll.
• The more you speak, the more your speaking persona becomes your new persona. Just speaking every week for years shifts and re-solidifies your persona into someone else. Gradually, imperceptibly, you drift into another person, often a worse version of yourself. You become the character you play. You can develop a delusional self-image as fans shower you with praise. You start to overlook all your evil and only see yourself as good.
• It's very difficult to be truly honest and authentic in front of millions of people who constantly judge you, so you end up inventing a fake, sanitized character. You become a fake online persona and you start to feel a hypocrite in private.
• You can literally talk yourself into twisted and delusional ideologies and worldviews. If you talk about communism enough you will become a dogmatic communist. If you are cynical all the time in your videos you will eventually blackpill yourself and your audience without even noticing.
• Sponsorship corruption: You slowly start taking more and more money for sponsorships, for ads, for ever more lucrative deals, until your channel becomes a platform for grifters and corporate scams. Gradually you rationalize to yourself that selling out is fine. You slowly sell your soul to the Devil for sponsorship money. Until eventually you are promoting online gambling, crypto scams, and dick pills, and telling yourself this is normal, "Everyone's doing it".
• You find yourself creating content that you don't even want to create anymore just because you have to to keep the cart rolling. You're creating content and you don't even know why anymore.
• You become addicted to the internet and social media because you're online all the time for work. But then you can't stop because it goes beyond work. You're always online and this rots your mind, work ethic, social life, sex life, etc.
• The tempting trap of having sex with your fans and followers, using them as a funnel for quick easy sex, but ruining your reputation and hurting your fans. Your fans will make this extra hard on you by tempting you with offers of free sex and sending you nudes — even if you never asked for it.
• Getting stuck in a cycle of talking about the same things over and over and over again because you don't have legitimate new content to share. Gradually your content turns into repetitive slop.
• Burnout: driving yourself to the point of exhaustion producing weekly content for years until you are sick of it all but you still feel the need to keep producing to feed the algorithm.
• Creating a cult-like following of conformist fans who support you mindlessly to their own detriment. The more popular you become the more mindless fans and yes-men you will get. Even if you tell them to stop, they can't help themselves.
• Banning/blocking anyone who challenges you, anyone who criticizes you, until all that remains are sycophantic yes-men, deepening your echo-chamber.
• Making so much money so fast and so easy that the money itself corrupts you, making you spoiled and entitled, disconnected from the real labor market.
• Becoming so famous that fame itself corrupts you, gives you a huge ego.
• Getting into a rut just by working from home, working by yourself for years and years. You become socially isolated and reclusive in unhealthy ways. You have no colleagues to give you feedback, to share new ideas with you, to push back on you, to push back on you, to demand more from you. Working alone is great for the first 10 years, but then it gets quite old.
• Revealing too much private information about yourself online, and never being able to take it back because anything on the internet is forever.
• Talking too much and saying stupid shit. If you speak on camera long enough, if you post on social media long enough, you are guaranteed to say stupid shit which you will regret but can never remove. And people will hold it against you FOREVER. You have to be constantly worrying about saying something stupid, which is exhausting. You will say stupid, cringe shit which you will then have to apologize for and then white-wash yourself, which becomes even worse than the disease. The trap of the cover-up becoming worse than the crime.
• Publicly reacting to criticism in ugly and emotional ways. Often your reaction causes more damage than anything you're reacting against, creating a devious trap. You must train yourself to hold poise and not react to all the criticism and trolling you will certainly receive. But this takes years to train and it will be hard to maintain it constantly.
• Not doing greater things with your life/career/business because you are forever stuck in the online content creation loop. Mastering new things is much harder than just churning out online slop. The offline world often doesn't pay as well as slop and clickbait does, which spoils you.
• Dealing with stalkers, doxxing, death threats, mentally ill fans, and suicidal fans. Knowing how to handle that is an acquired skill that nobody teaches you, you only learn through trial and error.
• People will constantly misunderstand you, forcing you to spend way too much time explaining, rationalizing, and justifying yourself both publicly but more importantly privately, inside your own mind. Your mind will have to explain to itself why it says what it says. These self-justifications easily spiral into delusion. Self-justification becomes a devious and subtle psychological trap. It's easy to get gaslighted by your audience but even by yourself. You have to get used to living with many people misunderstanding you beyond your ability to correct. And the more you try to explain yourself publicly, the weaker you will look, the more people will use it against you — creating a devious trap.
• The more popular you get, the more unfair gotcha content other creators will make about you, since that's easy brainless content for them and gets them lots of views. Ignorant and misinformed creators will outright slander and libel you, invent nefarious narratives about you, accuse you of heinous things as if it is fact, and if you aren't careful and you start reacting to it or arguing with them, they will drag you through the mud and you will only make people believe the misinformation. "Why doth he protest so much? He must be guilty!"
• Once you get super-popular, ignorant journalists from mainstream media will start to do journalistic reporting on you, combing through everything you ever said, cherry-picking the most triggering and outrageous things you ever said, stripping it entirely of context, ignoring anything positive you ever said or did, and reporting on you as a dangerous villain — because they are paid for every clickbait journal article they write. The more popular you get the more politicized they will make you, trying to turn you into a political enemy of the right or left, whichever fits best. Finally, they will launch campaigns to get you canceled, deplatformed, and demonitized because obviously you are a dangerous villain.
• If you are take drugs, psychedelics, or alcohol and you have access to social media accounts, God help you. You can easily destroy your whole career with a few careless drunk posts.
• If you are doing deep spiritual work while doing this, you will go through mood swings and state changes which can last days or weeks, which make you seem or act unhinged from your audience's POV, and they will not understand why and hold it against you.
• You will form vague ideas of who your audience is, but that is likely to be highly over-simplified so you will never truly know. You will constantly be surprised by the diversity and chaos of your audience. You will try to cater to one segment of your audience, then another, then back, and you will never be able to please all segments.
• You will try to pretend and act like you don't care what people think of you online. But it's not so easy. Word will reach you eventually and you will care. Criticism will hurt you and praise will thrill you, jerking your emotions up and down like a see-saw. Your online reputation is important for your business, career, and influence.
• The less you chase after popularity and clicks, the harder it will be for you to survive financially. Perhaps to the point where you die. Pushing you to chase and sell out to sponsors and unethical gimmicks.
• There will be a strong pressure to manipulate and scheme behind-the-scenes to advance your career and online business. You will then try to hide this manipulation and scheming from your audience, making you duplicitous and incongruous.
• There will be a strong incentive to form cabals and alliances with other content creators to mutually benefit each other, but at the cost of making you all corrupt together. These cabals will then corrupt your work in favor of collective survival.
• Your inbox will be spammed with all sorts of shady, corrupt, scammy business offers, partnerships, and sponsorships, which if you don't choose wisely, will ruin your reputation.
• You will be tempted to be dramatic, bombastic, and edgy for clicks and views. Then this will become your new persona.
• You will even be tempted to create fake content. Fake photos, fake vacations, fake stories, fake emotional reactions, etc. Anything to feed the insatiable algorithm.
• You will be tempted to create and sell stupid merch and products that no one really needs. T-shirts with your logo on them, useless widgets, useless supplements, overpriced coaching calls, mastermind groups, etc. Anything just to monetize your traffic. And you will convince yourself that this is actually Good. You will invent schemes to exploit your followers while telling yourself that it's good for them when it really isn't.
• You will fall into a deep conformity, where you see every other creator behaving this way, so it must be normal and healthy.
• Even if you manage to mature, evolve, and master all of the above, that will take you years and people will still judge you by your worst, not your best.

Being a popular online influencer creates a powerful reality-bubble which is very difficult to step outside of and see objectively. Every major content creator is living inside his/her self-constructed bubble without realizing it, without understanding the costs. The pressure to create content corrupts the mind. Seeing the success of your content corrupts the mind. Reading all the positive and negative feedback corrupts the mind. Chasing after views, clicks, and subscribers corrupts the mind. Taking money from sponsors corrupts the mind. Pleasing your fans corrupts the mind. Just being online corrupts the mind.

If you are an online content creator, take all these traps seriously.

Nobody teaches you the psychology of how to be an online content creator, so you will spend years stumbling through it, not even understanding the problems. These problems will be opaque to you. You will be like a lost child in the middle of a cornfield with lions running loose.

Good luck.

We aren't done yet. This is so much worse than it first seemed.

(Don't watch too much of this. Just enough to get the idea.)

Let me explain the grift this guy is running. Clavicular is naturally very good-looking. He's already in the top 5% of looks before he did any looksmaxxing. Yet he's so into Blackpill ideology that he thinks he's not good enough and he is convincing millions of young men that they don't have a chance of getting girls even if they look like him. Then he invents bullshit looks-maxxing techniques which barely improve one's looks at all, but it makes him feel and look like he's doing something to get his top 5% of looks. The genius of Clavicular's grift is that he's convinced millions of foolish young men to believe that his results with girls come from looks-maxxing techniques when in fact they come from his natural top 5% genetics. So then he can sell these desperate and Blackpilled young men millions of dollars of useless techniques which will not improve their looks much at all. Meanwhile they will not learn socialization skills, not learn game, have horrible inner game, be horribly insecure, and thereby never attract girls, creating a confirmation-bias feedback loop that makes them ever more confident that Blackpill is truth. The more these young men desperately try to looks-max, the more they listen to Clavicular, the more insecure they will get, the worse their results with girls will be, the more Blackpilled they will get. Because the #1 key to success with girls is rock-solid inner game. Blackpill ideology is inner game cancer.

Insidious!

The self-deception here is off-the-charts. Notice how powerful of a self-deception loop this is. How do you save a mind from this toxic epistemic bubble?

Calvicular's mind does not have the construct-awareness necessary to see that it is constructing his insecurity about looks. He thinks he needs to do all this shit but in truth he doesn't. He's doing it unconsciously because it gets him clicks and money. Not because it gets him girls. Clavicular would get way more girls if he dropped all the looks-maxxing stuff and just learned game, especially inner game.

Clavicular is like a super-model selling make-up to ugly girls by fooling them into thinking that make-up can turn them into super-models. But the whole value of a super-model is her genetics, not any techniques. No amount of techniques can make you look like a model if you weren't already born one. That's why models are paid so well.

I don't have good looks, Clavicular would rate me terribly, yet my inner game is way better than Calvicular's and girls will like my personality more because I'm not so obsessed with myself. I look way worse than Calvicular yet I'm more happy than him because I don't care and he does. That's the power of inner game.

Blackpill ideology has become so toxic and pervasive that even a guy in the top 5% of looks thinks he's too ugly. This is insane.

Or, Calvicular knows all this but he's acting like he doesn't for clickbait. I'm not sure which is worse.

One of the reasons I'm so passionate about Acualized.org is because I want to help people avoid stupid epistemic bubbles like this. If you learn what I teach you should become immune to these kind of mind traps. And there are many variations of this mind trap.

Many good insights here about the realities of marriage.

Think really, really, really hard before marrying anyone. Marrying the wrong person will ruin you.

What the fuck am I watching? It's like I live amongst pigs.

How do you people live like this? This is a circus of pervertry.