Leo's Blog: Infinite Insights — Page 17
All of science has a constructionist bias. This means that science flavors construction over deconstruction. No one is going to pay a scientist grant money for deconstructing reality. Why? Because grants want return on investment. There is no return on investment for deconstructing reality, for telling the investor that he is an illusion and a devil. But all of science runs on grant money. Grants expect you to make useful constructions. This is a gigantic bias because truth is not a construction. But scientists don't care because they need to fulfill grants just to survive. You can't have an illustrious career deconstructing reality. No one will give you a Nobel prize for deconstructing reality. Good luck convincing the Nobel prize committee that they are fools hallucinating reality.
If truth can only be found through deconstruction, science will never find it because that’s not what the system is set up for. And they don't question the system because their life depends on it, they are too invested. This is what I mean when I say science’s master is survival, not truth. Notice that true intellectual rigor requires not being biased towards construction or deconstruction. So science is both biased and unrigorous. This demonstrates that science is not objective. Which, of course, it isn’t. Chasing utility and value is NOT objective!
I realized this when I was 20 years old, which is why I quit academia. I realized that reality must be deconstructed and academia would never accept my deconstruction of it. So I pursued truth on my own. What I want from science is true objectivity, but they will never give it to me because it would kill them. But the sad thing is that they are clueless of this whole dynamic. They actually think this doesn't matter.
If you fully deconstruct the finite mind you will die and merge into Infinity. “But Leo, is that physical death?” There is no such thing as physical death. Physical death is part of your finite mind. When you merge into Infinity you will no longer distinguish between whether you are dead or alive. But your finite mind will be as afraid of this as physical death because the finite mind will be nullified. You will exist as absolutely nothing. Whether you return from Infinity is unknown. You will not know if you will return. You may not, and that is the risk of union with God. As soon as you feel yourself getting pulled into Absolute Infinity you will probably freak out and quickly snap yourself back into finite material duality. Your mind will not allow a full union with Infinity because that is truly its death. It will feel like you are about to kill yourself just by merging with Infinity.
I’m just warning you of how it works. Again, this work is not for cowards. Infinity is as serious as life & death. Ideally you would completely merge into Infinity, completely die, cease to exist as anything, exist in Infinity for Eternity, and then reemerge into human form. But there are no guarantees when you go that deep. That’s what Leap of Faith means. When you go completely into Infinity you are trusting God that you will reemerge as a human. But there is no guarantee and you must be okay with never returning. That’s why this work is so serious. I am not pushing you to do anything here. Use your own judgment. I am not responsible for your decisions.
But also, look at it like this: Every night you go to sleep, you are trusting in God that you will reemerge. And there is never a guarantee. You could die in your sleep any night. But you never even think about this. Because you just trust the process so much. Your trust goes much deeper than you realize.
If you completely disappeared, existed in Infinity Forever, and then returned — that would be a life-changing Awakening. You would never be the same again. You would be death incarnate.
By the way, the longer you reside inside of Pure Infinity, the more God heals all your corruption. God's Love will annihilate all of your corruption until you become absolutely nothing. If you reemerge, you will be Nothing incarnate.
That is the ultimate spiritual process. It doesn't get any more serious and profound than that.
