Leo's Blog: Infinite Insights — Page 62

Sometimes people complain to me, "Leo, I had some awakening, but where is the beauty you promised me?"

The Beauty doesn't magically come after awakening, the Beauty is already all around you, just stop taking it for granted. Appreciation of Beauty is a skill that requires proactive cultivation. No one is gonna force-feed it to you. And you shouldn't wait for Awakening to start practicing it.

Here's one of my fave channels showcasing the Beauty of nature:

Stop with your depressing human crap. Seriously! Stop it! Turn your attention on the Beauty found all around you in the Universe. Let God's Beauty be thy North Star.

This is mindblowing:

Now imagine that there exist people on this planet who's minds are as different from the typical human mind as that body is different from the typical human body. Now you can start to understand mysticism. The reason you don't understand stuff like psychic abilities is because your mind is not of the right type to have them. Stop assuming every human mind is the same. Not at all. The diversity of human minds is even greater than diversity of human bodies. When you finally get this, life will make a hell of a lot more sense.

Mathematician explains infinity in 5 levels of difficulty:

No mathematician understands what Infinity really is. Infinity is not a quantity, it is not a number, it is not set theory, it is not category theory, it is not even mathematics.

Infinity is the whole of reality itself.

Infinity is reality. Infinity is God. Infinity is Love. Infinity is Truth. Infinity is Consciousness. Infinity is You.

Infinity is infinitely larger than the entire domain of mathematics. Mathematics is a subset of Infinity.

Infinity is so large that your cat is Infinity.

Your dog is Infinity.

Your chair is Infinity.

Rape is Infinity.

That's how profound Infinity is!

Infinity does not belong to mathematics, mathematics belongs to Infinity! This is a common mistake mathematicians and logicians make. They got the whole thing backwards. Mathematics is a subset of Consciousness. Therefore it is impossible to understand Infinity from within the domain of mathematics. To understand Infinity you must understand Consciousness at the highest, most holistic level. Which no mathematician understands. The only one who can understand Infinity is a mystic. Which is prohibited in current science. Therefore no scientist can understand Infinity. It's a sad state of human ignorance.

Great video demonstrating the lessons I taught in my videos: The Metaphysical Implications Of Godel's Incompleteness Theorem and What Is Paradox?

To this day logicians do not comprehend the significance of this paradox. This paradox results from the problem of self-reference, which leads to a circularity that demonstrates the impossibility of a finite system being able to grasp reality. What logicians and scientists still don't understand is that these paradoxes occur because the ultimate nature of reality is Infinite. You cannot ever capture Infinity no matter how hard you try, because the thing you're trying to capture it with, is itself. It's like you're trying to use a knife to cut itself.

"The fly that doesn't want to be swatted is safest if it sits on the fly-swatter." — G.C. Lichtenberg

Contemplating these paradoxes when I was in my early 20's lead me to realize that reality is infinite, unformalizable, trans-logical, and beyond the comprehension of scientific method. At that time I didn't even know about God or Awakening, but I already knew reality was too elusive for human logic to grasp it.

Reality cannot be logical, it must be trans-logical. Logical people are very stupid for not understanding this. And this fact is virtually not understood by all scientists, academics, mathematicians, and logicians. Even though they know these paradoxes, they are not intelligent enough to see the full consequences of these paradoxes for the ultimate nature of reality.

The bottom line is this: You literally cannot calculate God because it is too mysterious. And you are a fool for thinking you ever could.

This guy made a whole YT channel explaining the corruption within academia that only insiders know:

This is why Truth cannot be found within academia and why science is clueless about the ultimate nature of reality. Academia loves to posture as though it's all about objectivity and facts, but in practice it's filled with human bullshit and political games because priority #1 is survival, not Truth. And yet, mainstream normies go along living life as though science & academia was just objective fact with no deep epistemic or metaphysical corruptions.

Good luck getting an academic to understand a thing when understanding it will undermine the entire system to which he has sold is soul. Academics are as lost in group-think as everyone else in society. Academia is a game and a pyramid scheme.

That's why I didn't go into academia. To me this whole scheme was obvious at age 21 — it disgusted me — and what disgusted me even more is that no one else saw it. It was like I was the crazy one for pointing this out. There is a sort of implicit gaslighting that takes place where you feel bad for pointing such things out — like you are being the asshole for pissing on everyone's gravy train. But the reality is simple: you can't find Truth in a university.

Some daring folks started a "church" around a new psychedelic chemical called Psilomethoxin, which is 4-HO-5-MeO-DMT. They make this chemical by growing psilocybin mushrooms laced with 5-MeO-DMT. Supposedly the chemical breaks down into 5-MeO-DMT in the body after oral consumption. It produces a 4hr long version of a typical 5-MeO-DMT trip. The trip is milder but longer.

Church Website

I am merely sharing this information for educational purposes. I have not tried it and I do not endorse or vouch for its safety. If you decide to try it, assume all responsibility and legal risk for yourself. Do your research so you are aware of any legal risks you may be getting into. I am just sharing this with you as news within the psychedelic community. In the future this chemical may become popular, although I would still prefer plugging pure 5-MeO-DMT. If you want longer trips, you can plug it as many times as you want. I've done 10-hour long trips. Just beware, it will completely destabilize your mind to a dangerous degree, so I don't recommend toying with such things. Please don't hurt yourself.

Here's a video about Psilomethoxin:

As passionate as I am about psychedelics, I need to underscore that psychedelics are dangerous. Not just dangerous, very dangerous. These are not toys. I see that many who follow me are young, immature, ungrounded, underdeveloped, mentally unstable, and could badly harm themselves with psychedelic overuse.

I've gone so deep down the psychedelic rabbit-hole that I am more and more aware of their dangers to the general population. There is a good reason why this stuff is banned in many places. Using psychedelics properly is not easy, and even for someone as mature and responsible as myself, I have had some near-lethal encounters. Simply because if you do them hundreds of times, just by raw probabilities, things will go sideways as you lose your grip on reality.

If you are using psychedelics, make sure that you are extra careful:

• Do not over use them.
• Do not fool yourself that they will be a shortcut to avoid all the difficult, grinding spiritual and developmental work.
• Be careful not to use them as a bypass for basic developmental work.
• Be careful not to destabilize your mind and life too much. Staying grounded is extremely important.
• Have a strict protocol you follow. Set guidelines for yourself of what you are not allowed to do while on them: no texting, no emailing, no social media, no driving, no handling guns or weapons, no sitting in high places where you could fall or jump off, no walking around in public, no working in the kitchen, no investment or spending decisions, no relationship decisions, etc. Be extra careful that you do not physically injure yourself.
• Be careful that you do not become suicidal due to their use. If you are starting to lose your sanity or groundedness and are having suicidal thoughts, you need to discontinue use immediately, reground yourself, and possibly seek therapeutic help.
• Do not toy with unproven combinations and unknown/unproven chemicals.
• Be careful that you are not spiraling mentally out of control and ruining your basic human life, career, relationships, finances, etc.
• Be careful that you do not follow through on some harebrained idea to "unite with God" by killing yourself.
• Be careful that you don't get lost in a maze of your own mind, spinning elaborate fantasies, delusions, and projections.
• Be careful that you don't use psychedelics to build up an elaborate new spiritual ego. Watch out for arrogance and delusions of grandeur. Yes you are God but don't let that go to your head.
• Take care for your health: maintain good nutrition, exercise, go to the doctor for regular check-ups, etc. Pay attention to whether psychedelic use is having a negative impact on your physical health. If it is, discontinue use.
• Do not let psychedelics take you off track with your education, life purpose, career, business, family obligations, etc.
• Give yourself plenty of time and space for fully integrating each trip before you jump into the next.
• Make sure you have some manual spiritual practice besides psychedelics.
• Make sure you are not developing a psychological addiction to psychedelics.

If you use them a lot and go deep with them, psychedelics truly are dangerous for most people. So please be careful and mature about how you approach them. Do not fool yourself by thinking that you are above such things. People will definitely end up  hurting themselves as psychedelic use becomes more normalized, so take this issue seriously. Do not be that guy who ruins psychedelics for the rest of us. Treat them with the care and respect they deserve. And if you are younger than 21, I recommend you hold off on using them because you are just not mature enough yet to use them responsibility and you could easily destroy your life.

Healthy & mature psychedelic use requires a solid foundation of personal development work. So build that! Do not fool yourself that you can bypass that for some quick gains. Psychedelics are not to be thought of as a shortcut.

Reflecting on my own selfishness, I felt it was hard to trust my own assessment of myself. Nor could I trust the opinions of my online critics, who sometimes accuse me of narcissism. I wanted to find some objective metric. So I found this brief online Narcissistic Personal Inventory.

You can take the narcissism test here to see how you score.
(It's free and only takes 5 minutes.)

I scored 13/40. Higher scores indicate greater narcissism.

The average US adult in 2009 scored 15.3/40
The average US celebrity in 2009 scored 17.8/40

I'm surprised I didn't rank higher.

There is a further breakdown of narcissism by "facets", which for me came out as:

Authority: 6/8
Self-Sufficiency: 4/8
Superiority: 2/8
Exhibitionism: 1/8
Exploitativeness: 0/8
Vanity: 0/8
Entitlement: 0/8

You can share your results with the Actualized Forum here.