Leo's Blog: Infinite Insights — Page 122
I want to seriously apologize for being too dismissive and callous about peoples' feelings and suffering in my work. I adopted that approach for selfish reasons to reach certain astounding levels of understanding of reality — which required me to turn my back on everything human. But this approach came with limits and some serious costs which have been coming home to roost.
As a spiritual teacher I want to be more sensitive to the suffering that people come to me with. Very deep recent suffering in my own life has awoken me to the importance of cultivating a deeper compassion for the many varieties of suffering and struggle that ordinary humans face. Over the last few years I had become so monomanically engrossed in my pursuit of pure understanding and reaching the highest possible states of consciousness that I started to stray from the human side of this work. The profound paradox of this work is that it is so beyond the human and the personal but simultaneously so unavoidably human and personal.
Sometimes I would say things like, "I don't care about how you feel", when a more mature response would have been for me to care. The truth is, I didn't want to care because I wanted to save my mental resources to access higher understanding. But as much as I want to say that I don't care about feelings, the truth is that I cannot ignore my own feelings when I am in deep suffering, so it is an ugly and untenable double-standard to deny the same to others. My own recent deep suffering has forced a certain kind of truth upon me: the truth of compassion and respect for humanity. One devilish trap of this work is that as you access insanely high states of consciousness you may start to become cocky, falling into the illusion of feeling that you are invincible and above humanity. But of course no matter how conscious you get you are not invincible in this human form.
My adventures in higher consciousness led me to start to develop a contempt for mankind which took me a while to figure out how to integrate. I had to question and transgress against classic spiritual virtues like humility, compassion, and goodness itself. This was a phase and it had its uses. But going forward I want to work on the humanity aspect of my development and presentation. So I apologize if I was ever dismissive of your humanity or your suffering. I could have handled that better. If you are suffering right now, if you are feeling bad, I want to tell you this: I'm sorry you're stuck going through so much hurt — sometimes it hurts so much it seems like a surreal dream — but you must stay strong and look for ways to transmute this into becoming a better human. A more loving human. And to sharpen your priorities. This requires serious optimism, turning inward, and perhaps rethinking your whole approach to life. It might also require reaching out to another human and asking for emotional support. Don't feel too proud to do that. There are good people out there who want to help. It might also require some deep solitude, of just laying in bed and crying yourself to sleep. Give yourself the comfort and love you need in your darkest hour. Remember that hitting rock bottom means that there's a lot of room for upside. And remember that bad things often lead to great things.
I'm going through a phase right now where I am doing a lot of soul-searching to determine what the next level is for me. And by next level I don't mean some higher state of trans-human consciousness but how to be a better human. I want to rethink my relationship to the human. I had started to take it for granted. A big part of why this happened to me is because I over-consumed politics, social media, and online communication, which has become so toxic and low-consciousness in the last 10 years. If you are chronically online and consuming social media or political content I have to warn you to be extremely careful or your mind will get completely poisoned within a matter of 5 years. Do not underestimate how serious this can get, and it can happen to you so gradually that you won't even remember your old humane self.
I have gotten too sloppy lately and you might say that God has given me a whipping and now I'm licking my wounds and rethinking some things. I make plenty of mistakes as I stumble my way through this work. That's one of the secrets to deep learning. You will learn a lesson 10x deeper by screwing up and feeling that pain than you will by following some rules in a book. So don't beat yourself up too much for making deep mistakes. Try to transmute your deepest mistakes into life-changing lessons that you never forget. When you make a mistake and recognize why it was a mistake, that's gold. Right now I am going through a phase where I am inspecting all of my past work, sayings, and worldview for deep contradictions and weaknesses. The mind is so sneaky, it bullshits so well, that once every 5 or 10 years you just have to step back from business as usual and go back to the drawing board.
Thanks for sticking with me despite my limitations. I will try to be a better human going forward.
And remember, it's always better to admit a mistake than to live on it forever. So don't be afraid. A huge part of healing is admitting deep errors in your ways. And I promise you, there are many deep errors in your ways.
Skeptics often ask me, "If UFOs are real, why do they only seem to occur in the United States?" Well, of course UFOs happen all around the world. In fact, one of the best documented cases of an alien crash and recovery happened in Brazil in 1996. Here's the full story (skip to timestamp 1:14:30):
I recommend watching James Fox's full documentary on this incident. It's very well done. Below is just the trailer, you can buy the full thing on Amazon.
It's amazing how similar this incident is to the Roswell incident, including the cover-up.
"But Leo! You said you don't believe in conspiracy theories." I generally don't. However, I think it's highly likely that if the military ever found an alien spacecraft or alien bodies, they would cover it up as they clearly did in the case of Roswell and Varginha. The way they do the cover-ups is pretty sloppy, which is why rumors and myths about UFOs have circulated around for decades. It's not that people are making up stories, it's that these incidents actually happened but covering them up is almost impossible so bits and pieces inevitably leak out because otherwise you'd have to kill a dozen eyewitnesses, which would be monstrously psychopathic, highly illegal, and draw even more attention to the story. The military is not ruthless enough to kill some 12 year old girl just because she saw some alien foot. But they will intimidate and discredit her, and they will bullshit the public. Bullshitting the public is what PR folk excel at.
To me, the idea that all these eyewitnesses are lying or delusional is a bigger conspiracy than a military cover-up. You have to understand that intelligence agencies like the CIA recruit sociopaths on purpose to fill their ranks. So for them lying is business as usual, especially if the topic is alien spacecraft and bodies. You just have to accept the reality that the government is not going to be honest with you about aliens because this topic is way too heavy. However, the eyewitnesses have no reason to make up such detailed, consistent, and outlandish stories.
Sometimes life is just stranger than fiction. But if you think about it properly, it's not that strange that aliens crash-land on Earth if life is abundant in the universe. It will only seem strange to you if you assume that life is impossibly rare. But that assumption contradicts basic science.
A good documentary about the real story behind Roswell:
What's amazing about the Roswell case is that the military's initial response was simply to tell the truth: That they recovered a flying saucer. They literally admitted it in their first press release! Then it took them a few days to change their story once the higher-ups realized how serious this was. And ever since they have decided to concoct cover stories rather than just being straight with the public. Remember, that during the time of Roswell the CIA didn't even exist yet! So secrecy methods were not perfected yet. It was a simpler time.
If you think about it for a bit, there is no way that any human would ever confuse debris from a weather balloon or an airplane with debris from an alien spacecraft. Even country rednecks are not that stupid. And there's no way that anyone would confuse a live alien with anything else. If you see a live alien face-to-face in broad daylight there's not gonna be any doubt in your mind about it. And that's exactly what the eyewitnesses at Roswell saw.
My backyard. Very interesting how they work. I've bumped into hundreds of them in my Vegas adventures.
Here's very good documentary about the problems at the border. One area where Progressives and Leftists go wrong is with border policy. Progressives are really delusional about not locking down the border. It's a good example of what I call "idiot compassion". When you see the actual border situation as shown in this video, it's pretty clear that the US border needs to be locked down.
This is a good issue on which the left can reach a good compromise with the right, where the right is not bat-shit crazy. The left needs to stop demonizing the right for wanting a secure border. Wanting to secure the border is not racism.
It's amusing to see the look on this materialist's face when a serious scientist keeps telling him over and over again that the scientific evidence for ESP is undeniable.
Do you see? The problem is that a materialist cannot admit that any of these phenomena are real no matter how much scientific evidence is gathered for them. Because to admit even one valid case of the paranormal means that all of materialism is wrong. Materialism is the dogmatic worldview which says that paranormal things cannot exist. This worldview was never built on any facts or proofs, it was always just a dogma. And therefore no amount of studies can ever disprove it. You can't disprove something which was never adopted based on proof in the first place.
So how do we overcome this dogma? Well, you see, all the materialists have to die. And then we will get scientific progress. Science only advances one scientist's corpse at a time. Ta-daaaa! So less talking and more dying! Shut up and die already you scientist!
Please don't kill any scientists. Allow them to die naturally in their own ignorance.
It pains me to see such an intelligent man saying such unintelligent things. So I would like to help this brother out by answering all of his questions precisely:
1) "It looks like we live in an accidental world."
Only if you are blind — brainwashed by academia to take all of reality for granted.
The chances of a single atom appearing by accident out of nothing are literally ZERO! This is pure fairy tail. Everything in reality is designed with insane levels of intelligence. There's not a single bug or error in the operation of the entire Universe!
2) "GOD does not seem to stick his finger in the workings of the Universe."
The workings of the Universe ARE GOD's fingers. Your fingers are literally GOD's fingers.
3) "But what made GOD?"
GOD is self-creation. GOD made itself since nothing outside itself exists to prevent it from doing so.
GOD is the only possible metaphysical object that can create itself. This self-creation is made possible by the logic of INFINITY. INFINITY is a special object unlike any other. INFINITY can create itself by virtue of being so unlimited that it doesn't posses the limit of ordinary objects of being unable to create themselves. A finite object cannot create itself, but an infinite object can because what would stop it? What stops a finite object is that it needs to get energy from outside itself to create itself. But an infinite object does not have an outside and has infinite energy, thereby circumventing the ordinary prohibition on self-creation. Nothing else can create GOD but GOD. If GOD creating itself seems like a logical impossibility to you, just realize that logical possibility first has to be created by GOD before it can apply to GOD. So GOD is prior to the limits of logic. And yes, INFINITY is a paradoxical object. That's not an error. Just like you must learn to think differently to think about quantum mechanics, you must learn to think differently to think about INFINITY. That doesn't make INFINITY unreal or some kind of irrational dogma. INFINITY has a kind of meta-logic which is different from the finite logic which applies to finite objects.
4) "What is GOD made out of? Is it made out of atoms?"
GOD is made out of CONSCIOUSNESS. Atoms are made out of CONSCIOUSNESS.
5) "How many dimensions does GOD move around in?"
Infinite.
6) "Does GOD satisfy the laws of quantum mechanics?"
GOD is imagining the laws of quantum mechanics. GOD IS quantum mechanics, and much more.
7) "What agency allows GOD to poke his thing into the laws of nature?"
GOD doesn't need to poke his thing into the laws of nature, GOD IS nature.
The agency of GOD is Infinite Imagination. GOD is an unlimited mind-field which has no limits on what it can imagine.
8) "Why do human beings have such a strong need for the irrational?"
Why are scientists so irrational despite the clear answers I have given? Maybe it's because the truth is very threatening to the human mind. Rational and irrational are subjective and relative notions. Quantum mechanics and string theory would seem irrational to many uneducated people. Likewise, GOD seems irrational to those who have not made a deep study of the mechanics of GOD. What you regard as irrational are simply things which don't make sense to you or don't fit your current paradigm. To a caveman it would seem deeply irrational that we live on a round planet and yet all the land looks flat and we don't ever fall off. There are many higher orders to reality which are not irrational but trans-rational. GOD is not irrational, it is trans-rational. GOD operates by a nonlinear multi-dimension strange-loopy logic which would break the human mind. This is not a cop-out. I am not merely saying that "God works in mysterious ways and so just shut up and blindly believe and pray". If you bother to transcend your human mind you can understand GOD's logic. But you have to grow yourself so much that you will stop feeling human.
9) "Why do so many human beings believe in GOD?"
You will find this very difficult to believe but here's the honest answer: for the exact same reason that most human beings believe in Antarctica.
10) "If it's true that there is an intelligence that created the Universe, how do you describe it?"
Very easily. The Universe is an Infinite Mind which dreamed itself into existence. You ARE this mind. The Universe is an Unlimited Intelligence. The Universe can have Unlimited Intelligence simply because there's nothing stopping it. It's as easy for the Universe to be dumb as it is to be intelligent. So really the Universe can play both functions. It can be infinitely dumb or infinitely intelligent, and everything in between. It just depends on how CONSCIOUS it happens to be at the moment.
11) "What are the rules?"
Since nothing exists outside of this ONE Infinite Mind, there literally are no rules. Which allows it to dream anything it wants. An Infinite Mind can impose whatever rules it wants on itself in order to experience itself as a finite mind. So the rules of physics are all imaginary constructions designed to create the experience of a finite mind. This finite mind is what you're presently experiencing as yourself and your life.
12) "How did it get there?"
It has always existed, FOREVER, because existence is an ABSOLUTE. Unlike all other finite objects, GOD does not need a "how" to get here, it doesn't need a source, because INFINITY can exist without source or cause. That's just the special, magical property of INFINITY. All other objects need a cause/source, but GOD does not because there exists nothing outside of GOD to impose that limitation upon it. There are no objects outside GOD because what it means to be INFINITE is to not have an outside.
Another way to look at it is that GOD is not some kind of special object, GOD is the superset of all finite objects. The superset of all finite objects is NOT the same kind of thing as any one of those finite objects. So none of the limits of finite objects apply to the superset. This means GOD has unique properties which no physical object can have. To regard GOD as just another kind of physical object is what's known as a category error.
Consider an analogy from mathematics: It is well known to mathematicians that the set of all finite integers is not itself a finite integer, but infinity. And you cannot treat infinity like any individual number. Infinity as an object has very different features than any finite number, even though its just made up of finite numbers.
13) But if GOD can exist without a cause or source, why can't we just cut out GOD and say that the Universe exists without cause or source? Why do we need the notion of GOD at all?
Because what scientists regard as the physical universe is just a tiny subset of GOD. There's way more which scientists are totally clueless about. The scientist's notion of "the universe" is as a finite object. Even the scientist's notion of a multiverse is still a finite object. GOD is an infinite object. This is a crucial difference and not merely a word game.
And also because it's not enough to just think of the universe as the universe. It's absolutely crucial that you recognize that the universe IS GOD. This is not just a religious notion or a matter of word games. To understand what GOD is is the single most important realization you can have about reality. Your understanding of science and physics will NEVER be complete unless you have the epic epiphany that, "OH! OF COURSE! IT'S ALL GOD!" GOD is not a religious notion that we are trying to impose or sneak into physics. GOD is an epiphany, like when you realize that all the angles in a triangle always add up to 180 degrees. If you don't have that epiphany you're missing something absolutely essential about triangles.
The problem is that you're looking at the universe and fooling yourself that it is a physical object outside of you. But you could one day realize that what scientist have referred to as the physical universe is just YOUR OWN MIND, and nothing more! When you realize that, that's you discovering GOD. That doesn't mean that a bearded man appears in the clouds for you, it means that your whole mind shifts out of materialism into idealism. This shift is not a belief of any kind. Until you experience this shift you cannot understand what physics is. Physics is simply incomplete without realizing GOD.
14) "Why is there something rather than nothing?"
Something is identical to nothing, but your mind is too biased to recognize this identity because you're biased towards survival and finite objects.
15) "Who or what breathes fire into the equation?"
YOU! GOD! You're dreaming your stupid fucking equations! There are no equations outside your mind! There is nothing outside your mind — you scientist rat! ALL OF SCIENCE IS IMAGINARY! You're just too bought into it to believe me. Science is basically a cult which you have been brainwashed into without ever suspecting it. YES! Of course that's possible!
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Leonard Suskind claims that he's simply too curious and loses interest too easily in the question of GOD. NO! It's exactly the opposite. He's too incurious. He takes existence, material objects, and science entirely for granted. A truly curious person would never do that.
He says, "I lose interest in questions which are so far beyond me that I can't answer it. I just feel that this is so far beyond me that it would be silly for me to have an opinion."
Well, this is what we in the self-help field call a limiting belief. How can you answer a question if you are too unserious, too incurious, and too inconfident to pursue it for years? That is not the scientific way, that's just surrendering the fight without throwing a single punch. A truly curious person would pursue even seemingly impossible questions because he understands that you can never know which questions can or cannot be answered until your give it a serious try. Which is exactly what I did and why I AWOKE and Leonard Suskind never will.
As the old Henry Ford cliche goes, "Whether you believe you can, or you believe you can't, you're right." The only difference between me and Leonard Suskind — and all the other scientist rats like him — is that I had the balls to believe that I could understand the entire Universe. And that's exactly what I did. Self-confidence is very important if you want success in any field of life. I'm no rocket scientist, I just understand self-help 101.
I hope this teaches you a lesson. Wouldn't it be a shame if GOD was hiding under your bed but you never found him simply because you never bothered to look because you thought it was impossible? Well, that's exactly what Leonard Suskind has done. What a shame.