Spiral Dynamics - Stage Orange

By Leo Gura - June 25, 2018 | 113 Comments

Understanding the Independent Achiever stage of psychological development

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Jon says:

When you get to stage green, I think you need to clarify how your critical judgment’s about Orange’s mass market/bad for the environment values mesh with the “free yourself from the scarcity mentality” admonitions which you have yourself promolgated in your videos and recommended books. So, for example, in Napoleon Hill or Wallace Wattles’s books where they poo-poo the fear of poverty and the idea that there are not enough resources to go around to make everybody rich. These self-help authors never make it seem that becoming a millionaire is a ponzi scheme. Rather they seem to suggest that everybody can become a millionaire simultaneously… all you have to do is think the right thoughts, have the proper visions, put in the necessary work to realize the vision and deny the existence of any limits from potentially scarce global resources. Is this where Leo falls into stage orange? Also, if people can only move forward into higher stages and never backwards, how come you talk about people who are simultaneously spread across multiple stages like “orangish-blue” or “orange with some elements of green”. Doesn’t this contradict the notion that you cannot regress backwards to earlier stages. If I have one foot in orange, one foot in green, any value I have can drift among both colors. This isn’t the behavior of a one way street.

he is to busy fucking around says:

hey jon, he probably wont get to green. he does not understand green, he just tried to get out of blue with all the dating stuff (more recent videos), if it would at least have been a green slash orange phase. but he really seems to be repelled by green regarding his favour for meat, synthetics, authority, and status (at least virtually). he does also not really do yoga or live a lifestyle with a true nature approach, he wont grasp green, as long as he is caught up in what he still thinks is the ultimative achevement: blue! he unfortunately always devolves into red again, because every critique must be seen as an attack. he might entertain all these concepts but without grasping them, it makes him far from being yellow, as he undermines and sabotages developments above blue.
sorry mate there are probably more conscious communities to follow!
this one is very far from evolving.

outlandish says:

This series is extremely helpful. I’ve been aware of these stages for a while, but these talks give so much clarity, it’s much easier to see them now. Looking forward to the rest! As always, Leo speaks with great insight and humility.

clem says:

The color spectrum of spiral dynamics that you have presented is a very interesting mirror for self reflection. It has proved to be a valuable tool for answering the question, “who am I?” It allows us to step back and evaluate our families of origin and see how they have inculcated us with their system of values and world view of reality.
With some of my family members firmly established in the blue zone, others firmly orange, and a few half and half, it is no mystery why I had so much confusion over where I fit in. My motivation to find answers through self actualization caused me to rebel against the status quo and eventually brought me into the green zone and beyond. When conscious awareness is seen as a structured spectrum of human values, the hidden cast system is revealed. The need to justify beliefs and fight against the “others” is dissolved and replaced by compassion and empathy for all of us. In practical terms this info enables one to evaluate and determine how to interact with others in a positive way that can influence their thinking outside of the box. Imparting this knowledge of human dynamics to our children is a key to saving our species and making earth a more friendly planet to visit.

Xain says:

Well you aren’t rebelling against anything, you are merely being indoctrinated by another set of beliefs under the guise of rebelling. What you claim the “blue” have done is what is happening here. One cannot “choose” what they believe or are persuaded by, it just happens.

The need to justify beliefs is important for without it then any claim can be made and there would be no point to this video, books, or anything else. We could all make a claim about reality and not be challenged.

Not to mention that the “truth” when you strip everything away is not compassion, or love, or empathy. That is still part of the dream, unconditional love does not really exist. What remains is something so hostile to awareness that we seek to fill it with “actualization” and love, it is the void. The pure emptiness that nihilism talks about that humans try to avoid at all costs.

Bear in mind that anything else is a dream. That’s why I can’t really buy into his videos. Not only has he been wrong about a great deal of topics (quantum mechanics being chief among them) but also at what lies at the bottom when you strip everything away.

I did always wonder what meditation yielded when you had no prior teachings. Unfortunately there is no way to study that since self reporting (while not meaning they lie) does not tell us the whole truth and is really just there interpretation. Even nonduality cannot be said to be truth, since it is likely a product of teachings and not the truth. Sure everything is made of atoms and what differs is their arrangement, but that is watering things down too much.

My point being is that no one is rebelling, they merely trade a set of beliefs for another and call it rebelling.

clem says:

Thank you for taking the time to shred my thoughts. Sharing your hostel awareness and critical commentary has opened my eyes. It is such a relief to waken from the dream and realize that the useless baggage of truth, love, joy, compassion, and empathy do not exist. Now I can join you in the greater purpose for living; helping multitudes of people that are trying to avoid the “true” reality of life by trolling web sites and calling out bull shit. Your unsights are so ill-uminating, opening the way to the ultimate attainment of putting an end to our stupid meaningless empty lives. Only then can we embrace your truth of forsaking the futility of existence. I am now looking forward to dissolving into the infinite pure emptiness of the void. May your whiss-dumb and unlightening perspective grow to become a beacon to the suffering world of humanity.

Xain says:

I’ll repeat myself, but to no avail, spiral dynamics is not an actual thing that exists in reality. There are no higher or lower stages, it’s just a chart where someone assigned arbitrary labels to things and gave this illusory notion of progress or development when really there are no such stages.

outlandish says:

Of course it’s not an actual thing, it’s just a model that may or may not be useful.

You could say the same thing about the colour Orange itself – there’s no such thing as the colour Orange, it’s just a label we assign to that wavelength range of electromagnic radiation (and in turn none of those labels are ‘real’). But, we tend to find the model of “Orange” as a colour to be very useful for communication and making sense of the world.

Maybe the model of Stage Orange in spiral dynamics context is a useful model too. I think so, but it’s certainly nothing to be dogmatic about.

Xain says:

Well in a way you could say there is such a thing as the color orange, unless you are color blind. Saying that orange is just a label we assign is splitting hairs and is ultimately a trivial statement. What could be said is that the color we see is based on the receptors in our eyes and we assume others who look like we do can see the same. Regardless of what you call it, the color is the same. Although to say it is a model would be incorrect.

Spiral dynamics might be a model, but considering it is rooted in social science and psychology its not something to take to heart. The descriptions are arbitrary and so are the categories. It’s not like the color orange which one cannot make it appear to be anything else (from one’s perception) and calling it something else does not change what your eyes see. It is far different from this model since we are referring to sensory data and not abstractions. The “color orange” does in fact exist, if only to at least one who can perceive color. I don’t think psychedelics undermine this since the following experience is just the effect of a drug. Nothing can really be concluded about reality based on it.

But this still doesn’t dispel the myth of progress or development.

Jon says:

I’m looking forward to your stage green and yellow videos. I’ve also ordered the book on Spiral Dynamics, as I am starting to think this as a very good topic and much appreciated. Thank you, Leo!

One more point. Perhaps you will address this in your stage green video. When you talk about stage greens and “hippies” being at a more advanced stage than republicans, or that is, when you engage in judgmental criticism towards Donald Trump, why do I get the impression that at a subconscious level, at least, it feels as if you are endorsing the overall politics of the left over the right? Aren’t both left and right wing political views both represented at all levels of the spiral dynamic? I mean, are you saying that Hillary Clinton and the Democratic party (including the political views of Al Gore, Maxine Waters, Michale Moore, the fake news, Woody Allen and the “elites” of Hollywood, et. al.) are higher conscious than Trump and the Republicans? In other words shouldn’t each measure of criticism directed toward Trump, be balanced with some amount of critique towards the other political side? (Unless you are actually saying that the left wing is more advanced than the right wing. Are you? Please make this more clear. Granted that this debate in the US is a very 1D/2D political model, but take, for example, the issue of immigration when it comes to enforcing the existing law with respect to the borders, the political climate has become extremely polarized, has it not? I find it very hard to see the immigration debate in 3D/4D. I wonder if you can explicitly help me to see a middle ground on this issue? My own personal view is that the Democrats are behaving a lot like children who won’t accept any boundaries.
More generally, this begs the question of how level green or higher level conscious person (or group) should enforce personal boundaries? How is a life lacking personal (or group) boundaries (i.e. open borders) higher conscious?

Daniel says:

Thank you Leo. Although you have not yet illustrated green and yellow yet, I find that I am very much orange and resisting many aspects of green.

With that, resisting some aspects of green I believe may be a good thing. I believe that capitalism is good for our current time. Yes, it does focus on technology, and believes technology will solve our problems. Although this may not be true at a micro level, it is definitely true at a macro level.

Eventually capitalism should lead naturally to socialism. Once we remove the need for human labor to produce the basic necessities we need – food, travel, medicine and shelter – those things then become “worthless” to an extent. If it costs no labor to produce them, then no labor is required to receive them. If anyone can step into a pod or teleport to where they need to go or walk up to a replicator to get a meal (these items not being created, supported, or repaired by humans) then humans have no need to be “stuck” in orange and naturally progress to green or higher levels.

Today I see many progressives trying to “force” us into green thinking – and there are many aspects of green that are very good and useful today – but I believe some aspects still need to be rejected so we as a people can focus and maximize the good aspects of orange to accomplish the natural evolution to green.

Xain says:

Again, what is failed to be understood by everyone is that love, empathy, and compassion are all part of the dream. To truly see one must forsake all and stare at that which is most hostile to our awareness, one that we mask and call that mask “truth” or enlightenment. Buddhism didn’t see it for it still holds to compassion and empathy.

Existence is futile, if it is a creation it is by a madman who is either sadist or masochistic.

Grape says:

Xain, maybe what YOU are failing to see is that the rest of us haven’t had the same bad acid trip you have clearly had, and we may not agree that love isn’t fundamental. In my experience it very much is.

Charles King says:

We walk our path by destroying illusions so this post would fit anywhere. This is going to make me sound crazy because what I will say is unbelievable. You must see it yourself.
Nearly every picture (still or moving) presented by the mass media uses one face playing multiple roles.

Train your eye by comparing facial features one at a time from the same angle. Some are easy to see others it takes more experience. Google image the cast from any tv program or any movie. Do same with rock bands, beauty contests, supreme court, etc. Basically anything presented by the media. Start with still pictures. Moving pictures require you to look at a facial feature and remember what it looks like and the angle then wait for another character presented from the same angle.

Notice fake lighting and shadow and redness. These are used to change appearance. Notice the number of blurry and grainy pictures and faces presented from different angles. Notice how moving pictures rarely present two or more faces from the same angle at the same time. When you can’t compare features take note why because you will see it constantly.

I started comparing faces over 35 years ago and I have no doubts what I see. I can help you jump start this training with more things to look for if you like.

Xain says:

Thats called editing and movie magic and it is not a secret or groundbreaking, everyone knows about it. Your “training” is merely noticing what everyone else already knows.

If that isn’t what you are talking about then I call bunk, or more to the point seeing things that are not there.

Charles King says:

I don’t know what you are talking about. And I don’t think everybody or anybody knows what you are talking about. Are you a disinfo agent?

Charles King says:

This one face thing is so unbelievable that you must see it for yourself which is common for truth. Truth is often so unbelievable that most won’t bother to look for it. And it seems that might be your agenda.
The beauty of this is no debate is necessary unless you wish to create fog. The proof is right in front of your face. All one has to do is train your eye. Obviously you didn’t.

saurabh jadhav says:

Thanks man..!
I followed you since last two years, paid off..!!
Initially when I started to watch your episodes I was a teenager.
I am now in early adulthood. I invested abnormal time watching your videos.on Sundays literally I kept homework on hold and only work I did was just eat and watch your videos. I knew you are talking about something important but I can’t grasp it totally. In your one of the video(postmodernism I guess) you talked that the goal of actualized.org is the make you float while everyone is sinking in sand,I am floating now. Till now I watch your video because I was “helplessly dependent on them”.even there was no one around me who had same interest as me and able to answer the question satisfactorily. Ultimately I ended up with questioning absolutely everything and disbelief and loss of trust.I have shades of yellow and rest of green.I had hard time making friends.it was one way flow that okay I am in bunch of people they call me as friend but I don’t authentically feel them as friend.man..you have done great job..I am Indian ..and we have a ritual so to speak that whenever a man gets his first salary …we keep that in front of “god”..we have a place in home called “devara” in Marathi (I am Maharashtrian)a small “thing”(I can’t describes it in english,see photo on google)where different idols of different deities are kept and worshipped, so we keep the salary in front of them in devara.it is holiest place in house and it is believed that brings good fortune by doing so…I can’t pay you money now because I am student currently .but I will pay you the first salary as a respect for what value you have provided till now….I would have hugged you if you were front of me..actually this comment is replay for green memes video but I just could’t hold the feelings in…love you…carry on great job..!!

Xain says:

And now you have been brainwashed by Leo.

Xain says:

Charles, what you describe is something that is public knowledge. Any film or art student knows it, even lay people. You have essentially wasted 35 years. Its not a skill, its intro to film studies.

And debate is the only way to get at truth, those who fear it likely don’t care about truth but comfort. They don’t want their ideas challenged.

I have tested your claim and corroborated it with others. The fact is, you are wrong.

Charles King says:

You are telling us that what I say is known by all then you turn around and say I am wrong. And I know that you did not explore any of this. And I have little doubt that you are creating fog to keep the readers from exploring this themselves. I know what I am seeing and that allows me to know that you are blowing smoke and have a devious agenda. Like I said before no debate is necessary. The proof is right in front of our faces. And anyone who starts comparing faces will see enough within one to three hours to know what I am saying is true and at the same time will figure you out. Explain your movie magic that everyone knows about.

Charles King says:

The magicians who control humanity and the world don’t want this info out there. If enough people train their eye the system will collapse. Over the years I have encountered many a dsino agent and fake opposition conspiracy sites who desperately try to shut this info down. I recognized you before I brought this info here. You have that distinct stink of disinfo psyop agent all over you.

Xain says:

Yeah, judging by your comments you clearly seem to be unhinged and incoherent, which makes me even less inclined to believe you. You seem to be seeking validation for your ideas and attention rather than truth. Sorry bud, it don’t work that way.

Movie magic is just slang for all the technical editing, make up, filters, angles, etc that is done when printing photos for the public or filming in order to pretty things up. Obviously people don’t look as good as they do on media, everyone knows that. Even smart phones have the technology (and many use it). Your thing doesn’t seem to even be a thing, just delusion that you convinced yourself is truth. Considering you believe this for 35 years, there is little I can say to change your mind (if at all).

IF by some miracle you would be right, the system would not collapse. This would be that “so what” sort of thing. Nothing in your words suggest this to be a bad thing.

I think you are crazy. Not mystic crazy (which I respect) but psych ward crazy. I’m not gonna get caught up in your delusions.

Charles King says:

You are so disinfo psyop agent. Hope nobody gets caught up in your desperate attempt to keep them from investigating the one face thing. Or for that matter your desperate attemp to stop them from getting info Leo has gifted us.
If you were on the up and up you would shut your mouth and let everyone look into these things themselves. It is obvious that you don’t want truth exposed. Only a psyop agent would be as desperate as you.

Charles King says:

I will give you credit for being more intelligent and articulate than most psyop agents I have encountered. But your lame effort to discredit me with your explanation of movie magic doesn’t address anything I said about the one face thing. Anyone with half a brain would see that you are reaching for something that isn’t there. Your movie magic bs has nothing to do with what I am speaking. That alone makes you look foolish. Psyop agents always fail when they go to war against me on this issue because I have truth on my side. I recommend your boss send you somewhere else to disrupt the truth. You have been exposed and it is ugly.

Xain says:

I pity you if you think anyone who disagrees is some kind of agent. Again, you don’t want truth just an audience and affirmation. I have told you that your claim is false but you refuse to believe anything outside your circle. You have no evidence beyond “because I say so” and I and others have tested this claim and found nothing. I understand 35 years makes it hard to let go but part of truth is admitting you are wrong.

Being on the up is discussing with others incase one is blind to something. “self education” tends to have one wandering in blind spots. If you can’t handle debate or criticism then you don’t want truth and your ideas aren’t worth consideration.

Your words, and Leo’s videos, only appear insightful (or a gift) if you don’t question them. Even buddha said to question his words. His videos are lacking, and this is coming from someone who doesn’t know much.

Get out of your echo chamber.

Charles King says:

As a general rule low budget tv and movies and kids stuff will be the easiest to see. And this one face thing goes back to the beginning of the and movies with the older stuff often the easiest to see. Pay no attention to the bodies. And pay no attention to the size of the feature. Focus on the shape. Notice the same patterns of combinations used to change appearance. The combinations are usually hats, whiskers, glasses, hair style and color, and the nearly always faces presented at different angles. There are many other things they do but that combination is very common and you will start recognizing it. And even with experience there will usually be a couple or so faces that you are sure are the same face but you can’t make it because they have changed it too much. And again notice the fake shadow and lighting plus redness on the face. They change the shape of the face drastically but are obviously fake. When you see any of those on say a nose just look at the part of the nose without them and you will usually see the original nose. You will also notice this being used on ears especially the lobe. It will make the lobe bigger or smaller. In those cases the top half of the ear will match. But also look for it on the outer edge of the ear. They also use make the nostrils bigger or smaller. Google image the movie Back To The Future. There are three pictures of M, Foxx and the old professor standing beside each other faces pointed in the same direction. Start with shape of face. Match. Compare chins. Same. Noses. Same. Notice the only part of the old man’s face that they age is the eye area. And they they have his eyes wide open and wild eyed. But you can still see the eye area is the same. Even if you can’t make the eyes you still know you have a match after the entire rest of the faces match in shape. M. Foxx and the old man are the same face. When comparing faces the longer you look at them the more you see. Have you ever met a pair of identical twins and could not tell them apart then after knowing them and seeing them often over time you wonder how now they are easy to tell apart? Every time you saw them you noticed more detail. You started seeing the difference. Now when you are comparing media faces the same thing happens but instead you are noticing what is the same. Don’t give up. This is designed so we don’t see it. This stuff extends to the world stage and if enough people see it the game of enslavement and coontrol is over. Nothing is as it seems. Humanity is enslaved using mainly deception. And don’t let any disinfo psyop agent discourage you from looking.

Charles King says:

Another important tip I forgot. It helps to cover the entire faces except for the feature being compared. Other parts of the face influence the appearance of a single facial feature. This will often be dramatic when comparing eyes. The eyes will sometime look too different but when you cover the rest of the faces the sameness will jump out at you. When comparing eyes try to focus on the the white of the eye and what is contained within. The eye makeup will drastically change the appearance.

Charles King says:

Another tip. Often the most obvious comparison is the teeth. Don’t be fooled by color. Don’t only compare shape of each tooth but also compare the row of teeth. Some rows will be horse shoe shape and others will open wider. Another deception is bringing the bottom lip up to the bottom of the upper teeth making the teeth look shorter. Also, they will show only the bottom teeth on one character and only the top on another. With a moving picture you can often bust deception by watching the mouth move. This is really useful when comparing the talking heads as they puke the fake news. Yep, every set of talking heads I have compared are the same face. Btw, talking heads and political bodies are usually the most difficult to see. If you can’t see it wait and go back when your eye is better trained. And again don’t let some fast talking disinfo agent discourage you from looking and that includes looking at Leo’s teachings. This site is infested with one of those deceivers.

Xain says:

Just tested it, none of it is true.

for the back to the future image it’s called art style. All the images have red tones for flesh back then and of course characters from an art style are going to be similar.

PLease for the love of god take a course in the arts.

Charles King says:

You only mention the redness which is more disinfo bs. In fact with the back to the future images redness isn’t an issue. How about addressing the fact that every facial feature is the same shape. Remember the size of the feature is irrelevant. Focus on the shape. You must think people are really dumb. You got nothing but disinfo bs. This isn’t my first rodeo. Been dealing with your kind for years. You can’t let this go without making many attempts, all feeble btw, because the system can’t let this info get out.

Charles King says:

Look for the three specific pictures I mentioned. Dont let the disinfo agent direct you to the bulk of the Google image pictures.

Charles King says:

Another interesting area is demonstrations and marches. I can’t tell you to what extent they happen as I wasn’t there. But I assure you what the media presents is pure bs. Around maybe three years ago I started presenting my findings on fake opposition conspiracy sits and btw all the opposition conspiracy sites are fake. And they went nuts. They got desperate much like the disnfo agent we have here. This info panics them and they don’t allow it. But it was much easier to see what I am describing back then because the media was much more sloppy.They didn’t expect me to come along. Notice now that you almost can’t make any comparisons with what the media presents with the protests. When the media prevents you from making comparisons you know what’s up. But one place they fail is when they present their fake ass mug shots of those arrested. Yep same face. In fact much of the media news is made up out of thin air. Train your eye and you will save yourself much stress when reading about all the atrocities that are daily fare especially the constant astrocities against.children. The magicians inudate the media news with fake violence that didn’t happen. Little of it is true. The media news is mainly a purposeful mind fk.With a well trained eye you will know this.

Charles King says:

‘Truth Is Stranger Than Fiction’ is the greatest understatement ever.

Charles King says:

After you have a well trained eye I challenge you to find even one mass shooting that even happened and that includes all the fake ass school shootings. Our world views are based on media presented bs that didn’t happen and are mostly created in studios and are illusion and delusion.

Charles King says:

Having a well trained eye raises a ton of questions I can’t answer. For example every rock band I have looked at is one face playing multiple roles yet they do concerts. I can only point to the one one face thing and others will have to fill in the blanks.

Charles King says:

This world is controlled by some sort of magicians who are masters of deception. Never underestimate the enemy.

Charles King says:

After you have trained your eye well enough to start seeing some of this deception go to wellaware1.com for more of the story.

Charles King says:

Humanity must evolve our conscience or humans as we know them will cease to exist. The time is now if it’s not too late.

Charles King says:

I just have to also mention the lotteries. Goggle image lottery winners after you have trained your eye. First notice the low quality of the pictures. Why aren’t they crisp and sharp? Then compare facial features. The herd isn’t getting those big millions. It stays with the magicians.

Charles King says:

With a trained eye you are still left wondering how the magicians are able to pull of such unbelievable deception even using the same techniques on political bodies. First realize that the herd isn’t just asleep concerning the mind they are in a coma concerning the workings of the system. The magicians have controlled and enslaved the herds of humans for centuries. And their linage along with the linage of their minions continue to this day. There are generations of them in every walk of life and in all geographic locations right on down to the small towns. We are rubbing elbows with them daily without knowing who they are.

Charles King says:

When the picture is of a family you can’t prove to yourself that it is one face even though your experience comparing tells you that it almost certainly is. Families members will often look similar. With families you are left comparing dad and mom because we assume they aren’t blood related.

Charles King says:

The disinfo agent dogging this thread isn’t really talking to me. His desperate effort is to discourage the readers from investigating. He knows what I say is correct.

Charles King says:

Hey disinfo agent let the people be. Your excessive attempt to discredit me tells on you. Anyone training their eye would only lose a little time if I am wrong and would at the same time improve their ability to see detail.

I sooo miss traditionally produced animation! infinitely another series on the level of old tradional cel animation masterpieces would be a beautiful thing!

90’s anime is now old and nostalgic Lets try moving back to the 60’s and 70s
I really miss old hand drawn animation too I love the imperfections in Animated movie. You ever notice in that movie how people’s faces could not stand still when they are standing making a speech? That is because the artists could not draw the next frame perfectly identical with the previous one

“Ran out Water!”Her name for her worst female enemy Ran Sparkling Walter
“Ran Walter?More like Ran out water”After Ran accidentally spills water bottles
“Ran out Water and oil in one container do not mix unless you put soap in to now
make them work together as much as I hate you touching me we’ll work together
as long as you always smell like oil shampoo You’re boring with flavourless smell!
Ran out is pure…Pure watery as in lacking strength and determination!Cry a river
“Ran out Walter You spilt water on a floor You soaked my clothes after jumping in puddles carelessly You took a shower instead of a bath You never add soap to the
laundry or your clothes You know what you deserve You deserve to BE SOAKED!
NOT IN JUST ANY WATER BUT SOAKING HOT WATER!I REMOVED SOAP YOU CAN’T USE SOAPY COMPLIMENTS BECOME TEARY MAKE IT RAIN CRY ME A RIVER
COME CLEAN NO SOAPY LIES Come hell or high water You’re dead in the water
You don’t hold water You’re in deep water You’re in hot water You’re blown out of
the water I will muddy the waters Don’t pour cold water on something Pour oil on troubled waters such as you Ran! Water off a ducks back Water under the bridge

“Oilivia Petrol! You can’t oil everyone’s hand Water & oil can’t mix Neither can we
We are like water and oil I want to be filtered temporarily before evaporating here
Olivia Petrol wants to be the only fuel to make cars work without clean alternative I stroked oil!” How did you strike oil?” By achieving success against Oilivia Petrol
She tried to add oil to everything literally but I stroked her oil before She add mo
She tried to pour her oil on my troubled waters but I kept us apart like water & oil
Olivia Petrol tried to Oil the wheels on my car to slow me but I put it the fire that
was burning the midnight oil during her night time Her personality too oily for me
exaggerated politeness wants something in return for her oily personality She no
different that the oily oil companies wanting money in return for “helping”people
Claiming they need more oil Sure but never petrol Diesel or gas just oily fish milk
From cows sheep goats camels unless you’re allergic to dairy like me Ran Walter

4″6″height clean pure protects her virginity her worst personal fear is preventable diseases who’s cure s are unknown to almost everyone in our public society loves
rice water her sister s Bubbles Walter her mother is Minnie Walter her dad Walter
Walter Walter her biological father was murderEd by US Government Arab oils car
Companies oil gas companies Belgian Investors tried to murder Walter the way Stanley Meyer s was POISONED in 1998 March America but he hates drinking anything but the raipn water he collect for himself before boiling on old fashioned fire any other drink he rejects no hesitation won’t even drink any other drink but
daipry milk do they poisonEd his milk he screamed that man poisoned me similar
death to Stanley Meyer but with cows milk instead of cranberry juice intentionally

Jyapu Piinu says:

Gender bend story inspired by Urusei yatsura Ranma Little red Riding Hood

Human alien naturally handsome slender yet muscular white body looks exactly

like one of the most handsome yet youthful human boys on earth but his only

physical alien body parts are his 2 brains and black hair tail that he can grow for l

as long as he wants

Zodiac Gemini monkey Unusually attractive feel seduced by him

age at beginning 17

Jyapu Piinu says:

Strong athletic body from training since childhood Black hair blue eyes looks like ranma from episode one to episode 13

RAIN SPARKING WATER I MEAN RAN SPARKING WALTER’S WATER DIARY 17 ages

My mother full name Minnie Ral Walter boss of a water product company

My father full name Alka Line Walter CEO of his first water fuel cell car company

My arms legs are slim well Endowed breasts slim waist hour glass body more agile

than every boy in the same schools as me physically weaker than most men but

I’m one of the fastest swimmers in every school college and University in America

Water sports are my specialty but also Running Walter Cleaning Walter anything

Involving water cooking brushing hygiene puberty even water to replace oil fuel

Ran Sparkling Walter’s Final water diarrhea I mean diary

Oilivia Premium Petrol’s biological family tree are exposed as cheating frauds for

hiding water powered cars from the public to defend their self agendas wealth

profits reputation all of their external wealth and publicity from the whole world

Eventually Ever single living Government Corporation Oil industry Company is

exposed for cheating the public by killing Every inventor of Inventions they

suppressed from the public since the 20th century Cloud Buster’s to exploit

families living in poverty to be able to pretend Government cares when they don’t

If Government s Corporations Industries Companies Royal families Prime

ministers Every single millionaire billionaire 1% 5% Of the whole population really

cared every problem in the 21St century since year 2000 or before year 2000 we

never find out how they worked together to steal money from poor middle class

people just for their own underserving profits if they never killed the inventor of a

Real cloudbuster that could have ended world hunger since year 1959 NOBODY

WILL NEED TO WORRY ABOUT SHORTAGES OF REAL FRESH FRUIT VEGETABLES

EVER AGAIN AFTER YEAR NINETEEN FIFTY NINE THE YEAR WORLD HUNGER WAS

SUPPOSED TO BE SOLVED FORVER BUT THE RETARDED GOVERNMENTS KILLED

THE INVENTORS STANLEY MEYER OF A WATER POWERED CAR CLOUDBUSTER

THRORIEM BATTERY BY RUSSIAN PLASMA INVENTORS WHO ARE ALL MEN HOT

FUSION AND COLD FUSION BY REAL SCIENTISTS RIFLE BEAM TO CURE CANCER!

CARS MADE OF HEMP BY HENRY FORD THE FUEL COULD HAVE BEEN HEMPSEED

OIL ELECTRIC CAR WITHOUT BATTERY EVEN YOUTUBE SAYS ELECTRIC CAR

WITHOUT BATTERY MUERDERED BY GOVERNMENT FUCKING DIE GOVERNMENTS!

WHERE DO I LIVE I LIVE

ON EARTH AS IF I’LL TELL YOU MY EXACT PERSONAL LOCATION!!

Daniel Dingle built a water powered car

He started building a hydrogen reactor since 1969

Had his hydrogen reactor power his 1996 Toyota

RISA KOIZUMI says:

CHAPTER 39

LOVELY COMPLEX BOOKMARK MANGAPARK

lovely complex ch 31

LOVESICK ELLIE CHAPTER 9

YUKA WA JIYOKU CHAPTEPR 4 SAME AUTHOR WATASHI NI SHINASSI

Mixed vegetables manga volume 8 chapter 49

HAS A physical appearance Both naturally Blue human eyes so white secular!
Naturally straight short hair always naturally attractive even when messy anyway!
Natural fair skin no freckles or moles no buck teeth no never wears any of braces!
Naturally masculine,yet boyish handsome yet cute mature yet youthful

Naturally symmetrical face muscles abs never grows any facial hair on his face

Expository HAIRSTYLE CHANGE

SINCE SHE WAS
UNTIL 18 years old close to her birthday she always kept her hair tied to show her
emotionally tied to her love for physically attractive men trying use all hairstyles
that involve her tying a scrunchie to all her hairstyles to get attractive men very
emotionally tied to her so she believes the more time years spent the more early
strong sustainable marriage happens as Young soon as possible

AFTER FEELING BORED OF TYING HER HAIR AND KEEPING HER TIE HAIRSTYLES
SHE DECIDES TO GIVE HER SCRUNCHIE TO HER YOUNGEST FEMALE COUSIN
AFTER IT WAS ACCIDENT ALLY STOLEN BY A FISHING HOOK WHEN SHE WAS
ARGUING WITH HER MALE LOVE INTEREST OUTSIDE NEAR A FISHING LAKE

UNTYING HER HAIR AND LETTING HER HAIR DOWN IN PUBLIC FIRST TIME TEEN
SYMBOLIZES HER LETTING GO OF HER SHALLOW EXTERNAL WAYS TO ATTRACT
MEN LETTING GO OF HER ADDICTION TO ROMANTIC SEXUAL LOVE ADDICTIONS

LETING HER HAIR COMPLETELY DOWN AND LOOSE FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE!

LETTING HER HAIR DOWN MEANS STOP CARING ABOUT GETTING MEN TO LOVE

HER SND INSTEAD PATIENTLY WAITING FOR HERSELF TO MEET THE MAN WHO

LOVES HER FOR HER PERSONALITY INTERNAL WEALTH SOUL SPIRITUAL growth

Nhac nhat ban khong loi nhe Nhang thu gian cafe piano sau Lang

SUPER RELAX MUSIC

2017 3 OCT

Am nhac thu gian am Thanh dep cho buoi sang tran day nang luong nhac khong loi thu gian daughter oc

Vietnamese music 2019 Nov 29

Nhac Doc Sach nhe nhang Giup thu gian tap trung hoc tap hieu qua

2018 8 Nov

Website name Nac khong lou thu gian

Vietnamese music

He har. My3bIka N3HN eHNe TNU YCOKANBaeT Hepbhy CNCTEMY
Russian bird music

7 Feb 2018

Name

Am Thanh dep Choi buoi sang tran day nang luong nhac piano nhe Nhang giup

giam stress cuc hieu qua Vietnamese music

DEC 1 2019

I prefer NAC DOCH SAC NHE NHANG Giup

Piano nhe nhang am Thanh dep cho buoi sang tran day nang luong nhac khong

Loi thu gian Vietnamese music

channel name 24 Jan 2021

30 Nov 2020 Relaxing music without words

Wordless music Helps to relax his head learn sleep well

relaxing piano soothing music

31 Aug 2015

Nhac khong loi nhe nhang say Lang dang trao can xuc Nhang khong loi piano

Channel khoang Lang cuoc song Vietnamese music

Relaxing music for reading books for 30 minutes

Manh hon can thuoc ngu piano nhe nhang va tieng mua roi Am nhad Giup ngu ngon ngu sau

Channel name nhac thu gian

reading music

25 Nov 2020

Infrastructures notes

I SINCERELY BELIEVE OUR CHOICE OF FRIENDS ARE INFLUENCED BY HOW WE

ARE INDOCTRINATED BY PARENTS BOOKS SCHOOLS PLACES WE HAVE BEEN TO

I BELIEVE WE ALL SUBCONSCIOUSLY SELFISH IN OUR PREFERENCES TO REALLY

WOMEN MARRY THE MAN OR MEN THEY SUBCONSCIOUSLY WANT THEIR SON OR

SONS TO LOOK LIKE THE MOST IN BOTH BOYFRIENDS PERSONALITY AND LOOKS

MEN MARRY THE WOMEN THEY SUBCONSCIOUSLY WANT THEIR BIOLOGICAL

DAUGHTERS TO BE LIKE IN BOTH THEIR WIFES PERSONALITY PHYSICAL LOOKS

MAJORITY OF REAL MEN DON’T WANT ANOTHER MANS DNA IN THEIR CHILDREN

INFRASTRUCTURES NOTES

WE ARE SCARED OF FORMLESSNESS BECAUSE WE ARE ADDICTED TO FORMS

WE ARE SCARED OF CONFUSING FORMS WITH OTHER FORMS BECAUSE WE

NEVER WANT TO LOSE OUR ABILITIES TO BE DIFFERENT BECAUSE OUR OWN

INDIVIDUAL EXISTENCE DEPENDS ON EACH AND EVERY ABILITY TO BE UNIQUE

TO STAY ALIVE BECAUSE IF WE LOSE OUR ABILITIES TO STAY UNIQUE ALIVE WE

WILL DIE PHYSICALLY EMOTIONALLY SPIRITUALLY PSYCHOLOGICALLY wastefully

WE WILL STOP BEING FINITE THEN INDISTINGUISHABLE FROM INFINITE Reality!

MAJORITY HUMANS WOULD DO ANYTHING TO NEVER DIE TO KEEP THEIR IDEAS

OF THEMSELVES AND THE IDEAS OF OTHER PEOPLE ALIVE DYING MEANS losing

YOUR PHYSICAL MENTAL SPIRITUAL PSYCHOLOGICAL EMOTIONAL FREEDOM SO

BEING INDISTINGUISHABLE FROM EVERY GENUINE UNHEALTHY FORM YOU NOW

LOVE RIVALS FROM AMERICA,AFRICA,AUSTRALIA,EUROPE

AMERICA GIRL HAIRSTYLES SIMPLE YET ELEGANT TOP BUN WITH TWO
IDENTICAL HAIR LOOPIES SIMILAR TO KATARAS FROM FRONT HAIR TO One BUN OR TWO IDENTICAL BUNS

Australian girl kyary pamyu pamyu cat ears hairstyle with straight bangs straight

Horizontal line across her face

EUROPEAN GIRL FRENCH BLONDE HAIR BLUE EYES Loop Braid Hair Tutorial Braided Hairstyle other times Diagonal French Loop Braid

Half french half English

Only girl of jays s female love rivals with blonde hair blue eyes America blue eyes

All these girls taller than Jyaan shortest to tallest
Asian Australian African European American

Other rivals have dark brown hair lightest to darkest

Europe American Australian African only Asian has black hair with white skin

African girl says:

Heart shaped cornrow hairstyle

Star shaped cornrow hairstyle

side cornrows star and heard cornrow on one side of head cornrows on other side

High top on head side cornrow braid ponytail beads at end of hair

FUEL CELL DESCRIBED A CONTRAPTION AN ELECTRO CHEMICAL CELL CONVERTS

CHEMICAL ENERGY OF FUEL INTO ELECTRICITY THROUGH A REACTION OF

HYDROGEN FUEL WITH OXYGEN OR AN OXIDIZING AGENT

THAT IS THE MAIN PRINCIPLE BETWEEN TODAY’S HYDROGEN OR

WATER POWERED CARS SUCH AS THE TOYOTA MIRAI OR HONDA CLARITY AS

HYDROGEN IS USUALLY COMBINED WITH OXYGEN WHICH AFTER A PROCESS OF

COVALENT BONDING PRODUCES WATER

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!TECHNICALLY FUEL CELL CARS ARE ELECTRIC CARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AS THE HYDROGEN FUEL OXYGEN REACTION PRODUCES ELECTRICITY WHICH

DIRECTS THE POWER INTO THE WHEELS BUT THE GENERAL CONCEPT OF BEING

!!!!!!WATER POWERED ID MAINTAINED AS HYDROGEN AND OXYGEN FORM A!!!!!!

REACTION WHICH CREATES WATER AND ALSO PRODUCES WATER WHICH IS

USUALLY THROWN AWAY BY THE CAR INFORMS OF WATER VAPOR

CHESTNUT BROWN HAIR GREEN EYES HAIRSTYLE DNA BRAID

twist wrap ponytail

height

HAS HAIR LOOPIES LIKE KATARA HAIR LOOPIES

BEIGE MELLOW CHANNEL NAME

KOREAN PIANO MUSIC

7 Oct 2020

NHAC NHAT BAN KHONG LOI HAY nhat piano nhe Nhang giup tap trung hoc tap ngu ngo nthu gian

SUPER RELAX MUSIC CHANNEL NAME

25 Oct 2018

20 Ban Nhac anime buon hay nhat nhac nhat ban hay nhat nhe nhang thu gian
Japanese music Relaxing

12 Oct 2017

Channel name uper Relax music

Nhac Xuan KHong Loi Ron Rang Vui Turoi Nhac xuan thu Thai ngay day nam nhac
Khong loi hay nhat2

Super Relax music

29 Jan 2018

Nhac Anime Khong Loi Sau Lang nhe Nhang thu gian nhac nhat ban khong loi hay
nhat Anime hay nhat

26 Dec 2017

Super Relax music

Nhung Ban Piano cover cam xuc nhat cua an coong Anh coong 2020

12 may 2020

channel name An doing piano

Zodiac sisters 22 sisters japanese family protagonist is the shortest youngest girl

She’s the twenty second daughter & Only sister to have hair completely loose hair

The only sister to be immune to the eating unique germs in Vietnamese food with out needing any special protection such as injections to tolerate all healthiest food

instead Of having a single serious romantic interest in any particular boy like her
Older twenty one sisters she’ll read romantic stories to Understand every opinion
of as many different boys and girls perspectives as possible is more logically Able
than emotionally able because she is an Aquarius snake immune to being tickled

Greatest EUROPEAN FRENCH rival HAIRSTYLE DUTCH LOOP BRAIDS INSPIRED BY
@lesya_zherdeva Hair colour blonde as this girls hair in the photo Instagram
2,816 likes Studiohilde Eye colour just light blue Fair skin as this girl in this photo

Personality frankness independence Welcome negative feedback assess positive feedback as hypocritical may hurt other cultures sensitivities Autonomous one of
Dearest values

LOVE FOR DEBATE AND ARGUING

Not afraid of asking questions love to challenge the one who is speaking.Everythin
READY TO CHALLENGE ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING might waste everyones time
decate seen as healthy process to bring anything to the table,welcome anyone who stimulates this energy in a discussion knows socrates lessons MAieUTIC

3.NUMBERS FACTS MATTER

EVERY FRENCH TALENT YOU WORK WITH HAS BEEN THROUGH GREAT STUDIES
know best mathematician Cedric villani Alan connes Arthur avila in schools and
Universities in France.VERY SENSITIVE TO PROCESS.I LIKE TO PUT EVERYTHING
BACK IN ORDER knows Speed is HIGHLY VALUED IN SCHOOL IN FRANCE knows
SHE’S ALSO ACCOUNTED ON STRUCTURING HER THOUGHTS JUST LIKE EVERY
BODY IS ACCOUNTED ON STRUCTURING THEIR THOUGHTS this affects her trust
marketers and salespeople also she FOCUSES MKRE ON THE CORE MESSAGE OF THE PRESENTATION ranger THAN its LAYOUT Sometimes making her and French
people bad at selling compared to our AMERICAN FRIENDS(And my american rival
On opposite side french very good at pulling out and analyzing the data to support our statements

4.Strong irony to hide our tenderness
NEVER TAKE HINGS AT FACE VALUE WITH FRENCH PEOPLE WE LOVE BEING IRONIC WE ARE IRONIC BECAUSE IT’S FUNNY AND BECAUSE WE CAN HIDE OUR
TENDERNESS WE ARE ROMANTIC ON THE INSIDE BUT HARD as a coconut on the outside

MEANS SMALL TALK DOESN’T WORK won’t pick up a phone to talk to a stranger WITHOUT A VERY PRECISE AND THOUGHTFUL APPROACH

MIGHT FEEL DISARMED BY YOUR “HOW ARE YOU DOING?” Some of us might even assume bad intent

OUR INNER TENDERNESS CAN MAKE US tough demanding and rude on the outside

5 A DIFFERENT PERCEPTION OF TIME

FRENCH PEOPLE HAVE A SLIGHTLY DIFFERENT PERCEPTION OF TIME
we might spend a few hours at lunch and stay longer at work during the evenings
WE ARE HARD WORKERS except when it comes to food wine and cigarettes maybe because WE’RE AN OLD AND TRADITIONAL COUNTRY but in the end we

MIGHT WORK LONGER HOURS THAN OUR ENGLISH or GERMAN COMPARIOTS

STAYING EFFICIENT THANKS TO OUT FOOD DELICACIES!!!!!!!!

WHILE I LOVE WORKING WITH OTHER CULTURES I HOPE YOU’LL ENJOY WORKING WITH US AS WELL

5 FRENCH CHARACTER TRAITS TO BE AWARE OF 2018 March 22

COCO

A bad boy gets what a bad boy wants Wattpad miraculous marichat criminal read
already by marichat queen

KatrinGn says:

Invigorating music for start new days ! Music Sergei Chekalin.

Channel name KatrinpGn

JUNE 10 2020

MUSIC COMPOSER. SERGEI CHEKALIN.

Note to self write this on paper or laminated

ONE OF THE FAVOURITE MUSICS SINCE FEBRUARY AFTER 14 YEAR 2021!

KatrinGn says:

2 AUGUST 2020

CHANNEL NAME KatrinGn

Another Favourite

20 AUGUST 2020 Video Russian music language

C6OPHNK-11 Collection-11 Music by Sergei Chekalin

Channel name CepreN 4eKanNH My3bIKa AnR AyWN

6:11 / 59 8. Invigorating music for start new days! Music Sergei Chakalin

YOUTUBE LOOP TYPE IN SEARCH THEN MARK VIDEO RECORDING NUMBERS

6:44 / 59 8 Invigorating music for start days days! Music Sergei Chakalin END!

MY FAVORITE MUSIC IN FIRST PART OF RUSSIAN MUSIC

SECOND FAVOURITE

10:59 / 59 8 Invigorating music for start new days! Music Sergei Chakalin

YOUTUBE REPEAT LIMIT YOUR RECORDING NUMBERS BELOW THIS SENTENCE!

11:34 / 59 8 Invigorating music for start new days! Music Sergei Chakalin END!

Paul Mauriat says:

Channel name:Mari Mari 27 November 2019

Song name: EL BIMBO (instrumental)

3nb bNM60

Artist Paul Mauriat

Writers Claude Ganem

Licenced to UGM

on behalf of universal music division Mercury records 11 music rights societies

Song name : Marcas De Ayer

Beautiful feminine singing voice in Russian

Next video name:

This is the MOST BEAUTIFUL MUSIC IN A ROW 1 Hour Anit stress tv

Channel name Anti stress tv

Music composer :

Sergei Chekalin

Favourite pieces of his

twinkle star

Conductor

Running time

LISTEN TO RUNNING TIME AGAIN

BUBBLE

DISTANT COUNTRY

Colours music of Giovanni

love this music listen to every day until bored

The Colours of music – GIOVANNI MIRRADI

2 Feb 2018

love this music listen to every day until bored

Playing card cipher for each card you just have to take suit of card spell in English
then count the letters according to the number on each card Put those letters
together you’ll get it

Take first letter of heart Get H

Take the letters from the first four cards on the top left

READ. 4 of hearts 5 of spades 3 of hearts Ace of diamond

BROTHERS. 4 of clubs 4 of hearts 5 of diamonds 5 of hearts Ace of hearts 2 of hearts 4 of hearts Ace of spades

ACTIONS 3 of hearts Ace of clubs 5 of hearts 2 of diamonds 5 of diamonds 6 of diamonds Ace of spades

AND 3 of hearts 6 of diamonds Ace of diamonds

THEN 5 of hearts Ace of hearts 2 of hearts 6 of diamonds

READ 4 of heart 2 or heart 3 of hearts Ace of diamonds

SISTERS Ace spades 2 diamonds Ace spades 5 hearts 2 Hearts 4 hearts 1 spades

ACTIONS

AND

THEN

READ

MOTHERS 4 Diamonds 5 Diamonds 5 hearts Ace hearts 2 Hearts 4 hearts
1 of spades

ACTIONS

Read THIS 5 of hearts Ace of hearts 2 of diamonds Ace of diamonds

HELP

MORE 4 of diamonds 5 of Diamonds 4 of hearts 2 of hearts

DISABLED Diamonds dIamonds Spades heArts cluBs cLubs hEart Diamonds

PEOPLE spades hearts diamonds spades clubs hearts

HELP

MORE

MALE diamonds hearts clubs spades

HUMANS. Ace of hearts clubs diamonds spades diamonds spades

UP diamonds spades

THERE hearts hearts Spades heart spades

HERE hearts spades hearts spades

SCHOOL spades clubs hearts diamonds diamonds clubs

STUDENT spades hearts clubs diamonds spades diamond hearts

CAR

TRAIN

PLANE

AIRPORT

BUS

COACH

FREE

RIDE

HORSE

RUN

ESCAPE

AS

SOON

AS

POSSIBLE

DO

NOT

TAKE

YOUR

TIME

IN

THE

PRESENT

DO

NOT FORGET

THE

PAST

Cards in the bottom row

Channel name

Valerija Lovcinovska

C60pHNK KpacNBON My3bIKN

26 Sept 2019

listen to music before

4:11 / 52 4

Piano music says:

Channel name : AnnaAlekseeva

11 Jan 2018

Ope epNK WoneH HOKTIOPH

Channel name : CepreN YekanHN My3bIKa AnR AywN

Video name yTpeHHRR cBeXecTB Morning freshness.Music by Sergei Chekalin.

22 JULY 2020

Am Nhac says:

Nhac Thu Gian is the channels title

Am Nhac Thu gian Am Thanh Dep Cho Buoi sang tran day nang luong

29 Nov 2019

object verb says:

Watakushi ga baka dewa arimasen, ga anata wa

I’m not stupid/idiot but you are….

kadara ni says:

kadara ni kyoutsukete

kadara means body in this language

type of word: Noun

when ki and yo are put together

the yo replaces the I in ki

same with ya yu yo for ki shi chi ni hi bi pi mi ri

kiortsukete says:

is the verb TE-form of of the verb kiotsukemasu (to take care of/to be careful).

We use the particle NI to indicate the object of this verb,or

what you should take care of.

example kuruma ni kiortsukete

(be careful of cars)

NI NARIMASU says:

(to be_/to become_)

NI is a particle indicating the result of a change.

e.g

Nihongo kyoushi hi narimasu.

I will become a _ese language teacher.

Curly Sun says:

Curly Sun name of this music channel

KpaCNBaR BoctoyHaR My3bIKA Mypawek

3 July 2020

the name of this channel

3 february 2021

Masako Goto says:

10 May 2021
KatrinGn KAK OHN

garnet crow over drive instrumental

over drive garnet crow piano detective lost ship sky 14

Max Gron says:

I found out I’m more at stage coral, I hate everyone, I’m introverted, I hardly go out (but not to the extreme), I’m capable of helping you to lose weight with my mind. I can use my mind to create a reality of hecticness, itineraries, and drinking of coffee. And since I was a misanthrope a long time ago I was simply at stage coral, that’s why these stages on actualized.org don’t seem to fit my personality, I’m not any of those value systems, furthermore I’m a tier two, a humiliated man who’s very unworldly.

Max Gron says:

I’m no longer talking of these mind games but my life’s still a mind game, I’ll talk of some other mind games (I’m an expert at mind games). By the way I’m a pretty skinny guy and my friend Tom can see it, I’m just not too skinny to the point of people worrying about it, I don’t want to be any skinnier, nor any fatter. Also I’m humiliated enough. The things you all care about, like success and knowledge, and your views, isn’t simply a stage in spiral dynamics, or orange, but is you happy to think you’re right and you don’t want to be questioned, what I want, I want people to acknowledge what a successful man I am, and how business-oriented I am. My stage has changed since I went down the path of success again. You mightn’t know whether you’re even at stage blue, I know because I think I know. Truth is what I think, it’s true because my beliefs said so. There’s no way I’m not going to be disappointed at life, people follow me like a shark trying to talk me down. I get treated like shit and my thoughts predict that something unfortunate is going to happen. What I want is to stop with the lies, and begin with the truth. In a word, doing the itineraries as I do and busyness with going out, and taking phone calls, looks like stage orange to me, it’s not the healthiest lifestyle and I love it. I’m the one possessing a multitude of clothes, and feel the need to wear a checkered shirt. Perhaps cultic behaviour will do you good, you want jam on it. And let me tell you I’m absolutely right asking for sex, and I shouldn’t cause trouble for doing sex, and there shouldn’t be these laws against sex, people should just have fun with me, have sex with me and shut up. If we just had sex everyone is happy. It should be good everything I do, weirdness should be a good thing, reality should be good without you being at war with it, or at war with my morals. It’s just a simple thing of not being the real thing, if your actions aren’t real you don’t cause real hurt, period, it’s fake with a fake evil. Just be true absolutely to who you think you are, you can be anything you want.

Max Gron says:

All these stages, in reality my real stages are blue and beige, not any stages that happened later in life, since my mother’s a survivor her real stage is beige, any new stages is fake, the real me is a normal, average, regular guy who eats pasties instead of pies, who is materialistic, who is mild-mannered, all those new personalities I had from my childhood to adulthood, is a coverup, I’m not all these layers I think I am, these layers is what gave me mental illness in the first place including lack of secularism, including genius, including supernatural bullshit, and being stupid (it’s been a very long time, I wasn’t stupid, and in school I wasn’t different in the first place). I never had mental illness but there was only one thing I wanted to be: a normal, average, regular person. But being like your childhood is a dick move, how do I prove this success-oriented, introverted, hectic, Word-document-typing, coffee-drinking, knowledge-picking, aesthetic, simple, pessimistic me isn’t a false personality? I haven’t changed since I was defying reality, it’s sincere and heartfelt.

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