What Does Awakening Feel Like?
By Leo Gura - August 20, 2021 | 23 Comments
A phenomenological description of pure awakening
Max Gron says: Of all the videos that I’m happy with it’s how to get rich, this awakening video, and as many success videos as possible, well done.
to fandango says: If God went though all this trouble to deceive itself, why would he want to awake?
When I am sleeping, dreaming and I realize I am dreaming, I try to enjoy the dream, not to keep reminding myself that I am in a dream all the time. I dont take advantage of this knowledge to do crazy/toxic stuff either (most of the time heheh), but try to have a beautiful dream and enjoy it.
Shouldnt we just live life knowing that nothing really matters but at the same time that is death serious in a way? Maybe have some awakenings to keep reminding yourself that you are dreaming, but not make the dream about knowing that is a dream, but use it to make the best out of it?
from fandango
to fandango says: he would want to awake because he exactly hates self deception, he hates it so much that he had to outsource the hate and offload it to others.
its exactly that: nothing really matters. whatever way you read this, the quality of nothing does not change, except if the quality changes. we does not concern him, what concerns him is him and his ranking within that. he does not get the logical failure about him developing a nightmare vs you dreaming a dream and you wont realize until the story of your dream takes a turn. might be you dont realize, you are not the only dreamer, that realization would really matter.
Max Raoy Gron says: It’s always about other people, never yourself, do you ignore or hate yourself, so it’s never about you? What about us? We do things, not you, both you and us, we’re the ones having an awakening, not just all of you, what we think is that we’re the no-bull guys humble as we are taking Leo’s teachings seriously, we don’t care only about other people, we care about ourselves. And furthermore what we were thinking tonite is simply the very specific things below stage yellow into stage blue, we all do things, we’re all one, our reality is infinity, consciousness, and we are, we exist, that’s you too, it’s all about us.
Max Raoy Gron says: This is hard to wrap my head around. I’ve been thinking about this. It contradicts itself, I found that contradiction isn’t true, it’s not it can’t be true, I believe it extremely, I know what I’m talking about: it is true, and can be true without contradiction. I don’t care what you say, I’m going to take it as belief. I don’t care what you say, you’re not infinitely conscious the way Leo is, and you people don’t know what’s true, admit it. It’s the ultimate reality. For one thing I’m to be believed and accepted, for another any disagreement I’m taking on as agreement, and tossing it in the rubbish. Another thing, because I’m everything, I’m even the same as what you agree with and what you disagree with, I’m you knowing I’m absolutely right. I’ve learned it, that means you should accept it, I’m so much in the know and I have the intelligence to know spirit, yes, not dumb matter, not the matter I used to type this, cranking up the consciousness I’m so conscious I can’t be denied, if you attempt at denying me, you’re actually agreeing that I’m wrong not to say this. I’m extremely right, I’m so right it’s impossible to disagree with me. Your disbelief is actually the belief in this: spirit, I can’t be disbelieved.
Max Raoy Gron says: Incase you can’t tell I care more about my wokeness than ever being right. I have the discipline to think (you don’t deny this, that is you don’t deny that I’m an all-self-accepting mind), I’m actually an all-seeing mind, and everyone denies the human mind, you deny my mind, but my thoughts are true, that is to say, that everything in my life is in my mind, to some people this is undeniable, you know it’s in my mind, I’m cutting off the circulation to not breathe, I’m going to force myself to breathe, and to live, I’m killing my frustration. I’m attacking hindrance to my fun. I’m weakening your whole concept of how crazy I am. I’m so wise that everything I touch is wise, the computer’s wise, my fingers are wise, my hair’s wise, my mother’s wise, everything I experience is wise, that is to an extent, until I’m back to seeing a fool. I know some of this you can’t accept, you can’t believe me, but hear me out, I’m God, I’m the person receiving the positive (note to self: kill your will to ever not have other people’s confidence), I abused everyone’s negativity, I wounded it, you know deep down you’re empty, you can’t accept reality, and furthermore, I’m not right or wrong, I’m absolutely wanting you, and I just want you, I don’t want myself, thus what I think is as important as me caring what your beliefs are (that means I have to detect your mind, so I can deny like you, to look in there and love people for copying me), I can only be accepted as a thing you don’t care about, of course it’s like that, nobody cares about me, yes, admit it, you don’t care about me, it’s all about your thoughts, your beliefs, your mind, your personality, you’re very selfish, you don’t care what I think and that’s fine, but remember I will be there to argue that Leo is talking about consciousness, yes consciousness, arguing about self-sacrifice, arguing how neurotic you are, all your flaws and illnesses, merging with the room as you do, as for spirit, wake up to yourself, you ARE spirit, you’re everything.
Max Gron says: I’m fully conscious, if I crank it up higher than 98 I will be unconscious, I know a lot, I’m at 98 in my consciousness/awakening/enlightenment, I absolutely instantly understand whatever is and not just things, but also non-things, nothing and the nothing, I know it all, it’s not a no know, it’s a yes I know, I know, I don’t no, noing is negating, knowing is awareness. It turns out the blinding light it took for me to wake up, it shocked me, freaky, horrible activities in life, I saw the back of the elephant and it gave me a crisis. In reality how risky this is I’m divine and ready to take this on. Because I do this that automatically means I can give the correct advice, and can achieve more and know what I’m doing.
Max Gron says: Once I’m at 1,000 all my problems will be solved in my awakening, leading me to a dream. That literally means I can go around aware that life’s a dream with awareness of what the dream is so I don’t need any teaching that life’s a dream.
Max the shithead says: It’s finally happened, I now for the first time ever really am spiritual, I stopped misinterpreting the teachings and I continued increasing my consciousness, I was increasingly to a 900, and as I cranked the knob it became 999 and I was stuck at 999, if I keep cranking my consciousness up a little more it will finally be 1,000, and I think I’m at a 1,000 right now because when I heard this teaching tonight at 7:55PM I was that woken that I was wide awake and wasn’t sleepy at all, this really happened, I’m even aware of every noise, feel, feeling and sensation in my body, my mind, my consciousness, conscious of my consciousness, aware of my awareness, it’s unreal and the colours were softer and bluish, and luminous, and things looked clearer than ever before, and they stopped being solid, they got softer, this didn’t happen before but now I’m aware of it, and it’s not a result of drugs, coffee, meditation, contemplation, thinking, reflection or reflecting, it’s not caused by any of these, nothing caused it, it wasn’t caused, it’s uncaused, and now I know.
Max Gron says: Of all the pains in the neck, it’s pseudo-“wisdom” without being set for modern times, I’m into modern wisdom, resulting in modern conveniences in the process. As I’m absolutely the same, I haven’t improved one bit, and I’ll piss you off to maintain this identity, when someone talks at me I’ll keep annoying them, having no fun, just following God’s rules and doing sinlessness, to be absolutely the same I would have to piss you off, not a single improvement, you can’t change people. The wisdom in this is to stick people’s complaints up their arses, and if you complain that I stomp my feet you can stick it up your arse, if you think I’m a slammer, you can stick it up your arse, it should be acceptable the way I am, so love what you hate, that’s an order, and further down the line there’s a million things people want you to change, so I’ll keep annoying people, and I promise I’ll smash all your dreams to pieces.
Max Raoy Gron says: Something doesn’t feel right, my 1,000-cranked consciousness would be a remarkable quality when now it’s 999, so conscious from September 2024 I do the practices and make the things happen, this has changed my life, I had better results and better philosophies, with a flavour of some of what’s old school, I changed to that at the identity level, without trying to go back to my old beliefs and paradigms. As a result and this is contentious, I don’t need a bunch of rules to do the tasks that need to be done, I eat my brekky and drink my coffee every morning, I don’t have alternative methods of my ways to any extremes, only fairly like that I am, and I’m “conscious” of the things to and to not argue about.
Max Raoy Gron says: This next time of seeing the above video is the real awakening, my consciousness, what I see is intense and crystal clear, white in the middle, not the purest white, the surroundings of this laptop of mum’s is black and the rest, on the monitor, is white, feels hard as a rock etc etc, and is like blue crystals, my consciousness without above imagination of 1,000, which was a false awakening, is now really up to 999 1/2, it’s not 1,000 yet and if I keep watching the videos/consciousness videos and doing the practices for years it will get to 1,000.
Max Raoy Gron says: I’m still at consciousness by a 999 1/2, but I became more aware, everything now isn’t so dim like it has been all my life for 41 years, it’s not as dark as it has been all the time from then, I now know what seeing the light is, everything I didn’t know I said nothing about it, I don’t talk about things I don’t know. As a misologist I’m not going to explain it, I choose to believe Leo that I’m God and that the universe is nothing, is infinity, God’s infinity, and that I’m infinity, but to tell the brutally honest truth God’s a foreign object, although he’s you, he’s outside of you at the same time, otherwise you wouldn’t have to become God, which is just wrong, I think God is simply the Christian God, not Allah, Buddha or any other false god (Buddha’s not a god but a man, and he wanted to recontextualise religion not with religion, but with godless spirituality, I know the whole place and universe is empty but I’m not a Buddhist, a cup of coffee is only a quarter empty but it’s not empty). To believe something, to know about it, is to get yourself to switch to the belief in question, and consistently believe without a shadow of doubt, and to remember it, with everything you learned about not just the belief, but also the thing the belief refers to, that’s powerful.
Max Raoy Gron says: I got even more conscious since I got drunk on wine, what was a 999 1/2 has now increased since the other day to 999 3/4, I’ll get drunk on even more wine, because the things I knew at 999 1/2 wasn’t even more of the things on the same videos I knew at 999 3/4, it’s incredible!
Max Raoy Gron says: Despite me being drowsy, with my eyes closed for the first time I was so conscious I was conscious of the end of this video for the first time, I now realise that everything has an end, today I got drunk on wine and it increased my consciousness again, when my consciousness was 999 3/4 I knew I could stop angering all people for good but now that it’s 999 4/5, I’m conscious that it functions so simply, on two rules: 1. don’t lock the door when someone’s living with you while they’re out of the house unless they’ve left or are leaving the house, but be careful of this, and unless I’m leaving the house, also be careful of this, and 2. Always be reasonably clean, and take herbal medicines. These two rules are subtle, if I do them wrong I can have my things broken with hasty anger from my housemate all over again, I’m conscious there never in a lifetime needs to be extra rules thrown in, it’s simple, yet it’s the most difficult moral rules to invent and make acceptable, it had to work. Now that my consciousness is 999 4/5, some of the things I needed to do with the “How Survival Shapes Who You Are” video are changing my fears and insecurities of violence against me, shock and humiliation to simply fearing my bodily death, and simply being insecure about that. Also my change of spirituality is leaning towards the strange loop, reality (various videos of them), Self-Love videos, and doing the contemplations for the first time, memorising every change I said in the comments section, with even the change of my religion, only I’m a little more conscious of it now. This video of awakening somehow turned blue and my consciousness overwhelms me, it seemed like half an hour when it was one hour long, and yes I know I’m God and realise that I’m everyone is God, I wasn’t that conscious before.
Max Raoy Gron says: By the way the increase in my consciousness was getting faster and faster, I’m knowing things in the videos I never knew before, I don’t know how conscious I’m going to get next time, it’s getting speedy, and by meditations it will be even quicker.
Max Raoy Gron says: My consciousness this afternoon today, while I was writing notes on my moral code, suddenly, when the back of my head was hurting, cranked up from a 999 4/5 to a 999 7/8, and immediately I was more conscious, I knew something about morals I didn’t know before: that as a highly conscious being I only need five rules.
Max Raoy Gron says: By the way that was a false awakening and unless I always put my awareness on my surroundings, when I eat, drink and smoke, and when I get in or out, and on my body, aware that I’m God and the whole universe, that it’s God, I won’t be at a 1,000, I’m still stuck on a 999 4/5.
Max Raoy Gron says: I noticed in his “The Psychology Of Being Wrong” video, one of his currently two most recent videos, I felt the need for doing Leo’s one exercise properly, he’s changed in recent years, he somehow but with its elements, stopped being anti-intellectual, although he hasn’t changed the anti-intellectual structure, he’s constantly changed, what was once a stage orange man has moved to a bit of green and a lot of yellow, I’m not going to lie, it took me days to think about this but now my consciousness is at a 999 6/7, I’m not proud to say it’s any higher, I’m nearly 1,000 but not quite, I’m almost there, and as I got more conscious I got more conscious of God, that God is a being that’s also formed like you and the entire universe.
Max Raoy Gron says: This consciousness is internal, it’s not an external effort like it would be in ascetic practices, it’s spontaneous, you have to look at everything deliberately and push a lot of effort in it, it doesn’t happen naturally, ascetic practices are naturally conscious; at 9:54PM tonight, and I’m not so sure, but things looked clear, from my drunkenness on wine I was more conscious, and I think I’m now at a 1,000, I feel like the universe and God as the creator of everything, now Iknow what it’s like to be God. It’s like, with difficulty my mind was jailbroken and replaced with new beliefs.
Max Raoy Gron says: Actually from what I said above, that wasn’t a real awakening, I was stuck at a consciousness of 999 4/5, and only today it’s risen to 999 6/7, thus as a highly conscious person, I don’t need a bunch of rules to behave, I couldn’t do this behaviour at a 999 4/5, to not need at bunch of rules starts at 999 6/7, and I advanced, when I was listening to the “how to stay healthy” video, that’s when today I was more conscious, everything’s God, including myself, and God’s the whole universe, and I knew of Leo saying to follow the videos and books that work for me and reject the rest, he also said to treat your body as precious and valuable.
Max Raoy Gron says: I’m not going to make notes on my level of consciousness, for now, but I can say I’m very conscious, I just don’t know how much more conscious I got. Since experience of awakening, purity, and normality are subjective, all that isn’t true, reality’s not subjective, I’m not excited at myself, I did all that stuff the world was doing, without a difference, they used to delude themselves into thinking I’m strange. Now that that’s outta the way, God-consciousness, me acting like God, like I’m in the clouds, there’s only one problem, consciousness doesn’t get me an extra $5 when I could be enjoying $60 now, I see Hitler logic, Slavs keep people poor, that stirred up anger in Hitler, as for Bosnians, the problem is I have to go out buying things when taken to lunch with them, those bloody people enslave me, it’s the Bosnians who are the problem, I don’t take orders from the Bosnians, nor my fiend Selwyn, I should be separated from him to gain my freedom, if I really am conscious, I would really see a solid table, emphatically brown, it’s a kind of red, and incase you can’t tell, I’m not some average no-fun man of mediocrity, avoiding fancy food, I don’t avoid fancy food, I love fancy food as a gourmand hotdog with bacon, onions and pineapple, yes, since I’m very conscious I don’t need moral rules. I’m telling you I’m a hotdog, I’m delicious, sweet and irresistible, I’m not an American ignoramus at McDonald’s eating $10 breakfasts, wasting my money, and eating cheeseburgers!, bullshit, conscious as I am I don’t eat burgers, doughnuts, cakes in most cases, bloody pancakes, hotcakes, flapjacks, parkin, syllabubs, hot chips, protein chips, protein bars or any of that shit, I’ll not go to Canada to try moose nose fucking jelly!, or pancakes! I’m going for rye whiskey. Yes it’s hotdogs I’ll eat, and not greasy foods, the butter’s so gross if I’m freshly microwaving popcorn, it should be cold popcorn ready-made sold in the packet without me having to cook it, very conscious people don’t eat greasy buttered microwave popcorn or that shit made from saturated fat, fats and oils aren’t needed, they make you fat, no more chocolate, fried foods, crumbed chicken including any chicken nuggets, cream, or those saturated fat foods or overly sugary, overly salty, overly processed stuff, I’d rather try Texan chicken chilli with a Byron Bay chilli sauce while drinking cup of tea and a buttered bread roll, it’s called health consciousness.
Max Raoy Gron says: It’s incredibly simple, consciousness, a consciousness of 1,000? I don’t think so, my consciousness is 999 7/8, if I raised my consciousness more I would be fully aware of what people believe, what they think, that the rest of the people in my surroundings lie about people lying, nothing you say in your faith comes from within, it’s not “natural”, and the lack of thinking isn’t “normal”, my mind doesn’t work that way, my mind “works” by seeing the evil in everything, in religion, in irrationality, and also I didn’t believe in god in the first place, I think god’s irrelevant to my consciousness, so what you believe is true, huh? I think you’re a liar, I think with all these fantasies you pretend lying is human nature, well it’s not, most people nowadays aren’t religious and they don’t believe in god, it’s irrational to believe half-truths, and things happening with no proof, or it’s pseudo-rational, can’t you see cavemen are full of shit, if I had a club guess who gets bonked on the head for that shit? That’s right! I’m at stage red, I’m not proud of this, to me it’s a world of people coming to fight and verbally attack me, of all the things that freak people out, being smart freaks them out, they would stand there bickering like a stupid dog stands there continuously barking.