A trip report i found on Reddit

[maxpechura]

Converted the trip report to an audio file:

iv-realized-We-are-God-and-life.mp3

The text is read by Alloy of OpenAi TTS Api

for those of you who find listening to spoken word easier than reading words on screen 

Edited May 1 by maxpechura

[Schizophonia]

On 29/02/2024 at 0:02 PM, Jowblob said:

This is all correct, except one thing. When you suicide or kill yourself somehow in a crash for example you don't necessarily wake up as god. That is because you didnt die as god realized but still as an ego mind, ego mind will associate death with darkness. And since you're nothingness , anything is possible. When you jump from your roof as ego and not as a god realized being, you will keep falling when you're close to the ground you won't touch it  but just will have a black screen because of the shock. Then after the nothingness/blackness you might become aware in a new childs body, the big bang is a start of your rebirth/new awareness  in your world.

She got a taste of god or herself and knew she did it billions of times and wished for rebirth/new life. BUT A KNEW LIFE OR EGO BODY ISNT AS EASY TO GET AS YOU MIGHT THINK, YOU'RE NOTHINGNESS SO BEING ENTRAPPED AND FORGOTTEN IN ANOTHER DREAM ISNT AS EASY AS YOU MIGHT THINK. From what i know and understand the only way to get a new random body/ego/dream  is to wish for death/kill yourself/non existence. It's basically a gods restart button to get lost somewhere.

The others while you're in a ego body are just projections/reflections of your mind because you're aware. So you're truely only one and all alone.

The problem is when you're all alone, the desires/meaning/things all will have 0 value for you. The only true meaning that you already know will be loving others. So a restart of your dream / being reborn into delusion and unknowingness will be your only option. 

How do you go from "nothingness" to reincarnation as a whole new individual?
There must still be something above that decides what to create.

It's logical, if you become nothing and despite yourself become something totally new, it's because you are not God.

 

[halfknots]

2 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

How do you go from "nothingness" to reincarnation as a whole new individual?
There must still be something above that decides what to create.

It's logical, if you become nothing and despite yourself become something totally new, it's because you are not God.

 

Have you considered that there are limitations to logic?

[Chooky]

Is God really lonely or is that just a projection from the lower self?

[What Am I]

29 minutes ago, halfknots said:

Have you considered that there are limitations to logic?

Reminds me of this awesome scene in Doctor Strange.

 

[Space]

On 01/05/2024 at 1:44 PM, maxpechura said:

Converted the trip report to an audio file:

iv-realized-We-are-God-and-life.mp3

The text is read by Alloy of OpenAi TTS Api

for those of you who find listening to spoken word easier than reading words on screen 

Awesome report. 

God, isn't this reality so bizarre and wonderful!

Edited May 27 by Space

[Recursoinominado]

On 2/29/2024 at 10:47 PM, shree said:

This is another post she made on Reddit four years ago. It appears she's doing quite well.

LOL

Dude is living the dream. Literally.

[ricachica]

I have done many trips, but none high enough to reach a realization like this yet. I have read about it a lot in trip reports and of course Leo talks about it, but I feel like I have to first be a grounded and well-intentioned individual before attempting to get there, otherwise I intuit that I will have similar dark feelings about it when I realize it. I have definitely gotten closer to that grounded mental state lately, though I also know I need more refinement. 

If many people experience solipsism on psychedelics, what's the difference in individuals who experience it as a "good" or "bad" thing? Or is it supposed to be an acceptance of both good and bad, or neither altogether? 

Edited May 31 by ricachica

[What Am I]

1 minute ago, ricachica said:

If many people experience solipsism on psychedelics, what's the difference in individuals who experience it as a "good" or "bad" thing?

My guess is it'd be the difference between those who experience themself 100% as God itself, as opposed to those who experience it in at least somewhat of a separated state. It costs precisely everything.

[LambdaDelta]

2 minutes ago, What Am I said:

My guess is it'd be the difference between those who experience themself 100% as God itself, as opposed to those who experience it in at least somewhat of a separated state. It costs precisely everything.

Part of it could be how introverted/extroverted one is. I'm very much the former, so solipsism happens to work out perfectly. So what if I'm utterly alone. But I've also come to realize solipsism without Love is incomplete.

[ricachica]

@LambdaDelta

Yes, it sounds like her trip was definitely heavy solipsism based, without the Infinite/Love mixed in. I'm assuming the best way to experience solipsism is when infinite Love is also experienced along with it, and makes it smoother and less harsh to process? Can one experience Love without solipsism, or is that apart of it?

Edited May 31 by ricachica

[PenguinPablo]

6 hours ago, ricachica said:

I have done many trips, but none high enough to reach a realization like this yet. I have read about it a lot in trip reports and of course Leo talks about it, but I feel like I have to first be a grounded and well-intentioned individual before attempting to get there, otherwise I intuit that I will have similar dark feelings about it when I realize it. I have definitely gotten closer to that grounded mental state lately, though I also know I need more refinement. 

If many people experience solipsism on psychedelics, what's the difference in individuals who experience it as a "good" or "bad" thing? Or is it supposed to be an acceptance of both good and bad, or neither altogether? 

Many times it scares the shit out of me and I want to go back to asleep / sleepy boy mode.

But last week I was so depressed and frustrated with my life that solipsism brought back a sense of peace.

But the rabbit hole goes deeper and deeper. I know I'll prolly have a rough time if I really push deep.

 

[LambdaDelta]

5 hours ago, ricachica said:

@LambdaDelta

Yes, it sounds like her trip was definitely heavy solipsism based, without the Infinite/Love mixed in. I'm assuming the best way to experience solipsism is when infinite Love is also experienced along with it, and makes it smoother and less harsh to process? Can one experience Love without solipsism, or is that apart of it?

Totally possible and more likely to experience them separately. I first got solipsism with a small glimpse of Love, then some time later the Love. The good stuff is when you're able to connect the two in your mind, each one will integrate and reinforce the other if that makes sense. IMO an important distinction is that even if you're able to accept that you're all the ugly and evil things when realizing solipsism, if you only accept but don't love it, that's not complete.

[What Am I]

16 hours ago, LambdaDelta said:

Part of it could be how introverted/extroverted one is. I'm very much the former, so solipsism happens to work out perfectly. So what if I'm utterly alone. But I've also come to realize solipsism without Love is incomplete.

Sure, that seems likely. I've met people who are so extroverted that they suffer having to be alone with themselves for even a short time. I'd imagine they wouldn't enjoy having the cosmic realization of being completely alone for eternity.

Yeah, I agree on the idea of needing Love as a support for the experience to be as it should. It probably requires the full blooming of Sat Chit Ananda as the three pillars.

[MsNobody]

@maxpechura wow that is amazing and crazy!! The part she says "I felt my dick, but Im a woman, I have no dick" lol 

Is it difficult to create those recordings? I would like to get all those trip reports on my channel but tried reading it and its trashy, tried using some AI but the recordings are not very precise.

Reading trip reports was what sparked my curiosity for psychedelics and what helped me tremendously in my journeys. 

[LordFall]

@Leo Gura What's your thoughts on this trip report? 

I've had a trip similar to this when I combined shrooms and LSD together. I came out of it but for a while I was like stuck in this reality and I knew there was no escape whether I died or not. Reading this again let me to ponder this rabbit hole. Solipsism is an interesting concept. Do you think God is indeed in agony from the loneliness or is that a silly way of looking at it? 

[CoolDreamThanks]

wowwww. this feels so authentic and deep and profound and scary