Meditation and disturbing dreams

[Rhia]

Well, I restarted meditation, only 10 minutes a day. On the very day I started, I also started to have some disturbing dreams related to a person who caused lots of trauma to me in my early life, but I thought that those matters were more or less done after 2 years of therapy. Since then, I keep having disturbing dreams of the same theme, same person, and I am not sure if it's the right idea to continue, or continue the same way. Is it something natural that everyone would go through, or is there something to be changed?

[CoolDreamThanks]

Unfortunately, therapy is mostly useless in truly healing trauma. Because therapists have no idea who you are, what life is and why these things happen. As you can see, the trauma is still within you, hiding in your unconscious.  

However, meditation is the true medicine that can penetrate your unconacious and let that trauma go. But the process of letting it go requires for it to surface, which is what is happening in your dreams.  

Some traumas, from my experience, will require years and years and thousands of hours of meditation to trully heal. Yet when they do heal, you will feel lighter and more peaceful just in general, going throughout life. Be warned though, you have no idea what traumas are hidding even deeper, not even from this lifetime. I've acessed traumas from thousands of years ago and it's grotesque, terrifying, shameful, murder-involved traumas. And I had to dream those dreams to let it go. I would wake up in the middle of the night, bed drenched in sweat from fear, go stand in the shower, just staring into the wall without any thoughts, being stunned by the terror I just experienced. And that happened hundreads of times at various leves of depth and I am not even fully healed.. It's a difficult process, but the only one that really works. Others are easy in comparison, but dony truly heal, so yeah, buckle up..

[Yimpa]

27 minutes ago, CoolDreamThanks said:

Unfortunately, therapy is mostly useless in truly healing trauma. Because therapists have no idea who you are, what life is and why these things happen. As you can see, the trauma is still within you, hiding in your unconscious

It took a very long time and a lot of suffering for me to finally discover a therapist who gets me. She taught me powerful life skills, such as leading a life based off of autonomy and learning not to look at my life strictly through a trauma lens. Also, that therapy ultimately works best when you advocate for yourself and lead with an open heart and mind.

[Rhia]

@Yimpa

Yes. I agree, it's just that I don't really have the resources for repeated trial and error. The last therapist helped a lot through CBT, and I managed to put most aspects of my life. There were some events I was unable to talk about either due to partial blackouts or because of the depth of the trauma and the linked emotions, whilst not being in a situation where I can afford to just stay at home for healing my traumas. No time for me talk breakdowns in other words. The therapist said that for living a complete or functional life it's not a must to bring to the surface each and every event (I was able to write about them, not to speak to her though), as your mind buries them for a reason; mist of the time the reason is that it's too much to handle. My question is not really related to the credibility of psychology or modern therapy, or whether my previous therapist were useful/professional. The thing is, I am still leading a life in which I cannot afford to stay at home for weeks just to take care of my traumas, so I'd rather choose an approach that keeps my emotions manageable. Ie. if I am going to have nightmares for months just because I am meditating, I'd rather not, thank you. If it's a short term inconvenience that can be managed and it's normal, I will have another approach again. All depends... So the question is if it's normal, if it's manageable and how?