Life After Ego Death? (2 Tabs Of Acid = 450 Mics)

[Visionary]

Hi guys,

I finally experienced ego-death 2 days ago. The most beautiful experience "i" have ever experienced. How life and death is a complete hoax. Your "life and death" are just a cute spot on a canvas of eternity and infinity (which is your true nature). And there are an infinite amount of those canvases. I really start to appreciate how @Leo Gura can describe his experience (with the Al-lad trip report). You really start to appreciate this creativity.

But for me; I could barely speak the past few days.I had to start learn it all over again. As if it was my first time. Like a baby who just came out of his moms vagina.

Anyway. The ego is taking its old form back again slowly. And it's a quite fucking painful process. You feel your old subconscious mind manifesting in your body. The old paradigms, insecurities and neurotic tendencies. These egoic foundations are now definitely weaker than before. But they're still there. It somehow feels like a curse. The incarnation of the ego. But you should frame that shit. It really is a magical experience. Eventually just meaningless of course. Something to be detached from.

Ego death is certainly not the "end stadium". There is still work to do. A LOT. The walls between the "inner world" and "outer world" are now to be demolished. During my ego-less state, i had the chance to meet my authentic self. The authentic self feels like God's tentacle of pure Conciousness. The ultimate threshold between pure God-Consciousness and Ego. At least that's how it felt. God looking at itself through your body and eyes. Not your persona. WITHOUT those egoic/artificial walls. Without memory. I want to live my life according to this Self. This would mean finding your true life purpose. When you're in this state, you feel all your actions are driven by some sort of deep underlying algorithm of Unconditional Love. You immediately realize the paradox of free-will.

So guys, who has experienced this before? How did this experience change you? And how do you manage to tune into that Love frequency that can manifest your life purpose?

The road to authenticity really has begun now!

 

[Visionary]

2 minutes ago, Loreena said:

I feel to punch you in the face.

Hahaha yeah. Stupid questions. Just wanted to create some discussion or at least have some comments on this topic.

[Arkandeus]

powerful stuff my friend! 

sounds like a great experience

 

[Arman]

4 minutes ago, Loreena said:

I finally How did this experience change you? And how do you manage to tune into that Love frequency that can manifest your life purpose?

The road to authenticity really has begun now!

 

4 minutes ago, Loreena said:

I feel to punch you in the face.

 

Lol this perfectly illustrates these experiences. You have a grand revelation, experience great love, wonder how it will change your life, then you step outside your home with open arms and somebody tells you to go fuck yourself

soon you will be back to your baseline and it will be just another memory... what will it mean then? 

 

[Visionary]

5 minutes ago, Arman said:

 

 

Lol this perfectly illustrates these experiences. You have a grand revelation, experience great love, wonder how it will change your life, then you step outside your home with open arms and somebody tells you to go fuck yourself

soon you will be back to your baseline and it will be just another memory... what will it mean then? 

 

Hahaha yeah ikr? Lmao. It really should have no meaning to you. Giving meaning to experiences is another egoic tendency. The ego really wants to create memory. When you actually have none! A bittersweet experience really.

 

 

6 minutes ago, Loreena said:

@Visionary  will you come to a baseline after experiencing a punch from me ?

after all i am waiting and expecting unconditional love from you.

My egoic form doesn't know whether to like your or not. My Authentic Self does however! Is that an answer to your question? Hahaha. Nah. Unconditional Love and blessings to you ma'am! <3

[Visionary]

15 minutes ago, Arkandeus said:

powerful stuff my friend! 

sounds like a great experience

 

Thank you brother. The road continues. Must find new ways to integrate this experience and be detached from it at the same time. Hard times lol.

[Arman]

1 minute ago, Visionary said:

Hahaha yeah ikr? Lmao. It really should have no meaning to you. Giving meaning to experiences is another egoic tendency. The ego really wants to create memory. When you actually have none! A bittersweet experience really.

1 minute ago, Visionary said:

Thank you brother. The road continues. Must find new ways to integrate this experience and be detached from it at the same time. Hard times lol.

for sure

I think the good news is that actually that it integrates by itself without you trying to do anything, and even if the excitement fades and the mind tries to fruitlessly capture the experience, still on a deeper level it does change you - even if it's hard to say how that is and life challenges remain. Almost like on a physiological level or something. 

[mp22]

Did you feel terror or some fear?  Cheers

[Visionary]

48 minutes ago, mp22 said:

Did you feel terror or some fear?  Cheers

No man. Not during the "death". The incarnation however was a slow torture. Extreme neurotic behaviour. Anxiety surfacing as never before. The slow transition of having no memory to a "person" with an "identity". It feels you're back to the old you. But kinda rearranged. Like @Arman said, on a physiological level. Time to break those weak foundations that are placed back into to the body-mind.

Edited April 10, 2017 by Visionary

[Leo Gura]

Good, make it fuel towards liberation.

[WaveInTheOcean]

11 hours ago, Visionary said:

The incarnation however was a slow torture. Extreme neurotic behaviour. Anxiety surfacing as never before. The slow transition of having no memory to a "person" with an "identity". It feels you're back to the old you. But kinda rearranged. Like @Arman said, on a physiological level. Time to break those weak foundations that are placed back into to the body-mind.

The incarnation you're talking about, you did experience that on the comedown right? I mean it happened before you went to sleep right? Like 7-12 hours into the trip? I at least know what you're talking about, it's creepy as fuck when you suddenly realize you're back into a human body with all its OCD-worry-thoughts. And when I think about it, that's exactly also why I know that what I REALLY am is not the mind/the body, because I have directly experienced being FREE from that -- and still being 'alive' (alive as in conscious, pure being, no thoughts, just only a feeling of love towards existence, no sense of time or space) -- and then coming back and 'getting' all that monkey-mind back.

EDIT: And by the way, in regards to LSD at least, your mindset, set, setting, your ability to surrender is more important than dosage I think in regards to experiencing ego-death. You can easily experience ego-death on 150-200ug LSD, probably even 100ug.

Edited April 11, 2017 by WaveInTheOcean

[Visionary]

2 hours ago, WaveInTheOcean said:

The incarnation you're talking about, you did experience that on the comedown right? I mean it happened before you went to sleep right? Like 7-12 hours into the trip? I at least know what you're talking about, it's creepy as fuck when you suddenly realize you're back into a human body with all its OCD-worry-thoughts. And when I think about it, that's exactly also why I know that what I REALLY am is not the mind/the body, because I have directly experienced being FREE from that -- and still being 'alive' (alive as in conscious, pure being, no thoughts, just only a feeling of love towards existence, no sense of time or space) -- and then coming back and 'getting' all that monkey-mind back.

EDIT: And by the way, in regards to LSD at least, your mindset, set, setting, your ability to surrender is more important than dosage I think in regards to experiencing ego-death. You can easily experience ego-death on 150-200ug LSD, probably even 100ug.

It started after approximately 12 hours. But the next day (and even today) i'm still "incarnating" bit by bit. The day after was the hardest to be honest.Haven't meditated these last 2 days, because it would be a bit too much imo. Will start again today.

 

But yeah, i think one tab might have done the trick. The past weeks/months i've felt a momentum building up. Different No-Self experiences and a very steady progress. This is my third time doing LSD. The first two trips were both around 220 mics (1 tab). So i just followed my intuition. But 1 could definitely do the trick yeah.

[FirstglimpseOMG]

I think the big lessons likely occur on the come-down as the ego remembers itself. Watch it come back in with love and amusement. Then have a laugh at it next time it wants to be all bitchy and flat about life.