Psychonauts, what realms have you threaded?

[Ero]

A few years back I remember Leo posting this video about the hyperbolic geometry of DMT experiences that had a profound impact on me:

 

Fast forward to now, as a math student at the same university I have the unique opportunity of continuing some of this work. I would be interested to hear about people's experiences with various and possibly more obscure psychedelics and what "form" the different trips took. I personally have about 10 trips on mushrooms and 20 on LSD with varying intensity which I am currently using as a reference.  Although they have been very significant in my spiritual journey, they are a small "sample size" from the molecular variety accessible.

Feel free to share any experiences, insights or suggestions you may have. Post-rational strange-loops and paradoxes are more than welcome, this is an epistemically open discussion. 

Edited February 1 by Ero

[Yimpa]

Psychedelics have helped me process religious trauma. This didn’t get resolved after one or two trips. Nah. This took many trips + years intensive therapy. Y’all who think psychedelics are the easy route or a shortcut are kidding yourselves.

[thierry]

I once grasped Infinity with my Mind on Lsd. I broke my teeth doing it. 
yes it is impossible but at my lvl of conciousness, the duality between impossible and possible collapsed. 
it was torture though. 

[Breakingthewall]

With 5meo, reality becomes an infinite black well. At any given moment, you are standing in your room and infinity is in front of you, like a monstrous black hole. You must open yourself to it and merge with it, man, you have to have balls, because the black hole is going to kill you, you are going to disappear in it. then you do it and it is revealed, that's it, you have dissolved into reality. Your laugh is total, that's it, it's perfect

[Hojo]

I see a realm of purple blue and red light. I was moving my body but I couldnt see my body. When I moved my arms and legs I could see I was moving them cause it looked like a blanket and my legs and arms looked like they were under a blanket. I was walking around fazing in and out of this dimension. It was like rows of waving purple blue and red.

And I went to another one right after it was like the background came into the foreground and reality was just 2 dimension. I lost all contact with my body and I was just watching. It was yellow and reality crystallized and then it looked like a mayan board game. I was doing things on the game but I have no idea what was happening. It felt like a video game that an ai was playing.

And another was like reality was a 1 dimensional cube and it was purple. it was like an infinite string of rooms that just moved left to right. I saw an alien doctor and the alien doctor started a machine that felt like it was mind wiping me.

Edited February 3 by Hojo

[Yimpa]

On 2/1/2024 at 2:06 AM, thierry said:

I once grasped Infinity with my Mind on Lsd. I broke my teeth doing it. 
yes it is impossible but at my lvl of conciousness, the duality between impossible and possible collapsed. 
it was torture though. 

 

[Soul Flight]

@Ero Sometimes I'm floating through deep space. Sometimes I am in a crazy cartoon world. Sometimes it is all intense Hindu visions and gods. I always lay on my bed with my eyes closed for 6 to 12 hours. I get intense closed eye visuals. But not everyone does.

Sometimes the visions are boring or grotesque and not pretty or artistic.

There are also lessons, intuitions, revelations, epiphanies, etc.

Of course sometimes along with all this is torture and nightmares and fear of death. Lots of panic and pacing with eyes open.

[Clyde the Rainmaker]

Magic mushrooms used to bring me to a much more normal spiritual realm. I had experiences along the lines of Leo Gura and Terence McKenna and Carl Jung, experiences where I became aware of their ideas, experiences where I became aware of God and the healing power of plants. I wrote beautiful poetry and began to understand what the occult is, what mysticism is, what psychoanalysis is. My views on spirituality, theology, psychology, philosophy, ethnobotany, history, politics, etc. changed. I did hundreds of trips between 2020 and 2021 and they healed a few medical ailments of mine and actualized/transmutated me. 

However, in late 2021 and in 2023, I have had three schizophrenic episodes that have come from magic mushrooms. The last of these times was when I started picking wild conocybe mushrooms with psilocybin in them that were growing in my front yard in July 2023. I entered a completely false reality where I had a different biography than my actual life story. It was a dissociative identity crisis full of delusions of grandeur and persecution. I thought that I was raised by wolves in the jungle until I was found by humans at the age of one. I was a hyper-intelligent baby who could talk at age one and ended up adopted by parents. I thought that my dad threw me off a deck when I was a baby and that I miraculously survived and that that incident was the cause of some of my physical afflictions I grew up with in real life. I thought that I was babysat by the singer Annie Clark when I was a kid and I heard her voice in my head. I thought she was sending me psychic signals to reunite with me after over fifteen years because a Native American tarot prophecy had married us together by metaphysical and spiritual law in a fourway marriage that also included the supermodel Cara Delevingne and Eva Green. I thought that my town was a pedophile sex trafficking cult and that Annie, the Native Americans, and I were in the process of busting the ring. I thought that my great-grandmother who died in 2015 was still alive and I heard her voice in the form of "psychic signals" in my head as well. At the end of it all, I smashed my laptop and lost my phone and didn't have any technology at my house. I only had contact with the outside world when I'd see my neighbors, walk to stores, or when family would come knocking at my door unable to contact me. I thought that mushrooms could bring people back from the dead and in general, I just ended up in a really deluded, warped reality with multitudes of conspiracies and an infinitude of layers. It was one of the best experiences of my life, but it was brutal to come down from. I ended up in the psych ward on August 16, 2023, because I thought I was mutating into a crab and I was given antipsychotics for a while. I had grown attached enough to the world and my romantic connection with the voice of Annie Clark that I was hearing in my head through "psychic signals" that I had dark night of the soul vibes for months. 

[bambi]

On 02/02/2024 at 9:06 PM, Breakingthewall said:

With 5meo, reality becomes an infinite black well. At any given moment, you are standing in your room and infinity is in front of you, like a monstrous black hole. You must open yourself to it and merge with it, man, you have to have balls, because the black hole is going to kill you, you are going to disappear in it. then you do it and it is revealed, that's it, you have dissolved into reality. Your laugh is total, that's it, it's perfect

Sounds intense, and like Enlgihtenment, did this happen to you, did the after-effects last?

[Breakingthewall]

4 hours ago, bambi said:

Sounds intense, and like Enlgihtenment, did this happen to you, did the after-effects last?

The states of dissolution that occur with psychedelics are temporary, but they create a fracture that can be widened if that is your true will. a total dissolution with 5 meo at a given time is no longer impressive or relevant, what is sought is to be in a state of constant flow 24/7.

Psychedelics, by artificially breaking resistance, do two works. First, they weaken those previously immovable barriers, second, they give you a goal. You know where you want to go, although not really exactly since once the barriers return you don't know exactly what the state was like without them. There are very balanced people who do not need psychedelics, there are some in this forum, but the usual thing is that these people do not seek enlightenment. Enlightenment for me is the state of flow without fear, without contraction, without grip, in which reality is constantly revealed as what it is. Meditation is a must, all the barriers must be identified and dissolved . Psychedelic are a great tool, like many other things