Brandy Buck and Beer

[Buck Edwards]

I'm gravely ill. It's just what it is. I have nobody to blame but my self. 

[Buck Edwards]

I have been throwing up since the last few hours. I don't know what I did that caused that. I have been suicidal too. The pain in my neck is excruciating. Just feel like life is no good when nothing works. 

 

[Devin]

1 hour ago, Buck Edwards said:

I'm gravely ill. It's just what it is. I have nobody to blame but my self. 

What's wrong man?

[Buck Edwards]

2 hours ago, Devin said:

What's wrong man?

Don't know what happened. Don't wanna share. Not at least right now. 

[Schizophonia]

On 24/01/2024 at 5:19 PM, Buck Edwards said:

A couple of drinks to chill me dear. 

I remember when I was a kid, my dad poured me a large tumbler of beer. It was an exciting moment. I was 7 years old. 

wtf

 

[Buck Edwards]

@Schizophonia I know right. Kinda fucked up drinking at that age. 

[Buck Edwards]

How does it matter what I think? 

[Buck Edwards]

I think I had too much to drink the past couple of days. It drove me bonkers. I lost my emotional balance and went over the edge. 

[Buck Edwards]

Finding it hard to see beauty in life. 

[Buck Edwards]

I want some stage red in my life. 

[Buck Edwards]

I need to start healing myself. 

[Buck Edwards]

The latest set of events have been a bit scary. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

I can't blame anyone. 

[Buck Edwards]

There are limitations in human life.. I should learn to integrate these limits 

 

 

 

[Buck Edwards]

It's someone's birthday in my neighbors. 

They are screaming. 

 

 

I wanna get laid with you. On a hot Sunday afternoon. I imagined having sex with you. It was passionate. I couldn't let go. Our bodies just rubbing against each other. I was just sleepy after that. I couldn't open my eyes. My eyes were fast shut. And I could faintly see your outline. I was drifting. Some random romantic song was playing in the background. I was dog tired. We shared a hot passionate kiss. I was so tired. It was pure bliss. My heart beats for you. I could barely keep my eyes open. Then we went for round 3 and 4. It lasted so long. Hours. We can't get enough of each other. 

I wish we could have sex everyday. Like that. Just wrapped around each other. I want to marry you and spend every waking minute of my life with you for the rest of my life. 

 

Edited January 27 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

There is no heart left to break (anymore). 

 

[Buck Edwards]

Forget about body, you even took your heart back. What did I get? 

[Buck Edwards]

Secondary Soul. Pain body. 

Earth 

 

Earth = you have to be wiser. Just don't plan anything. Your strength matters. 

Me = I feel weak, dehydrated and depressed. It's an uphill battle. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

What upsets me? 

 

 

 

 

 

Conrad Tulpa

 

 

 

[Buck Edwards]

No idea why I suddenly wanted to drink beer.