Art is God's Love Language (An Awakening Experience)

[Phoenix Garfield]

There's this girl, a really good friend and confidante of mine. I had this secret obsessive crush on her for a long while. She's the type of girl that's easy to fall for. I kept to myself because realistically it wouldn't ever work out and I'm just her not type I guess. I'm unemployed, I'm still trying to find a footing life and she likes partners that are working I guess. I totally understand and respect that.

Yesterday we met and catched up for drinks and she discussed how she met her new boyfriend her at her workplace. She said that he just kept flirting with her, she was initially confused to why but than she realized her love language was words. The two other since have blossomed into a early relationship and she seems very happy with herself, especially after through some shit with her ex boyfriend during Christmas.

Before we left, I gave her a Christmas present I made for her: a simple portrait drawing of her with the caption "Sometimes the simplest answers are right Infront of you", a token to our friendship. Her face lit up and absolutely loved it. Art has always been something I'm actually quite decent at and within the portrait I hidden a little confession of my unrequited love for her: a tiny "143" (I Love You) on her earlobe. I don't really have the courage to tell her personally and to be honest, I felt it was a fitting release and conclusion to my romantic attraction towards her. The reason why we could never be was that her love language was words, mine was art. I pick up that pen, lift it into the air and I let it go, a toast to our friendship today and hopefully for many years to come.

When I went home last night, I discovered the Truth of God's Love in a way... It bought tears to my eyes, touched my heart and inflamed my heart and everything clear and naked. You don't think anymore, your awareness seems your heart and it feels like someone gently stroking my chest. Absolutely everything is interconnected, there is no separation.

AT. ALL.

 

One way of I how I tapped into this was realizing that God's Love Language was also art... On a level where all doubt, all questions and all mysteries are soothed... You see, you clearly see it... Absolute Beauty... Absolute Love... Devine Compassion and Selflessness that knows no bounds... A Deep Desire and Warmth no human can possibly give...

جنة

عيسى

الله

Me and God have language of our own. Once you the Truth, it your to keep. I don't want to share of how I got into this state or what the specifics things I've realized and seen. It's so beautiful, so intimate and so personal... And precious.

But I'll tell you one thing.

Don't search for God in idols, icons, religions, the occult or even on actualized.org. It'll get you no where. Really if you want to find God, empty your mind of any thoughts, ideas or preconceived notions of what or who it is. Empty where even the box is thrown out. Now fill it up with your own awareness, fill it completely until nothing can fit in anymore. Now focus your own awareness with your awareness, I slowly breathe.

Once you've found within yourself, you'll find it everywhere you go, and in everyone you meet.

And if you're bold enough and relinquish the need for God to personally reveal itself and denounce all false idols, something very, very, very special might to your awareness that will stick with you for the rest of time.

Put it this way: I will never feel suicidal ever again.

I am Love and Loved on a level words cannot describe.