Consciousness Regress? [Help me navigate Intuitions]

[Keryo Koffa]

I'm sure Leo and others talked about this, but until recently it was just a belief for me, a mere possibility, but now I've had this experiential intuition. That I and this experience is a subset of all possible experience within a grand infinite consciousness that I am always connected to by existing as a form within it.

That all of reality is equally a construct. That if I made a video game, that character wouldn't be conscious, but if I did a good job, they'd be behaviorally indistinguishable from any human. But they'd only be conscious because I'd play the game and imagine an identity that I'd experience by pretending I am them.

So reality and behavior and reductionism and neurons are a configuration of experience, but I'm always the consciousness behind the experience that makes it possible to exist at all and emotions and love and desire are all projections on top of the forms that I interpret as homeostatic emotional organisms.

And I identify as an ego which is a subset of experience which exists within consciousness, which gives me a lens. So consciousness pretends to be ego. And if I change my diet, exercise, sleep, or take psychedelics, I change the mind state and experience that difference instead.

But I don't know how I create all this, I am a character within the game after all, trying to jailbreak I guess. But I put myself here on purpose?

What I really wonder about, is the nature of the consciousness that made this dimension. Was it an intent or a chance? Did it have emotions and ideas before it became me or just learned them through my lens, a part of itself that was an arbitrary unexplored dualistic configuration within infinity. But my grandest question is whether it remembers this experience in the grand scheme, all experiences really. This is a bias of knowing and navigating that I project desirably upon it. In the grand scheme, its kind of arbitrary to remember infinite arbitrariness. But its something I would want. To evolve. Because the I that I happen to be is evolving. I know if I write a story, I'll remember the characters and their feelings but will also forget, but it will be a part of my grander subconscious. Is it the same with the source? 

[Inliytened1]

@Keryo Koffa its jus

16 minutes ago, Keryo Koffa said:

 

What I really wonder about, is the nature of the consciousness that made this dimension. Was it an intent or a chance?  

 It is prior to that duality.  The question that asks that is already it.  Its the same question as asking where did reality come from?  It came from itself.  It is Infinite.  You can't grasp it with logic because logic is held within Infinity.  But you are infinity. 

Edited January 4, 2024 by Inliytened1