Should Statements

[Christian]

I have watched Leo's video on his rant about morality. In that video, he says that you should drop your should statements. 

Some of my should statements are that I should meditate every day, I should be fit and have a life purpose. Now, do not get me wrong, there is nothing wrong valueing these things, but I feel almost obsessed to achieve these things  because I have these should statements. So when I don't meditate, I feel guilty, and when I don't go to the gym, I beat myself up. 

It's making me more neurotic. So should I stop meditating then? The only way for me to motivate myself to meditate is if I force myself. Meditation is boring and sometimes painful and I feel like it feels true for me to say: I shouldn't meditate. Should I then be congruent to this statement and take a break from meditation? 

Want to hear what you guys think about this..

[YaNanNallari]

Your mind wants to twist you into different shoulds and shouldn'ts as you can see. It likes extremes when it's trying to scare you and certainty overall as far as I know. I think when you're in a really good state you'll be able to see that life is about seeing what you want to do the most. I might want to see my girlfriend a lot but I still want to do my homework more. It's not about having to do anything on a philosophical level. This is what happened to me at least. Knowing that in the back of my head it is also easier to see "work" as just things that happen. I'd recommend watching this video as well, because you seem to have not the best self-esteem which is fine and your personal situation.

Keep working on that stuff and push through the confusion. It will be worth it once it starts clicking into place. When thinking about these try to stay aware of your thoughts since your ego might try to twist and turn your thoughts into different directions. You'll get better at recognizing that also.