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My lack of musical progress bothers me. But, I also maybe don’t see the value in taking it seriously because of survival. This has caused me a lot of pain over the years. 
 

I have some good songs and will keep writing but it can’t be a main focus. I hate that about reality more than anything. My life is a trap and a curse in that regard. Makes no sense to me.

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I’m pursuing Qigong which I enjoy. 
 

But, my dream was to be a musician. I got derailed after COVID and time has really passed. 
 

I frankly wasn’t healthy enough 5 years ago mentally, and I lacked a lot of maturity. I’m only 29 and I have some good songs. 
 

Lately  I perform in public I often turn heads and had people sharing videos of me last time I played in the small town which felt good. I impacted some lives. 
 

hmmm, I think I just gotta keep being sober, work on Qigong biz, and keep developing my skills. I am buying recording equipment in the fall and will put out music then. It’ll probably be imperfect. Probably ignored. But, fuck it. I know I have it in me to make great songs. I just know it. 
 

I’ve impacted people with my music but… frankly my neuroticism really dicked me in the past. Marijuana i think and my own immaturity. Well, that’s life. 
 

I am becoming a more mature, grounded person. Music… oh music… 

 

I hate feeling trapped. And. As I age I either give up and make peace with This massive loss or I just keep creating and figure out a way to do something with it even if it’s just on the side. But. I need to find success in Qigong first I think. 
 

man. Life sucks in some ways. 
 

I hate that I’ll probably die without experiencing a career like Arcadefire. For that reason….

If God is so smart well what the fuck? Make me a musician dumbass. Some making this so fucking hard. 
 

I know that’s immature. But, I immature ego mind thinks… if I am God what the absolute fuck if I can’t live my dream. 
 

My story is still being written….

Edited March 18 by Thought Art

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Onwarrrd

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Posting limitations! Mixed feelings but fair. 

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I’ll heal and mature any sort of wounds in my soul. And from this a wise mature man will stand!

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Forum relapse. Gotta go. 
 

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This song has some of my favorite song lyrics of all time

"Yes, to dance beneath the diamond sky with one hand waving free
Silhouetted by the sea, circled by the circus sands
With all memory and fate driven deep beneath the waves
Let me forget about today until tomorrow"

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I am not giving up on being successful

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I’ve been gaining some new clarity into myself. There is a lot of healing and growing taking place. 
 

My songs are coming along well. Slowly. They can be recorded in fall. 
 

My little music vlog is poor quality. But, I may make another this week and improve on the quality though… admittedly I have a sizeable Qigong project.

Edited April 4 by Thought Art

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