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I’m really starting to look like my dad

i morn the loss of my good looks

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Recently I’ve been thinking about giving up life purpose and instead focusing on starting a family and being a provider. Maybe there is a better life in mediocrity. When I see my body aging I feel like my opportunity for music is over, and I wonder if I am attractive enough to be a Qigong teacher if I am balding.

 

Maybe, normal life is all I can achieve… 

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Ain’t no use asking why ma

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My main goals right now are financial, relationships, career. 

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My self image seems to fluctuate 

I need to stop imaging myself as a bald old man with no sexual value. I’m 28… not 65

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thoughts and states come and go

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Hawaaa

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My thoughts fluctuate. I embrace ambiguity 

Enjoying learning 

Edited March 12 by Thought Art

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We live in an era in the west where there are so many unconscious political retards, conspiracy theorists, uneducated, emotionally reactive, brain dead social media warriors and their moronic emotionally reactive followers that…

Great leaders will struggle greatly

but conman will prevail 

Unfortunately to be lead by a great leader you can’t be a retard 

Great men will be seen as conman

and conman as great leaders 

In this storm can you make out what is clear? 
 

Can you trust your own mind and the bullshit you swim in?

 

Edited March 14 by Thought Art

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Wonder what I will discover.

I dunno about all of Taoist cosmology. I don’t claim to believe it all, and I have direct experience of little. However, as I practice Qigong more and more the energy claims are very true. Had a very powerful Qi ball going today. And the results of my qigong practice are great.

I teach and practice Qigong on a regular basis. But, it’s a very deep subject that has a lot of challenges to understand it as a westerner. 

Edited March 15 by Thought Art

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Going to push myself to go to a club tonight. I don’t live in a huge city but I can at least begin some approaches. I know if I don’t I will settle for some girl and feel like I limited myself.

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Problem with clubs is I hate staying up past 930

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I wrote a song called Mountain Tops. I think it’s one of my best songs. It’s very chill and simple. 
 

here are the lyrics. 

 

(“I’ve Walked on mountain tops

Seen clouds fallen for each other 

Ive walked on mountain tops,

been looking for a lover 

been looking for love

and I’ve seen people go

people goin’ round the mountain 

now ain’t that something 

 

and I’ve got a big surprise!!! 
All these tears of love in my eyes!

They won’t stay dry! 
 

wo oh oh oh oohhhhh”) x2

I will record this, and release it as a single as a way of fulfilling my artistic desires instead of suppressing them all the time. 

The guitar melody is just awesome too. It’s laid back but ecstatic. 
 

Will share recording soon. 
 

The lyrics are good, they fit nicely together. 

Edited March 15 by Thought Art

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I stand by this song, and I will continue to write more. 

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Pu’erh in a mandarine 

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I am building a solid life

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I am building a sober life. Not that I will never do drugs but I don’t wanna be craving/ addicted. I admit have never really solved my maraijauna use addiction. I find myself using it when I get off work, and using it on weekends. It has held me back. 
 

It’s not a hardcore addiction. But, I easily crave it, which means I’m addicted. 
 

I stopped smoking, but vape it. I enjoy it, but want to use it sparingly. 
 

I am limiting myself to buying CBD vape, because it enjoy the vaping and very slight high. 
 

I feel embarrassed about how long I’ve used marijuana. But, I can move forward.

 

Other than that, I live a pretty sober and increasing conscious loving, constructive life. 
 

The marijuana does help also. It’s not all bad, but I know seeing red eyes in the mirror it’s lowering my self esteem. Plus, makes me socially awkward. It has to stop. 
 

cbd seems a nice change and then using nothing .

 

There isn’t many things I do that I don’t like. But, being high after work… I know my values are higher than that haha. 
 

Marijuana is an easy, lazy way to deal with stress. I know better. But, I also enjoy the act of vaping. Not sure.

Edited March 16 by Thought Art