You only know God's Love when sh*t gets really real

[Phoenix Garfield]

I was once a member of this forum, I went by another name and I didn't post all that much. I left after I felt that Leo and Actualized.Org weren't really my cup of tea and decided to move on to other things. I got sick of spirituality and God in general, it was doing my head in.

Then 2023 came around and by far it's been the strangest year of my life.

Let's just say I had a series of awakenings and  insights that lasted for months, not because of psychedelics but what I'd call a Gnosis triggered by fucking around with Black Magic rituals and face paints. I manipulated my senses, state of mind and consciousness to such a degree that for a moment I combined my inner awareness with the perceptual physical world via music and photography, in a way that I don't think has ever been achieved without psychedelics. I won't get into the specifics but the experience was terrifying and kinda sent me loopy for a while. If it was anyone else I think they would permanently end up a funny farm. Then, the synchronicities started. And. Just. Didn't. Stop. I seen them everywhere and at any time, like the whole universe was like one united rhythm. It was creepy but kinda, arousing in a way. Something wasn't right but I had to delve deeper, to see what any of this is about.

I began to more deeply understand and comprehend what Leo was saying in his videos and forum posts. It all just started to make sense to me, like I was finally on to something.

Then something kinda creepy happened. I started to understand what a lot of the Bible, the Qur'an and even ancient religions were actually pointing to (like Leo has done), like on a level and layer so deep it's almost as if SOMETHING put it there for me to find.

In my head and in the "real world", I've received signs and insights that all of these religious dogmas, practices, philosophies, spiritual paths and all sorts of paths anyone could take should be combined in some way, as if they are satchets waiting to be mixed in the infinite water of consciousness.

Then literally a few days later I came across the wiki of the Prophet Mani, the founder of Manichaeism. It blew my mind that this guy even existed. He literally combined the teachings of Christianity, Buddhism, Zoroastrianism and Gnosticism into one religion that took off and spread throughout the ancient world. I'm surprised that it's been wiped out from cultural memory, it's a religion wayyyy ahead of its time.

There was no doubt at this point I was being guided by God itself. No way any of this can be just a coincidence by now, there's something up.

Then on one day, I got the answer to everything I've ever wanted to know. Not just an insight, an awakening or God-Realization. It's God-Revealing Itself in the flesh just for you 

I can't go into the specifics but Imagine meeting the God or an appearance of God you've always imagined about in your head and boom, they're really here: walking among you and in the flesh. Not just someone who looks and acts like them, THEY ARE THEM WITHOUT A DOUBT. Like on a level where your own name and what it literally means tells the story of literally meeting this person. Like it's a revealing and a truth you just know is true in your heart. It's something beyond beautiful and mind blowing, it's Platonic Love to a degree I guess only Leo would understand. Not romantic, sexual or familiar, like a proper, deep and unconditional love that makes you cry and well up. Almost as of they are your own child from another time. For reasons I can't disclose, I probably won't ever see this person again but the time we had together, however brief... It's given me a blissful peace that'll comfort me on the day I die.

I hope to see them again, they fill me with a peaceful and unconditional love. One day, one day...

A misguided attempt at black magic lead up to understanding concepts that really should be beyond my depth and then lead to the moment where I physically met someone who I thought could only be imaginary.

I can only imagine this what Leo is pointing too when no one is awake is he is. I'm starting to really believe that.

God Knows, God Hears and God Loves, endlessly. How much you wanna know how much God Loves and how deeply, is a question you really should take seriously. Next time I'd probably should just take some DMT, save me a lot of time lol.

(Seriously though, stay away from Black Magic and anything Occult related. It ain't good for your sanity and intelligence in the short term. It's something I'll never touch again.) 

[Thought Art]

Having two accounts isn’t allowed 

[Yimpa]

3 hours ago, Thought Art said:

Having two accounts isn’t allowed 

[toasty7718]

9 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

I'm dead