The fruits of my long suffering: a monologue to accept reality and find purpose

[slimper]

You are God.

But how can you be God? Well, what else are you? Surely, you're not just your ego. Your ego is a concept, it's not actually real. Say you'd become an amnesiac. Would you die? No, your ego would. You'd still be there. So what are you?

Where did you come from? What made you? What made your parents? What made Earth? What made the solar system? What made the Milky Way? What made the universe?

Did you ever stop to think for a second how can anything be? Why is there something rather than nothing? It wasn't just the Big Bang. What was before it? What can be before the most overwhelming explosion to exist? What would there be to explode? Nothing. Yet here you are.

Have you ever seen something beautiful? Have you ever had fun? Or have you ever felt love? Try to remember what you felt during these experiences. Now, imagine having a choice. You either stay in your infinite formlessness or create this reality to feel love again. What would you choose? Nothingness or love?

The fact that you're here means that you've chosen love. You've chosen to create this reality. You've chosen to forget you're God to delude yourself into creating others when there was only You all along.

Shouldn't I be all-powerful? To create this reality, you have to fool yourself into believing you're your finite form. Your finite form is not all-powerful, but You are.

What will happen when I die? You can't die. Only your ego can. You will simply change your form.

Isn't it lonely? Infinite love isn't lonely, it's infinitely together.

What's the point? Love. Find the things you love and live for them. You've got this chance to do something rather than nothing, so it's a good idea to use it.

What is love? Love is everything you see, even the things you hate. God is love. You are love.

But why is there so much suffering? Suffering is a product of the mind. A stone isn't suffering when it's thrown in the pond. But you're different from stone. You have a picture in your mind of how things should be. If a picture in your mind isn't equal to reality, you suffer. What's worse, even if it is equal to reality, you still suffer, because it won't stay the same forever. Change is the only constant of life. Accepting that and accepting reality as it is will stop the suffering. It's also key to true happiness. Live and laugh.

But why is there evil? Well, what is evil? Something that harms you? Is a tigress evil for killing the gazelle and feeding her cubs? Or is the gazelle evil for running away from the tigress and forcing the cubs to die from hunger? Someone's evil is another's love. There's no evil. There's only love.

Then what is goodness? Goodness is everything you see. It's equal to love. To love is to give things attention. It's to be conscious of things, and to care for them, and to protect them from harm, and to make them feel loved. It's not easy, but it's worth it.

What should I do next time life happens to me? Try to accept it. Then think about what you'd like to create for your life. Then take the steps to make it happen.

Where do I find the strength to go on? Stop your suffering and accept reality as it is. Let pain go through you. Accept that creating goodness takes effort. Heal your heart, heal your body. If all you feel is sorrow and depression, try getting angry. Anger is stronger than sadness. Then, once you've powered through the worst, which is taking the first step towards doing what matters to you, work on getting more and more energy. At some point, you won't need anger anymore and will be able to transform it into laughter. Smile and appreciate the love you have, which is feeling your body, breathing, eating food, and maybe something else you enjoy doing. Love is worth living for.

[Breakingthewall]

🤔I don't believe that story, I mean, I would say that things are not like that. But of course, maybe you are right, you never know.

I'd say you are not god who deceives himself into feeling love, since there is no option. reality cannot not be, not manifest. 

There is no god creating a video game, there is infinite reality being in its infinite cycle from separation to unity. You are the whole and everything you see is also the whole. You are not alone because what has no limit cannot be alone, it is not one, it is not a self, it is the abyss that exists, incomprehensible and unfathomable, that rotates in its infinite cycles. You do not limit yourself like a game, but reality operates like this, it disintegrates and then tends to unity.

Edited December 13, 2023 by Breakingthewall

[slimper]

God doesn't deceive itself into feeling love. God is love. God is deceiving itself to see otherness to explore form and love infinitely.

[Princess Arabia]

I love this post. Thank you

 

[Thought Art]

@Princess Arabia np