Self Love

[Spiritual Warrior]

Self Love Entry #1

All of this pick up stuff and dating aspirations has gotten me to go down the path of self love. This is a necessary path if I am going to be able to express myself fully and authentically around women and be the best version of myself for them. 

Right now, I am not taking a hiatus from dating. According to the book The War of Art, you should not take breaks from things. Yes I do need to decompress and shift my mindset, but a break is not what's needed, it more of like a pendulum swinging back towards the other side. 

I opened myself up towards love, but I opened up too much. I was too invested and head over heels in love with people that I couldn't see straight. I was unhinged, doing wild things, seeking approval and validation constantly. 

After some mistakes with women, I have realized that I want to swing the pendulum back the other way and not care at all about people's perceptions of me and to be completely non needy from approval of others, especially women. 

This is what brings me down the path of self love. In order to not need anything from other people, to be completely independent of their approval or of their love for me, I will need to be able to give myself the love.

Edited December 1, 2023 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Self Love Entry #2

On a more masculine note, self love also embodies getting what you want. If you genuinely want something then you have to understand that you have every right to go and get that things, you deserve it, you deserve anything and everything that you want in this life. 

You can apply the principle Thick Face, Black Heart here:

"Thick face is a shield. A thick-faced person has the ability to put self-doubt aside. They refuse to accept the limitations that others put on them or the limitations we impose on ourselves. Black heart is a spear. It will place you beyond human manipulation, beyond the petty standards of human judgement." 

This will allow yourself to go after what you want without caring what other people think of you. Thick Face Black Heart. 

[Spiritual Warrior]

 

This song about self love is an absolute masterpiece. 

There are some juicy, relatable lines in this. 

 

Here are some of my favorites:

 

Half of my brain was totally afraid she'd hate me, never want to see me again

Half of my brain was equally afraid she'd like me, want to be my friend

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I am learning to love

I am learning to let myself be loved

How did I miss this lesson when I was young?

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Be gentle with me

I might not be ready

[Spiritual Warrior]

Listen to this and apply it to yourself. 

 

[Spiritual Warrior]

 

My mom can't feed me, my boyfriend beats me
I have sex for money, the hood don't love me
The cops wanna kill me, this nonsense built me
And I got noooo place to gooo
They bomb my village, they call us killers
Took me off they welfare, can't afford they health care
My teacher won't teach me, my master beats me
And it huuurts meee soooul

 

Yes, life is hard, but its all love, its all beautiful.

 

Edited December 7, 2023 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

 

If you are what you say you are, a superstar

Then have no fear, the camera's here

And the microphones

And they wanna know-oh-oh-oh, yeah

 

This song speaks to me because yeah sure, we all want to be superstars, but what is the cost of putting yourself out there? Now there is a spotlight on you, people are watching, and they expect more and more and more from you... This is scary stuff... Be careful what you wish for... And if you really want to be a superstar, be prepared to surrender yourself to love because thats the only thing that you can do. 

 

Edited December 7, 2023 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

 

Self love, he don't love himself, tryna love me

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Oh my, shes a long way from suburban towns

Long way, really long way from suburbia

 

Edited December 7, 2023 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

I had a breakthrough last night. When I was driving home from the salsa club, at one point, a thought popped into my head, "I was being a bitch." 

I was immediately triggered and felt emotional. I said out loud "stop talking to yourself like that," and not in a scolding way, but in a loving and compassionate way, as if I care about this character that I am, as if I actually want to love him,  as if I want what's best for him, I want him to have love and be loved

"I was being a bitch" has been a constant thought running through my head for years. A vision comes along with it of me failing to do something or being fearful. At the time, I didn't know that it was even possible to recondition my thoughts into ones that are more uplifting and empowering. 

Edited December 15, 2023 by Spiritual Warrior