Lbj Journey

[LBJ23]

I will start the first week with an 20 minute meditation habit tomorrow. Then I see what thoughts come up. Then I will increase the 2-4 weeks out of 30 minutes per day. I notice which thoughts come up.

[LBJ23]

Day 1:

- Thought at my depression and on my cry last year

- anxiety that my girlfriend does not answer and that i have to eat alone with my friend

- fear that i don´t hold the 20min meditation session trough

- pain in the chest and in the stomach

- piano lesson from childhood with my sister

- Thought on personal development coach which laught during meditation session

- Ex-friend of mine verbal abused me

- Humiliation from friends who make jokes on me

- Fear loosing my girlfriend

- Fear that my girlfriend cheat on me

- Fear that my girlfriend cheat on me with a friend of mine

- Nervousness/ playing with my hair

- Cutting damage

- I sensed my butt on the pillow

- noise from a plane

- Thought that i am being hungry

- Listlessness to shower

- silence/ hearing the alarm

- My mother bring out the garbage and work

 

[LBJ23]

I failed completly in my first try. I`ve been not meditating at all. Let´s try it tomorrow again. I start with 20 minutes per day. 

[LBJ23]

Now I live for 3 weeks in a new town and there I have started to meditate. At the beginning I had there no new friends, no Internet access and no other employment. There I had to spend time with myself alone and now, finally, therefore, I have started to meditate every day a little bit. I have to fight  with depressive phases and with fear of people, but i make progress from day to day. In the new town I make just a medical rehabilitation to become healthy again. My aim is to study psychology.

Edited June 3, 2017 by LBJ23