2 questions about solipsism

[De Sade]

On 30/11/2023 at 6:29 AM, Signs and Symbols said:

Everyone here who is saying that I should drop it as a belief - I want it to be true, and I suspect it is true, that's why I'm interested.  On top of that, Leo has said that it is true, and friends of mine have told me it was true under the influence.  So it's not something that brings me misery.  I think it sounds like paradise

Drop it as a belief but become conscious of it. Im trying to become conscious of it but it seems God doesnt want me to wake up now,since i still imagine me myself talking to others on real life and the internet and all of that,also in my head. Maybe i just like drama.

Now you say you think its a paradise but when the tiem come it will hit with desperation since you will know that you are the only conscious person in existence,and that you cant talk to others about solipsism,they cant even hear you talking.