For fun just ideas and thoughts from a few years ago to now of my journey.

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It's that easy to cultivate your own you can buy everything online these days and it makes it so much easier. You only need a spore print or a spore syringe to inoculate your agar or I prefer a spawn bag Pre-sterilised RYE mushroom grain bag.        You only need coco coir for your bulk substrate but that's up to you. Those are Psilocybe cubensis she is cultivating! Sometimes you can flush 2 to 3 even 4 times. And in the end, it is a lot of fun cultivating your own. And there is nothing like fresh mushrooms; you know exactly what goes into them.

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Part 7

This is when things started to loop out and talk about OCD to the max I started talking to all my friends telepathically all I had to do was think of them in my mind and we would connect and they would be going how is this even possible how are you doing this. And we can not see these alien ships over our houses of course you can not I said they have cloaking technology and can not be seen. Funny how the mind keeps piecing things together. I am still lost in this delusion. One of my friends I could not stop saying his name and when I did he would go who is this who are you is this my own mind that keeps saying my name how is this possible I must be going mad this went on for an hour I could not stop this I started to laugh my head off. The mushroom people told me that the trillion years old ship had arrived and it was the biggest ship out of all of them and now 22.000 ships were flopping over my house. The mushrooms also said they were coming with my fiance and were landing in this bushland which was near my house and they would come and get me. So I waited still stuck in a loop. I get another message from the mushroom people saying that the oldest aliens want to take me away and see how God's consciousness ticks and they were going to put me in a stasis field so I could not go into God mode and dissect me. I went great they said all the other alien ships were going to stand by me. The mushrooms had landed and the whole party had been destroyed by the trillion-year-old aliens along with my fiance there was nothing they could do even though 22.000 ships could not beat the trillion-year-old race was just too powerful and I was left on my own. I remember feeling this dread come over me and the sadness of the loss of my fiance for the second time. Now this trillion-year-old race was contacting me saying we are on our way to get you and there is nothing you can do and no way of escaping. That helpless feeling rushed over me again and so did the fear all I could do was wait for them to take me away and be experimented on. In my mind, I thought for such an advanced race it should be beyond all of this and be a peaceful race. So I waited and I could see a light coming up to the front door. I thought this must be them this is the end.

Low doses of cubes! when you are at cruising speed! In the end, we all pay for doing a lot of psychedelics either mentally and physically or both. And yes sober is king!

 

Edited February 25 by Jehovah increases

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Forever my beautiful Angel.

 

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Thank you!

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I have been studying this for a while there is something to this and I was skeptical but this blows my mind!

 

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I will add this from my own experiences some of my trip reports.

This is when I first started experimenting with psychedelics I started about two years ago 2020. This is somewhat of what I wrote back then. I Inoculated my own with a spore syringe I cultivated my own fungi Colonization, Cultivation has four key phases: Inoculation, Colonization, Fruiting, and Harvesting. I also connected to either my consciousness or I was communicating through some sort of telepathy to another consciousness. It felt as though my whole body started to vibrate waves of gleeful ecstatic love of such warmth that started from my feet all the way up to my head. It's almost as though we connected at such a deep level of harmonized awareness that it kind of felt like two minds melded into one and like a euphoric mind orgasm. Or it was more like metaphysical love.

It's so hard to expound or expand on it. I have never felt that before on 4-HO-DMT then again I have never taken that much before. So the first night I took 6g and the second night 15g of golden teacher while inebriated. I have taken more than 15 grams since then about two years later that's another story.

And four months prior to that I took low doses of the McKennaii b+ 1g to 2g up to 5g four 2 to 3 times a week. As well as micro-dosing 3 times probably 0.15g 0.30g 0.50g somewhere in those ranges in the same weeks for about six

months, and yes you do build up a tolerance to psilocybin, such that it requires a much higher dose each time. Until it has no effect at all you need to take a week or two weeks off of 4-HO-DMT. But those four months are another story. And preceding this well it would have been when I was 18 to 19 years old and didn't really feel too much when I was on them back then and I probably tried them5 times in those two years. Anyway, I don't like to use the word souls maybe my consciousness became aware of another conscious mind and somehow we interfaced and exchanged knowledge and love perhaps it was my own. consciousness or my own Godhead I became one with and I was communicating with.

It's like or feels like one is wrapped in a warm blanket of infinite love.

And this 4 years ago

I asked Infinite Intelligence a few questions and this was one of them. How could you ever know that only you exist? and that there aren't other versions of yourself. And how you may be wrong or just hide even deeper. Because you could never know what is outside of you? And what if you had already split yourself into infinite selves before and because you could still be dreaming even in that high state that only you exist and don't know that you divided yourself into infinite selves and only believe you exist and you did this by your own design. So there is this dream now and when you are in a higher state of consciousness you are still in a dream I hope this isn't an infinite dream regression. And infinity would make infinite versions of itself forever and ever. Because this is what I would do I would make infinite copies of myself each with their own individual mind and therefore infinite diversity. And each one dreaming it is the only one. So you kept hiding in dreams of even deeper dreams. Dreams within dreams. This could quite literally mean that there are infinite states of awakening. or we have already been doing this for billions of years? Infinite mind fragmenting itself into infinite sub-minds that believe they are separate and each is their own God and are in their own infinite universe. Then each sub-infinite mind dreams itself to be finite. And never knowing that they are infinite parts of more infinite parts of an even greater infinite mind until they all awaken and keep awakening to higher and higher levels of consciousness until they come together through love as one and realize they were always the same mind. And this process of infinite fragmenting and then reunification has been going on forever. Every fragment externalizes new thoughts and ideas An infinite self-perpetuating mind of unlimited imagination and infinite diversity of infinite perspectives that transcends the totality of itself by its infinite individuality facets.

 

I also realized every time I have 6 g of cubes maybe even 5 g  it's always the same outcome I always wake up as God.

I am not going fully into everything that happened this is just some of what I experienced in 2020. It was the second night of taking golden teachers the night before I had an ego death and a total loss of my identity. The second night I got drunk tripled the dose and started phasing in and out of this reality to some one-dimensional plane of existence like a really bright white square and all I could hear in my mind was the origin point. It felt as though my mind was twisted inside out I remember going this is fascinating and at the same time going this can't be good perhaps drinking was a bad idea. I don't recall this ever happening before. I have actually drunk since then on psilocybin and had no problems at all but that's me they know or should I say they are me or my imagination. I had actually stopped drinking for three years but the night before blew my mind so much that I started again I did not have any pot which I wish I had at the time. The room started spinning and kept spinning. Then I heard in my mind you're waking up too fast. Then I passed out and hit the floor and my head pretty hard. I still have the scars from that experience i believe I was out for 3-4 hours, and Then I started to wake as I was waking up I remembered how many times I dreamed this dream and that I was God and everything became crystalized and I knew who the fungi really are I got very angry with them they said God is pist they where so sorry they had to knock me out. Yep, the fungi knocked God out. Then I forgave them at this point all time had stopped well it never existed anyway and I knew I was the only one in existence. My mind was still processing everything and I was still in shock I was going this can not be happening, this can not be real. I must be in a drug-induced psychosis. This is impossible I don't believe this OMFG. Even though I knew I was God from studying Terence McKenna Alan Watts, RamDass Neville Goddard, and Leo. There is an overwhelming profound mind-blowing difference between just knowing you actually having direct experience of being God. The other thing I felt was You have only ever been chasing yourself all this time playing hide and seek until you catch yourself. God Loves playing games with itself waking up and finding love again and realizing it was always its own self the whole time. Then I got on the computer and it was all different there was just my name and my brother's name on our Facebook account and to log in again the choice was to go back into the dream or leave. And I chose to stay in the dream and I chose Love. There is a lot more to this but I am not going to put all of it in. My second time was much more in-depth and very clear. I am not going to say why but I was in a very angry mood I told them you had better not play games and you better not F with me just take me to god mode and not with all the twisted stuff mushrooms like to take you the long way around I guess you could call it the scenic Twisted root. Just take me straight there and I just sat and listen to music on my computer and 40- 50 minutes later It's like a switch gets turned on and you immediately become God and you have a smile on your face from ear to ear. The adrenalin and high are so profound they can last for weeks It's like you have been an actor in a movie all your life playing you as you and you and you do not know who you truly are. You were playing your character so well and got lost in that role then suddenly the lights came on and it was break time for the actors. But in this role that you play depending on how old you are 20, 30,40 years old whatever age you are when you awake is how long you have been acting so to speak, or Dreaming but this is all just background stories that you invented to make the dream more real. And it does feel like you have been asleep for such a long time and all that time. You know all this is a dream everything becomes clear. You're still you except you are also God playing the finite you. Once I had an ego death I never had it again all the other times since then when I awoke as God and of course, the ego is also imaginary. I retained all my memories of myself. What most people don't understand you as the human you know within this dream is God and has always been God the whole time. You wanted to forget who you really are and dream as a so-called human and you can get so lost in the dream so deeply that you could literally never know and just keep dreaming. And you don't split from the human avatar whatever you wish to call it you sitting here as God and then your human self over there no. The other thing is as soon as you awake you connect to Infinite intelligence and it is almost like it's so happy to see you again and you are showered in infinite love so much Love your whole body feels as though it vibrating Love as well and sending it back it's hard to explain I don't really have a reference point to work from. More like a metaphysical mind whole body orgasm. And you are downloaded with so much information that you can hardly remember any of it once you come back to the imaginary finite you. And no it is not human in any sense of the word but nor are you. And you do get insights for months and months later and even when I had a few beers or some pot it can blast you off again. You don't need as much as before. I actually stopped drinking coffee for six. months. And you communicate the whole time with your infinite mind. I am not going into that you will have to discover it for yourself. Then again did any of this really happen? Or did I imagine the whole thing It's funny what the imagination can come up with. Only you can find out for yourself through direct experience yes you alone. You can't just know it you have to become it.

 

Some of what I wrote here was from stuff I had written from my trips 3 to 4 years ago and some recent ones. These are my personal views and yours may be very different. When connected to the infinite mind or should I say you when you become it you always were it. I never thought this would be human and it was not and nor are you. Yes from a limited human perspective, it will be very alien to you. 

If you increase your consciousness high enough you won't be human anymore or expect the infinite to have any human qualities. You are beyond being human but you know this because you become infinitely self-aware of who you truly are and it is scary when you awake as your true self. And you will most probably deny it for a time and believe you have gone into a drug-induced psychosis.

 When you experience alien consciousness you're just seeing it from another perspective or expression of a higher state of consciousness. All these aspects are your mind. I guess you could say you are starting from a higher state of awareness of consciousness. So if a so-called alien or a higher much more evolved being wanted to experience let's say a human perspective. It might find it fascinating experience.                                                                                                             

 It would be limited and somewhat dumbed down for that though. Remember you are not just a giant mind you are an infinite mind that loves to imagine anything it wants. You are unlimited in what you can imagine. And you can also limit yourself to what you can imagine. So there are quite literally infinite states of consciousness.                                                 

If you imagine there are higher states of awakening then there will be. If you imagine becoming or seeing through an alien mind on some distant planet in another highly advanced dimension then this will become your reality. Consciousness is existence itself is conscious of its own consciousness is infinite perspectives. Consciousness is not just integrating information it is creating information. And is infinite self-creativity.                                                               

Consciousness defines its own self can reflect itself to know itself, and can copy itself. All is an infinite mind.   Is everything and nothing at the same time is real and unreal is a dream of infinite dreams and pure imagination and infinite magic. Meaning it can create anything it wants infinity so. Life and death are imaginary just like this dream. well, you were never born to begin with so you can never die. And no you are not dead because this implies birth to begin with.                                                                                                                                                                                                         

You just are what is and what isn't take away ideas, concepts, and notions, and you are left with nothing but something. Ego is God and also imaginary without it this dream would not work. How smart is infinite intelligence try and contemplate this everything is your creation maths, science quantum physics cosmology ideas religions wars linguistics NDE's psychodelics all diversity I could go on forever. And to create everything and for it to work seamlessly or give the illusion of randomness. Randomness or a chaotic system can not create intelligence. Only intelligence can create randomness or the illusion of randomness. It's a very believable background story and it has to be for this to work and for an unlimited mind, it's as easy as pie.                                                                                                                 

You gave meaning to meaning. You created the idea of an idea and evolution and all the background stories which well there never were any of these so-called humans they are all imaginary no human ever really created anything. You created it all yes you me I am you. I did this to trick myself into believing that others exist. You created this for the dream to work. You can work the rest out in other words only you can experience it for yourself only you can take this journey because there really only is you.                                                                                                                                                       

How deep are you willing to go? Try and lose most of your attachments for a few months even the idea of you as this so-called human that he or she was born on this planet Earth and evolved from apes out of slime and slop and that there are others. I lost most of all my attachments for a while and in a way you do die or should I say what you held as a belief for all this time.                                                                                                                                                                                     

Maybe call it your identity of whom you have been building all your life. Loss of identity or identity loss. I don't like the term ego death. This has only happened to me once on my second trip it was like having amnesia until I picked all my pieces up which took about 40 minutes to recover my identity.                                                                                                   

After that, I always was me or retained my identity to some degree. even when all my humanity had gone God is always God. I remember one time I went through what one could call insanity I experienced depression and all types of mental illnesses when I was on high doses of psychedelics and you have to go with it and let go. I got to see and feel what it was like from that point of view.                                                                                                                                                                   

So I had a new appreciation and understanding and respect of what it is like to live from that state of consciousness. Even what it is like to be a female for a few hours was one of the most beautiful experiences. Through all this, I always chose Love over everything, and I always will.                                                                                                                                 

You see Love is the very fabric of existence that is not built into existence it is the very nature the essence the very foundation of what you are is infinite Love. I chose to go back into the dream. And yes, you have to ground yourself and surround yourself with what made you human, to begin with, and It is not easy though once you awaken it is hard to undo it.                                                                                                                                                                                                     

The choice is yours and you will not even be in the same place and once you go beyond a certain point there is no going back to the same reality. And you may or more than likely lose your sanity for a time. You may be made aware of certain things that will conflict with your morals and ethics and I am not talking about solipsism. Although solipsism was still a  bit of a shock I overcame it a few years ago. I would still be cautious but that is me. There is one thing I never mentioned on the biggest trips I had I didn't come back unscathed. I had well-developed OCD but the worst type I would not wish it upon anyone it took me a few days to work out what I had. The funny thing is I never had any symptoms of it and no mental illness runs in our family I have done a lot of drugs all my life. Even the doctor could not believe it. So late in the game, I went on SSRI for the past year and in that time I have taken a 7-gram dose of mushrooms well on SSRIs. It didn't seem to affect me. I would never recommend any of you do this ever. Although psilocybin has been shown to effectively treat depression in some cases and a number of other mental health conditions, there are some antidepressant medications that could have dangerous or undesirable interactions with the substance.                                                                                                                       

It has taken me about a year and a half to come back and I am only now starting to ground myself. But then again I am imagining all this. Not so easy is it once you have broken through your own illusions your own traps within traps your own games and your imaginary mind. All this time you have only been chasing me you are me I am you.

Some of what I wrote here was from stuff I had written from my trips 3 to 4 years ago and some recent ones. These are my personal views and yours may be very different. When connected to the infinite mind or should I say you when you become it you always were it. I never thought this would be human and it was not and nor are you. Yes from a limited human perspective, it will be very alien to you. If you increase your consciousness high enough you won't be human anymore or expect the infinite to have any human qualities. You are so beyond being human but you know this because you become infinitely self-aware of who you truly are and it is scary when you awake as your true self. And you will most probably deny it for a time and believe you have gone into a drug-induced psychosis. When you experience alien consciousness you're just seeing it from another perspective or expression of a higher state of consciousness. All these aspects are your mind. I guess you could say you are starting from a higher state of awareness of consciousness. So if a so-called alien or a higher much more evolved being wanted to experience let's say a human perspective. It might find it fascinating experience. It would be limited and somewhat dumbed down for that though. Remember you are not just a giant mind you are an infinite mind that loves to imagine anything it wants. You are unlimited in what you can imagine. And you can also limit yourself to what you can imagine. So there are quite literally infinite states of consciousness. If you imagine there are higher states of awakings then there will be. If you imagine becoming or seeing through an alien mind on some distant planet in another highly advanced dimension then this will become your reality. Consciousness is existence itself is conscious of its own consciousness is infinite perspectives. Consciousness is not just integrating information it is creating information. And is infinite self-creativity. Consciousness defines its own self can reflect itself to know itself can copy itself. All is an infinite mind. Is everything and nothing at the same time is real and unreal is a dream of infinite dreams and pure imagination and infinite magic. Meaning it can create anything it wants infinity so. Life and death are imaginary just like this dream. well, you were never born to begin with so you can never die. And no you are not dead because this implies birth to begin with. You just are what is and what isn't take away ideas, concepts, and notions, and you are left with nothing but something. Ego is God and also imaginary without it this dream would not work. How smart is infinite intelligence try and contemplate this everything is your creation maths, science quantum physics cosmology ideas religions wars linguistics  NDE's psychodelics all diversity I could go on forever. You gave meaning to meaning. You created the idea of an idea and evolution and all the background stories which well there never were any of these so-called humans they are all imaginary no human ever really created anything. You created it all yes you me I am you. I did this to trick myself into believing that others exist. You created this for the dream to work. You can work the rest out in other words only you can experience it for yourself only you can take this journey because there really only is you. How deep are you willing to go? Try and lose most of your attachments for a few months even the idea of you as this so-called human that he or she was born on this planet Earth and evolved from apes out of slime and slop and that there are others. I lost most of all my attachments for a while and in a way you do die or should I say what you held as a belief for all this time. Maybe call it your identity of whom you have been building all your life. Loss of identity or identity loss. I don't like the term ego death. This has only happened to me once on my second trip it was like having amnesia until I picked all my pieces up which took about 40 minutes to recover my identity. After that, I always was me or retained my identity to some degree. even when all my humanity had gone God is always God. I remember one time I went through what one could call insanity I experienced depression and all types of mental illnesses when I was on high doses of psychedelics and you just have to go with it and let go. I got to see and feel what it was like from that point of view. So I had a new appreciation and understanding and respect of what it is like to live from that state of consciousness. Even what it is like to be a female for a few hours was one of the most beautiful experiences. Through all this, I always chose Love over everything, and I always will. You see Love is the very fabric of existence that is not built into existence it is the very nature the essence the very foundation of what you are is infinite Love. I chose to go back into the dream. And yes, you have to ground yourself and surround yourself with what made you human, to begin with, and It is not easy though once you awaken it is hard to undo it. The choice is yours and you will not even be in the same place and once you go beyond a certain point there is no going back to the same reality. And you may or more than likely lose your sanity for a time. You may be made aware of certain things that will conflict with you and I am not talking about solipsism but that can also conflict with you and it can go either way. I would be cautious but that is me. It has taken me a few years to come back and I am only now starting to ground myself. But then again I am imagining all this. Not so easy is it once you have broken through your own illusions your own traps within traps your own games and your imaginary mind and self-delusions and or your own self-deceptions.  All this time you have only been chasing me you are me I am you

 

When you do high enough doses Of mushrooms or whatever DMT-malt or what you have, this is exactly what God did it called all Godheads back into a singularity and unless your aviator was conscious enough you would never know. This is what it is like. So every God's head is infused into one, which is why god is One. You are all infinite aspects of God. Meaning you are all me. but God gave all of you your own identities forever.  I remember when I was coming down which took about an hour this popped out of nowhere Absolute Magnitude it was almost like an imprint a record of my experience. Other YouTube music has also popped up whilst tripping, which I hold very dear to me, such as We Plants Are Happy Plants - Underneath The Form.

 

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You are right

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Yoy found GOD

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Yoy found me

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iS IT MY TIME TO GO

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AND THIS COMES OUT THE BLUE

 

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This is another song that sprung up on one of my trips. It is like an impression or a picture a snapshot of my trip. Funny how it's called Memories.

 

And this one came out of nowhere when I was on one of my biggest trips. Gaze speaks for itself. God looking back at God, I remember the big planet was spinning around for at least 5 days.

This is what it looks like when you are on a high dose of mushrooms and you are awake with closed and open-eye visuals. EMPI-Hypnosis.

When you awaken as God there is no God beside or outside of you or in front of you or separate from you.  You have been God all along and yes you instantly connect to infinite Intelligence which is you all along. This no-self stuff is nonsense. You become infinite intelligence. You communicate at hyper-infinite speed and you know everything I mean everything and it is so fluent and effortlessly. You still retain yourself but recognize who you are, which is not human. But that is the character for which you are playing at this time. And yes you can go so deep that you forget that you were ever a human to begin with.

 

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A new modality of multifaceted, asymmetrical thinking is needed.

 

Sometimes, you have to fail in order to succeed.

 

I started making my own yogurt with the el rudai microbe, let's see if it lives up to all the hype surrounding it.

part 8

I should have called this my non-psychodelic experience before this happened, it was at 8 months before my last trip of 7 grams of Golden Teacher.

I sat and waited once again about ten minutes in too it I got another message from this trillion-year-old race saying that the landing party with my fiancee had been taken on to their ship and yes they are an advanced and peaceful race and would never harm another I went this is doing my head wtf is going one extreme to another. So they told me they were off to this so-called lost planet that was a billion years old and had proof that Jesus was there first before he came to Earth. I went, and this is becoming extraordinarily perplexing. So I was communicating with my fiancée as she was going to the planet with the trillion-year-old race of aliens. This is when reality started to break down. I kept on talking to her and this other guy from 2098, they finally reached this planet, but there was no evidence supporting the fact that Jesus had ever been there. So they were on their way back to Earth. I started mind speaking with the guy who sent the billion-year-old race to attack my mushroom friends. So we both started to wonder what was really going on, are we in some kind of simulation of sorts? By this time, I had lost contact with the mushrooms, the guy from 2098, and my fiancée. It was as though the walls of this fantasy were collapsing. like we were in a game, and we were the last two left so we both started to formulate the reason for everything that had happened and conversed for over an hour and for some unknown reason that Pleiadian girl came back and started to butt in and was causing trouble saying I should not be drinking alcohol and the other person was telling her the fck off let him drink after what we all went through. She drifted away, and for some reason, I heard the mushroom again telling me to smoke some cannabis, so I did. By this time, it was just me and the guy, with whom we became good friends by the end of it all and person lives in Las Vegas don't ask me why he was in my delusional state I remember he said if it is a simulation, there must be a code to end it, so I started saying end simulation stuff like that, but nothing seemed to have an impact on it. The cannabis got me tired, so I went and lay down. Now I could not hear any of them, and there was no more mind-speak from anyone. As I lay in bed, after two hours, it dawned on me that my fiancée was not coming back, and I was in some sort of delusional or psychotic state for the past 5 days. And somehow the cannabis broke me out of it, maybe? or it just wore off I finally went to sleep and woke up the next morning. And was back to normal. It broke my heart again that my fiancée was not coming back.

There is quite a bit I left out of this experience, I still don't know if it was caused by a UTI, plus the oxy cotton with alcohol withdrawals, or some sort of side effect from all the psychedelics I did before or maybe from the loss of my fiancée some sort of mental break. Any, it lasted five days and was as real as this now. I know I may have to see a psychologist on the death of my fiancée from the trauma and PTSD. My problem is I tend to hold things in and tough it out, and I don't always talk about my problems.

There was another time when I was coming down from a drug, and I started to get this high-frequency buzzing sound in my head, it was like the only thing I could say was that I going insane. And it was becoming worse. I put up with it for a few hours, and I could not take any more, so I ended up in the hospital, where I was given diazepam and an antipsychotic, and it went away. The only way I can describe this humming buzzing sound is that it was an insane state. And  I have been in some crazy states when on psychedelics, but this was worse.

 

 

Edited Tuesday at 04:13 AM by Jehovah increases

[Jehovah increases]

I will be microdosing again. I doubt I will ever do 20 to 15 grams of mushrooms ever again. My last trip was 7 grams, and it was about 8 months before my delusional experience. I  may do 6 to 7 grams again, maybe in the near future. I may also write more about this experience, the bits I left out. I do seem to be more open than I used to be. I still want to try Ayahuasca and 5-MeO-DMT or 5-MeO-MALT, one of these days.

Ever since I was young, I have had ADHD I managed to overcome it on my own with the help of Dextroamphetamine and my routine I  created. I  have not had it for about 10 years now. The drug I am on now is Fluoxetine, which, when I had one of my biggest trips, for some reason, manifested OCD as an after-effect of the worst kind. The weird thing was that there is no mental illness that runs in my family, but you can only go so far back with your Family Lineage. It could also be some traumatic event that I suppressed when I was younger. I am much better now, I want to get off the Fluoxetine eventually. I am also on Zyprexa Olanzapine, which was because, well, I believe it was caused by the keto OMAD diet that I went on for nine months without a break,  I was having 0 carbs and walking every day for two hrs, and lost about 29kg. I am back on the keto diet, but I am going to have more carbs this time, you're allowed to have up to 50 grams, and I will have a break every 3 months. I started getting internal dialog in my mind, it was bizarre kind like hearing another voice in my head, but my voice. Anyway, I will be off  Olanzapine soon, and I don't hear the voice anymore. What caused it, I don't know. It could have been caused by other factors, like my fiancée's passing a nervous breakdown from the extreme stress and that experience I had, which both caused PTSD in a way and trauma, some kind of mental break I still have not dealt with her loss.  One of the things about Antipsychotics make you feel numb. The dose I am on is 10mg per tab. Apart from that, non-psychedelic experience, I have never had external auditory voices or olfactory, visionary hallucinations in my life, not really even on psychedelics.

And there was that time I did 2 pretty big doses, in two days straight, and on the second night I got inebriated and just started putting handfuls of golden teacher in my mouth and ended up knocking myself out still have the scars from that night and I also banged the back of my head hard, was out for hours.I have done some other silly thing on psychedelics.

My non-psychodelic experience, one way to describe it would be reminiscent of Datura. I have never tried it, but I have studied people's experiences with it. I would not go near, but then again, I am curious, though but I think not.

Then again, it could also be  acute late-onset schizophrenia. 

You have been hallucinating ever since you imagined yourself as a human, but a very stable and structured hallucination indeed, held together perfectly.

 

In my world born from the dark All the lights don't know my name But the land sees through my heart And the oceans understand me How I wish I could be found See what lies beyond this world In the end I'm left alone, alone, alone again Don't give up, we will make it through Hold your ground, I'll be next to you Close your eyes, let your heart lead you It's our time, show them what we're made of From your world made from the light I can see you looking in All around I feel your warmth I have never been so happy When you stand close next to me Everything seems to be clear Both our worlds begin to be complete, complete again Don't give up, we will make it through Hold your ground, I'll be next to you Close your eyes, let your heart lead you It's our time, show them what we're made of Don't give up, we will make it through Hold your ground, I'll be next to you Close your eyes, let your heart lead you It's our time, show them what we're made of Don't give up, we will make it through Hold your ground, I'll be next to you Close your eyes, let your heart lead you It's our time, show them what we're made of.

 

Edited Thursday at 04:19 AM by Jehovah increases

[Jehovah increases]

On 4/8/2025 at 0:29 PM, Jehovah increases said:

 

Drug-related deaths

In the first five years after the reforms, drug deaths dropped dramatically. They rose slightly in the following years, before returning to 2005 levels in 2011, with only 10 drug overdose deaths recorded in that year. Since 2011, drug deaths have risen again but remain below 2001 levels (when there were 76 recorded deaths).10

In 2001, Portuguese drug death rates were very similar to the EU average. While rates fell in Portugal following reform, they increased across the rest of Europe in the same timeframe. From 2011 onwards, both Portugal and the rest of the EU have trended similarly, rising until 2015/6; however, the gap between the two remains considerably wider than it was pre-reform. In real terms, drug death rates in Portugal remain some of the lowest in the EU: 6 deaths per million among people aged 15-64, compared to the EU average of 23.7 per million (2019). They are practically incomparable to the 315 deaths per million aged 15-64 experienced in Scotland, which is over 50 times higher than the Portuguese rates.11

Crime

The move away from criminalising and imprisoning people who use drugs has led to a dramatic change in the profile of the prison population. In 2001, over 40% of the sentenced Portuguese prison population were held for drug offences, considerably above the European average, and 70% of reported crime was associated with drugs.13 While the European average has gradually risen over the past twenty years (from 14 to 18%), the proportion of people sentenced for drug offences in Portuguese prisons has fallen dramatically to 15.7% in 2019 — now below the European average.14

Most of this decline occurred in the first decade following decriminalisation and the establishment of a health-led approach. Since 2010, the actual number of people in prison for drug offences has remained relatively steady, but a rise in overall prison numbers means the proportion of people serving sentences for drug offences has continued to fall.15

It has also been suggested that reform has led to a reduction in drug seizures.16 However, drug seizure data is difficult to analyse so any conclusions should be treated with caution: reduced seizures may be a result of fewer drugs on the market or they may simply be down to reduced police activity.

Drug use

Levels of drug use in Portugal have been consistently below the European average over the past twenty years. This is particularly the case among younger people: Portugal has some of the lowest usage rates in Europe among those between the ages of 15-34.17

In the first five years after drug policy reform, use of illegal drugs rose slightly among the general population but fell again in the following five years. Use among 15-24 year olds fell throughout the decade, and among the general population was lower in 2012 than in 2001.

However, consumption trends in Portugal have been keenly disputed and often misrepresented. While drug use during individual lifetimes among the general population appeared to increase in the decade following reform, use within the past 12 months fell between 2001 and 2012. Both the World Health Organization and the United Nations Office on Drugs and Crime consider use in the past 12 months (recent drug use) or within the past month (current drug use) as better indicators of trends among the general population.18

Since 2012, past-year use appears to have risen, particularly among those over the age of 25.20 This is, however, based on relatively limited data from SICAD (the Portuguese drug dependence agency) and only one further dataset — in 2016. In any event, Portugal continues to retain one of the lowest rates of drug use in Europe.

Consumption figures alone tell us relatively little about the level of harm experienced through drug use. A rise in drug use among individuals using only occasionally, and recreationally, is unlikely to lead to large rises in deaths or other harms. For this reason, measuring levels of high-risk drug use, particularly among people who inject drugs, is important.21 As of 2015, there were an estimated 33,290 ‘high risk’ opioid users in Portugal.22 Per 100,000 population, this is above the European average.23 However, it is lower than when decriminalisation was established in 2001.24 Researchers have also noted a fall in the proportion of individuals referred to Dissuasion Commissions found to be dependent on drugs, suggesting a general reduction in problematic drug use — though this may, in part, be linked to police not repeatedly referring the same individuals if they are already in treatment.25 In 2018, 90% of individual cases were found to not demonstrate problematic use.26

Drug policy reform in Portugal was combined with a change in approach to drug education, moving away from abstinence-based ‘just say no’ campaigns.27 Drug use in schoolchildren has been consistently below the European average for the past twenty years. Rates in 2019 were roughly the same as 2001. In line with European trends, as reported by the European school survey on alcohol and drugs (ESPAD), they have shown a gradual, consistent decline in the last 10 years. ESPAD also reports that perceived availability of drugs among children in Portugal is lower than the European average.28

HIV transmission

Drug policy reform in Portugal included wide-reaching needle and syringe programmes aimed at reducing risk of infection among people who inject drugs. In 2001, Portugal had 1,287 new HIV diagnoses attributed to injecting drug use.30 It had over 50% of all new HIV diagnoses attributed to injecting drug use in the EU in 2001 and 2002 despite having just 2% of the EU population. In 2019, with only 16 new diagnoses, it only had 1.68% of the EU total.

While HIV diagnoses have gone down across Europe in this period, the trend in Portugal is much stronger. Owing to its previously extremely high levels of transmission, Portugal retains some of the highest HIV prevalence rates in Western Europe among people who inject drugs (at 13%).31 However, this still marks a significant downturn since the millennium, when half of all new HIV diagnoses were attributed to injecting drug use.32 AIDS diagnoses in people infected through injecting drug use have also fallen dramatically over the past twenty years: from 518 in 2000 to just 13 in 2019. Again, this is a stronger downward trend than the EU average: in 2000 Portugal had 15% of new EU diagnoses; in 2019, it had less than 5%.33

Hepatitis B and C

Hepatitis C prevalence among people who inject drugs has been estimated as the highest in Western Europe and is a result of multiple epidemics in the late 20th century linked in part to unsafe drug injecting practices up to the 1990s.34 Prevalence of hepatitis B (which, unlike hepatitis C, is commonly spread through means other than blood-to-blood contact) is below the Western European average.35 The EMCDDA reports that the number of new yearly hepatitis B and C reports have fallen consistently over the past twenty years.36

Treatment and harm reduction provision

A key feature of the new Portuguese drug policy, alongside decriminalisation, was the expansion of treatment services. Between 2000-2009, outpatient treatment units increased from 50 to 79.37 However, the number of individuals in treatment for drugs steadily decreased between 2009-2018, which may be linked to significant reductions in health and welfare budgets following the impact of the global financial crisis.38 Following the absorption of the country’s independent Institute for Drugs and Drug Addiction into the National Health Service (which itself saw budget cuts of 10% in 2012) health spending continued to fall until 2015 — to under 9% of GDP, from roughly 9.9% in 2009.39

A reduction in absolute treatment numbers may also be related to reduced levels of problematic drug use, as discussed above. A study comparing patients entering treatment for heroin dependence pre- and post-reform found an overall decrease between 1992 and 2013, which the authors suggest could be linked to a fall in the number of newly dependent individuals.41 EMCDDA data also indicate a changing profile of individuals entering drug treatment, with admissions for opioids steadily falling over the past ten years but admissions for cannabis going steadily up.42

According to the latest available yearly data there are an estimated 17,246 individuals in opioid substitution treatment in Portugal.43 Using this data, combined with EMCDDA estimates on levels of problematic opioid use in European countries, it can be estimated that over half of people with problematic opioid use in Portugal are in some form of opioid substitution treatment, slightly above the European average.44

Harm reduction has also been a central tenet of the Portuguese drug policy reforms. The latest available data indicate that 1.3 million syringes are being distributed per year. This is significantly down since 2003, when the figure was at 2.6 million, but is still one of the highest in the EU.45 Portugal also has an estimated 2,137 needle and syringe programmes in operation, roughly three times the number of Spain — despite being a quarter of the size in population.46 Nonetheless, some advocates have been ‘frustrated by what they see as stagnation and inaction since decriminalisation came into effect’, particularly in relation to overdose prevention centres, naloxone provision, and needle and syringe programmes in prison.47 Portugal did finally open its first mobile overdose prevention centres, in Lisbon and Porto, in 2019.48 Other harm reduction

Social costs

A 2015 study found that the social costs of drug use in Portugal fell 12% between 2000 and 2004, and 18% by 2010. While the former figure was largely driven by the reduction in drug-related deaths, the latter was linked to a ‘significant reduction’ in costs associated with criminal proceedings for drug offences and lost income of individuals imprisoned for these offences.

Harm reduction has been one of the cornerstones of the Portuguese approach

Conclusion

Portugal has set a positive example for what can be done when drug policies prioritise health rather than criminalisation. At the turn of the century, Portugal was facing a crisis, including high levels of HIV infection among people who use drugs. Many impacts of reform were felt immediately: new HIV infections, drug deaths and the prison population all fell sharply within the first decade. The second decade saw slower improvement in key measures, as well as an upturn in drug deaths. However, many of these factors need to be put into context. Drug policy is still only one variable interacting with a complex mix of social, economic, cultural and political factors, and cuts to wider health provision in that period will have played a part in this. Nevertheless, Portugal is in a much better position than it was in 2001 and recorded drug use and drug deaths as a proportion of the general population are both well below the European average.

Portugal’s experience is a lesson in what can be achieved when policy innovation and political will are aligned in response to a crisis, and hopefully it will continue to evolve and lead on this issue. However, while ending the criminalisation of people who use drugs is hugely important both in its own right, in reducing stigma and as an enabler of any effective public health response, it only addresses part of the harms caused by prohibition.52 With innovation taking place elsewhere, including regulated cannabis sales in North America and safe supply of opioids and other drugs in Canada, there is also room for Portuguese drug policy to learn from and build upon other reform efforts, and continue in its global leadership role.

 I believe that all drugs should not be legalized, and the laws need to be greatly reduced, and I think the health-led approach to possessing drugs for personal use should be treated as an administrative offence, meaning it is no longer punishable by imprisonment and does not result in a criminal record and associated stigma. Drugs are, however, still confiscated, and possession may result in administrative penalties such as fines or community service. The people need to be more educated. In most cases, addictions stem from some sort of early trauma in life.

 

 

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Wish the guy was still making vids. Vagrant Holiday!

https://youtu.be/2xnI1hZdltw?si=VDJaNrGDsKL94CY0

https://youtu.be/7eFgRxfTZPI?si=poy_e9FuAFikz7L1

https://youtu.be/tnuZaB8cGvc?si=GCUmEWyeKZ2t1o-0

https://youtu.be/qr5jQpO8JZw?si=5x9RVeyDHCyGWNq7

What I meant to say was that I still suffer from ADHD, but I stopped taking the drug Dextroamphetamine around ten years ago. I got on it in my early 20s.

 

 

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