Autism is Self focus

[Chives99]

What MDMA has taught me if you want to be happy you must give up on yourself. The autistic brain is too focused on what this means for me, how can i manage things for me, what can i get out of it for me. Autism Isn't narcissism thats where you think you're better than everyone else, but theres  a much stronger self focus. The autistic brain is heavily dependent on logic and feels the need to control everything which creates massive anxiety because you cannot predict in a million years what everyone is going to or what they're thinking. 

 

Letting go of yourself means you have to trust that everything is going to work out alright, trust yourself and others the same way you trust your heart to keep on beating , trust your intuition its backed by millennia of evolution it kept you alive before you learnt how to speak, your needs weren't met as a baby you cried , you then learnt how to walk and talk  and never doubted yourself  in the process  but along the way we've lost this ability to trust we have to figure everything out and know everything before we can proceed, but it never works because the amount of information that is needed for any specific situation is infinite.

 

To summarise allow yourself to make mistakes, don't try to understand it although a bit of self reflection is still useful, trusting your mind makes you more intuned to whats going on in the moment , the world won't end if you get something wrong. when you get out of your mind you follow whats actually happen not what you think is happening. thinking is not reality.  

[nhoktinvt]

i understand you have stress and anxiety about what gonna happen if things dont happen like how you want it to happen, you'll be feeling guilt right ? is that the result of you successfully getting gaslighted and guilt tripping on ?

[Chives99]

47 minutes ago, nhoktinvt said:

i understand you have stress and anxiety about what gonna happen if things dont happen like how you want it to happen, you'll be feeling guilt right ? is that the result of you successfully getting gaslighted and guilt tripping on ?

it certainly feels like if I get something wrong socially or misundertand something than its all my fault

[nhoktinvt]

it is what it is, if you're right then you're right if you're wrong then you fix it right (if you can then great) if you can't that is because people are just not right for you right now, they're scared, they're close-minded whatever they simply live in another reality, they're controlled enslaved AND they'll also control and enslave you it's a fking pyramid an augmented cult wake up !

[flowboy]

It's not just autism that has the self-focus trait, it's also ADHD in my personal experience.

In the sense that, having ADHD, I'm missing a lot of information from the external world because my mind keeps dissociating.

It wants to turn inwards.

This represents as daydreaming, being unpresent, distracted, forgetting things, missing signals, not listening properly.

You could say the same about depression in many cases.

I believe that as people accumulate more unconscious trauma, they tend to be more "inward focused", as if their system knows that they have something inside to deal with, before they can be healthy and deal with external reality.

I've read an account of an autistic toddler who never cried.

Then the mother did something to teach him how to cry, and its autism got a lot better.

ADHD and autism are probably created while in the womb.

I mean, they say it's due to genetics, but that's crap afaic.

I guess I'll find out, because I'm about to do an extremely intense regression therapy retreat, which will allow me to remember how the quirks in my personality got formed.

[Chives99]

On 24/11/2023 at 2:43 PM, flowboy said:

It's not just autism that has the self-focus trait, it's also ADHD in my personal experience.

In the sense that, having ADHD, I'm missing a lot of information from the external world because my mind keeps dissociating.

It wants to turn inwards.

This represents as daydreaming, being unpresent, distracted, forgetting things, missing signals, not listening properly.

You could say the same about depression in many cases.

I believe that as people accumulate more unconscious trauma, they tend to be more "inward focused", as if their system knows that they have something inside to deal with, before they can be healthy and deal with external reality.

I've read an account of an autistic toddler who never cried.

Then the mother did something to teach him how to cry, and its autism got a lot better.

ADHD and autism are probably created while in the womb.

I mean, they say it's due to genetics, but that's crap afaic.

I guess I'll find out, because I'm about to do an extremely intense regression therapy retreat, which will allow me to remember how the quirks in my personality got formed.

The ultimate solution really is surrender, accept that you can do nothing wrong as it is gods will, even if you turn psychotic,

'to gain your life, you must loose your life'