God is terrifying

[TheGod]

I'm God and I'm terrified by myself. 

After having a plenty of break-trough experiences I think I basically have no clue what God exactly is. All I know by this point is that I'm the only conscious being in the universe and that I'm nothing. I also know that nothing that appears to be real is real. But of course it depends how you define what is real. Real and unreal is a duality and I think that the universe is paradoxically real and unreal at the same time. 

Also what freaks me out is my infinite nature. Have you really really experienced infinity? This is rather a terrifying experience. It feels so fucking radical guys! It's as though you become a fucking ghost. You don't feel your body because your true body is no-body. 

Have you tried talking to anyone when you are god? This is just insane guys, but I enjoy it so much! Every time when I do so it's mind blowing! I know that the person I talk to doesn't poses any kind of consciousness and every word that comes out of his/her mouth is my God's will. Every reaction, every movement. It's as though everyone is my marionette doing what I want "them" to do.  But of course it's not like I can will a girl with huge tits to sleep with me. That would be ego version of god. The real god doesn't actually care. It can imagine being an insecure guy who is humiliated by an attractive women.  Because God is a psychopath, sadist, masochist and maniac. And it really enjoys being the way it is. That's what is terrifying 

[Osaid]

If triangles had a God, they would give it 3 sides

If humans had a God, they would make it a terrifying psychopath, sadist, masochist, and maniac 😅

 

[TheGod]

7 minutes ago, Osaid said:

If triangles had a God, they would give it 3 sides

If humans had a God, they would make it a terrifying psychopath, sadist, masochist, and maniac 😅

 

Yep! These "horrible" things are just ways of God showing love for itself!

What a psycho being haha 

[UnbornTao]

You're talking about something else, not a direct consciousness.

You are already you and it is always freeing and joyful to grasp that.

Likely going through a state precipitated by your cosmology (and drugs).

Edited November 16, 2023 by UnbornTao

[TheGod]

3 minutes ago, UnbornTao said:

You're talking about something else, not a direct consciousness.

You are already you and it is always freeing and joyful for whatever reason to grasp that.

Likely going through a state precipitated by your cosmology.

Idk, when I'm in God state it is indeed joyful and beautiful but at the same time it's so profoundly terrifying. 

When I trip I always film myself in order for ego not to misinterpret the experience when I'm back to the form. 

I think I just don't feel comfortable with collapsing the game. No others means the end of the game. Period. 

So here I am playing again. I think God is addicted to its game as a gamer to his games. 

That's my direct experience. 

[UnbornTao]

4 minutes ago, TheGod said:

Idk, when I'm in God state it is indeed joyful and beautiful but at the same time it's so profoundly terrifying. 

When I trip I always film myself in order for ego not to misinterpret the experience when I'm back to the form. 

I think I just don't feel comfortable with collapsing the game. No others means the end of the game. Period. 

So here I am playing again. I think God is addicted to its game as a gamer to his games. 

That's my direct experience. 

Okay thanks for sharing.

What are you now for real? You might look into that.

Edited November 16, 2023 by UnbornTao

[Osaid]

9 minutes ago, TheGod said:

God is addicted to its game

Seems like it.

[TheGod]

21 minutes ago, Osaid said:

Seems like it.

Obviously, otherwise I wouldn't be on this forum imagining all of you guys  

[TheGod]

1 hour ago, UnbornTao said:

Okay thanks for sharing.

What are you now for real? You might look into that.

My now is I'm typing this and you're answering it from another city on the planet Earth. 

Complete delusion 

[Razard86]

2 hours ago, TheGod said:

I'm God and I'm terrified by myself. 

After having a plenty of break-trough experiences I think I basically have no clue what God exactly is. All I know by this point is that I'm the only conscious being in the universe and that I'm nothing. I also know that nothing that appears to be real is real. But of course it depends how you define what is real. Real and unreal is a duality and I think that the universe is paradoxically real and unreal at the same time. 

Also what freaks me out is my infinite nature. Have you really really experienced infinity? This is rather a terrifying experience. It feels so fucking radical guys! It's as though you become a fucking ghost. You don't feel your body because your true body is no-body. 

Have you tried talking to anyone when you are god? This is just insane guys, but I enjoy it so much! Every time when I do so it's mind blowing! I know that the person I talk to doesn't poses any kind of consciousness and every word that comes out of his/her mouth is my God's will. Every reaction, every movement. It's as though everyone is my marionette doing what I want "them" to do.  But of course it's not like I can will a girl with huge tits to sleep with me. That would be ego version of god. The real god doesn't actually care. It can imagine being an insecure guy who is humiliated by an attractive women.  Because God is a psychopath, sadist, masochist and maniac. And it really enjoys being the way it is. That's what is terrifying 

Sounds like a legit awakening. Congrats!!

[TheGod]

18 minutes ago, Razard86 said:

Sounds like a legit awakening. Congrats!!

[Breakingthewall]

For infinity to truly open, you have to disappear. The absolute total infinity will make you laugh with pure joy for 5 minutes. It is the source, pure existence. It is Everything and it is absolute freedom. Any slightest resistance is that the self is still there, judging, valuing and fearing.

[Javfly33]

5 hours ago, TheGod said:

Idk, when I'm in God state it is indeed joyful and beautiful but at the same time it's so profoundly terrifying. 

 

That can happen when you try to get your way into the heavens with pure force.

 

Edited November 16, 2023 by Javfly33

[Yimpa]

10 hours ago, Breakingthewall said:

For infinity to truly open, you have to disappear.

• There’s no you to begin with; no you to disappear.
   
•  Only you exist for eternity, so how could you ever disappear?

Both points will be contended for eons in the human domain. Hence, you must come to the direct realization yourself.

[Breakingthewall]

2 minutes ago, Yimpa said:

• There’s no you to begin with; no you to disappear.
   
•  Only you exist for eternity, so how could you ever disappear?

Both points will be contended for eons in the human domain. Hence, you must come to the direct realization yourself.

Dissolve the self, then you will realize what reality is. Infinity is not you, you are a creation of the reality. Ultimately, you are the bottomless existence, but it isn't a you, it's totally indefinite, impersonal.