What's the meaning of anything?

[Mileyofpink]

After learning more and more about spirituality (and I don't mean to say I know too much) one thing was clear that everything is oneness and essentially things, anything doesn't really matter. 

This has since a couple years or more been giving me a lot of anxiety as soon as I'm alone with myself and free from work or people. 

I think having a boyfriend (broke up 7 months ago, narcissistic 5 yr relationship) gave me a beautiful escape from this ", existents crisis." I had lost myself in him. But it's been a long time and I have changed a lot since then. From being very timid and pathetic to a person with some substance, some stand, some life, some honour. 

 

But there has been no distraction or escape and I have been facing this anxiety head on all the time now. It's making me lose ambition to an extent. I know I have to do things so I do things but I'm always wondering.. "what for?" 

 

 

[ted73104]

If you try to find meaning and purpose from an external source, that meaning would feel very limited and may even diminish very quickly because you're always trying to prove that meaning exists objectively. However objective meaning is very very hard to realize, some people even say objectively there is no meaning in life.

So you have to shift into another mode of thinking and create meaning for yourself. Even though there may not be any meaning in life, you could create any meaning or purpose for yourself. You just need to find the confidence to say I find this meaningful because I say so.

[Yimpa]

The greatest meaning can be found when you respond to life not because of what someone else instilled in you, but because you’re responding under your own will.

I’m not speaking of free will. It’s not merely as if I’m an individual who has independent freedom to make my own choices, but also, I am creating all of this, from scratch, as God.

[Yimpa]

Every other is also God.

[Salvijus]

Reading between the lines it sounds to me like this: you broke up with an old friend and life became meaningless (lol). And now you're searching for a way to bounce back and to feel alive and inspired again. 

First of all, I would say if you want your heart be light and free again. Heal the wounds and grudges you hold against your old friend. Your heart will never breathe with aliveness while you hold judgement and grievences about other people. Those things literally heart blockers.

I would recommend forgiving your old friend of everything that he did, and allowing the pain to work through the system in total vulnerability and nonresistence. When you can still love your old friend and let him go at the same time. Your heart will be healed and life won't look so bleak anymore:)

Also it is worth mentioning that our heart is full of aliveness when we follow our hearts deepest longings. Becomimg aware of what are the deepest longings in your heart and following them is what following your life's purpose is all about. That too is a way to get out of the sense that life is dull and boring.

In short. Forgive all grievences and judgements of others. Become aware and say yes to the deepest longings of your heart. Keep a close connection with the Devine wherever you go. Live a vibrant life full of meaning, beauty and holyness ❤️ 

Edited November 15, 2023 by Salvijus

[Vibroverse]

On 14.11.2023 at 2:09 AM, Mileyofpink said:

After learning more and more about spirituality (and I don't mean to say I know too much) one thing was clear that everything is oneness and essentially things, anything doesn't really matter. 

This has since a couple years or more been giving me a lot of anxiety as soon as I'm alone with myself and free from work or people. 

I think having a boyfriend (broke up 7 months ago, narcissistic 5 yr relationship) gave me a beautiful escape from this ", existents crisis." I had lost myself in him. But it's been a long time and I have changed a lot since then. From being very timid and pathetic to a person with some substance, some stand, some life, some honour. 

 

But there has been no distraction or escape and I have been facing this anxiety head on all the time now. It's making me lose ambition to an extent. I know I have to do things so I do things but I'm always wondering.. "what for?" 

 

 

Don't try to fix anything, don't try to figure out anything, because it is just a trap of mind. You think you can come to the "true" understanding by thinking your way through it, but it just doesn't work. You need to feel your way through it, you need to surrender, more and more, to your natural and effortless inner stillness your way through it. 

Because you just turn your life into a hell otherwise, feeling stuck and getting lost in a thought loop. And it is okay to get stuck in a thought loop if you become simply aware of it. I mean the problem is when you are in a thought loop that hurts you, and you are not even aware of it. 

 

Edited November 15, 2023 by Vibroverse

[not-a-faerie]

On 11/13/2023 at 6:09 PM, Mileyofpink said:

I know I have to do things so I do things but I'm always wondering.. "what for?" 

it's perfectly ok to care about fulfilling tasks, needs, pursuits, goals, what have you. To say that something has no meaning is not really a necessary insight to have. If you care about something, move forward in its pursuit. it doesn't matter if you do or do not. sit in torpor if it suits you. or, act regardless of whether or not it matters, simply for the experience of taking a step. They say to take things one step at a time, and in fact there is no other way about it. Accept yourself as you are. 

 

idk

 

I just think. what do I do? I fall into torpor. I hope to change this, but I myself can feel lost or unenthusiastic. I often find myself not caring about fulfilling tasks, needs, pursuits. I find myself daunted by imagining all that must be done to accomplish something my mind obsesses over. 

What meaning there is - is to accept oneself and remain conscious of what is. or not. it's up to you ( and myself as well)

[Razard86]

 

[Atb210201]

@Mileyofpink This world is the opposite of everything is meaningless

 

It actually is that everything is meaningful

 

Every little thing that we do have a meaning because it effects everything else around us because everything is connected 

 

Isn't it marvellous?

[Mileyofpink]

thank you, everyone, this was heartwarming