How can i deal with ego backlash ?

[De Sade]

Sometimes i feel that i have made progress,like getting glimpses of knowing that i am imagining everything that i see,and that i am everyone and everything. The posts of the people on the forum feels and becomes mine. Leos voice becomes my voice and so on. I can stay on that state for some time but then the mind start to create scenarios in my head to bring out the fake personality back,which makes me feel separeted,as if there was a distinction between me and others. I know that it is me who is doing that to myself,maybe i dont want to wake up now.

[VeganAwake]

It's not that everything is you including the different bodies and their conditioning!

Its that there isn't a real you or them inside the body between the eyes.

It's an illusion of self.

If there is still a someone claiming to be all of it, that is just the illusion of self...

There isn't a you & there isn't a them.

No separation in that sense 

Not because you are everything. 

But because you and them are not even real.

❤️ 

[Breakingthewall]

awakening is opening yourself to the unthinkable absolute total infinity that is reality. To do this you must let the self fall. It is what they call the door without a door, because the door is you, the same one who wants to go through the door. If it were easy it would be fantastic, but it isn't.

All that about others being you is completely irrelevant, they are perceptions of the self. awakening is opening, opening now a hole to the unfathomable infinity.

a hint: when you achieve it, your joy will be total, without a shadow of a doubt, perfect, never intuited before. This hole obviously closes, and that joy becomes clouded, but the more times you open it, the closer you will live to your true nature.

[Osaid]

All glimpses are simply just glimpses, not the actual thing. Don't hold on to them so much. They are distorted. When you have a glimpse of something, it is absolutely not the full picture, and you should let go of it. You can't truly have glimpses of such things because all glimpses are distorted and partial in some way, so they should not be given so much significance. They are speculation at best.

Ego backlash is really not a result of anything. It's made out of nothing, or in other words, "glimpses." If you achieved Truth, you stay there forever. If you aren't there, then your ego is making some shit up. You can't make further progress after realizing something, because you already realized it. It is possible to progressively memorize math equations forever, but it is not possible to realize what you are and then think "but maybe there is more of me to realize, maybe what I realized is inaccurate." That means you never actually understood what you are. Your ego backlash is not a result of any experience or any kind of truth, but the ego's perception of that.

Also, when you say parts of experience "become mine", that does not sound non-dual to me, it sounds like identity-shifting. Same goes for "I am imagining everything." Please be careful not to adopt pseudo-spiritual identities. All ideas and answers are truly useless in this work, all they can do is help guide you towards the work, but they wont do it for you.

Edited November 11, 2023 by Osaid