Exploring the Feminine

[Spiritual Warrior]

Date time .. I'll let you know how it goes

[Spiritual Warrior]

I went on a date with this girl last night. This was my first date in over 2 years. Going into it, I was surprisingly not that nervous. I went into the bowling alley, sat down at the bar and order a seltzer water with a lime.

The girl walks into the bowling alley and sits down next to me. She is cute but not beautiful. 

I ask her how the drive was, she says not bad.

We banter back and forth for a little while, then we go over to the front desk and say that we want to bowl, the wait is 25 minutes.

We walk around the venue for a bit, talking about boring topics.

Eventually we sit down again, and we start to talk about something interesting. I ask her if there are ever any crazy coincidences that happen in her life. She tells me a story and I listen.

Then I tell her a story of how I hadn't been pulled over in two years, then I quit my job and I get pulled over the day that I quit and then the following day after that. 

I told her that I perceive this as a sign from the universe that I am not yet done with this job, there is something else that I need to learn and take away from this. 

We talked some more about this and that was my favorite conversation of the night. 

Our lane opens up and we mosey on over to it. When we input our names onto the screen, it makes you take a picture of yourself making a silly face, a sad/ angry face, and a triumphant face. Damn... I hate taking pictures of myself.

We bowl for an hour and the fun meter never went above a 4. 

Then I walk her to her car, give her a hug, and that was that...

[Spiritual Warrior]

Affirmations for improved dating life:

I have sex with beautiful women

I attract beautiful women

Beautiful women are attracted to me

I approach beautiful women

I approach beautiful women with confidence

Women swoon over me

Women find me irresistible

I make women laugh with ease

I am a 10 / 10 

I am the best thing that will ever happen to a woman

Beautiful women love me 

I like to fuck beautiful women 

I can seduce any woman that I desire

Seduction comes easily and naturally to me

I always take my shot with women 

I am naturally flirtatious 

Women love me

I am the perfect man for a lady

I lead women with ease and confidence 

I am authentic to my true nature while I'm around women 

I love flirting and teasing beautiful women 

Beautiful women are all around me 

I am the man that every woman wants 

I have a sexual prowess that women find irresistable

Edited December 18, 2023 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

I want to move in order to improve my chances with women. Why is my whole family against this decision? 

Because they don't want me to change.

Why not? 

Because they are use to how I am and what I do 

Or... They don't want me to die 

[Spiritual Warrior]

I, myself does not want to die

But that is not truly me

That is my egoic structure

[Spiritual Warrior]

My egoic structure doesn't want to die

Why not? 

Because it feels like it will lose everything

Everything? What is everything? 

Everything is safety and nourishment and love. He feels like he will lose all of that if he dies, he feels like he will be left alone in the bitter cold, with nobody to hold him.

Why would he think that's what death is? The loss of all things.. How does that make sense? 

It makes sense because he is in the dream. Whatever is true will be revealed to him... In a matter of time. 

Thank you. 

Edited January 2 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

I wouldn't actually try to make you jealous. I would never actually do that. I don't know why I posted that, I didn't mean it. 

I don't want to hurt you.

And everyone that I date from here on out, I want to give you a genuine and fair shot, even if I feel as though I know where my life is headed. 

You deserve that, you all deserve that, and I have a lot more to work on so that I can be better for you.... The feminine. 

[Spiritual Warrior]

The truth is that the better that I get at dealing with the feminine and the more attention that I get from women, the more of an asshole I become.

This is partially because I am realizing that this "ass hole" persona, which I define as being more blunt and straight forward and assuming that everyone wants to fuck me, this shit works, it is getting me more attention from girls. 

Now what do I do with this information.. do I shy away from it and go back to my introverted, scared self that never put himself out there and had no success with women... No! Of fucking course not!

So where do we go from here? I feel as though a better balance should be made in my dealings with women.. it's as if I have shifted the pendulum too far to the masculine, ass hole side and I would like to balance it back out with my feminine, nurturing, caring side. You want to balance both sides out. 

And how are you going to do this? I don't know... I'm just going to be more aware of it and think about it as I go on in my life. This strategy has worked for me so far, shine awareness on a subject and the truth will be revealed.

Edited January 15 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

What is the devil?

The devil is selfishness

Selfishness is required for a human being to survive 

Edited January 19 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

I am the man of the place

I will keep everyone safe

That is my role

I'll take your life in the same respect as my own 

I will plant my seed into your belly 

Thus planting it into the earth 

Edited January 21 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

I had a date yesterday with a girl that I met at a speed dating event. I was definitely nervous. I told her to park in the back, but she wanted to park in the front. Duly noted, women want to feel comfortable, they want to feel as though they are safe to leave if they want. Front is better than back. 

She is a very cute girl, the way she does her eyelashes really makes her eyes pop. 

She was very passionate about her coffee drinking decision and talked to the barista for a few minutes before making up her mind lmao. This made me giggle. 

I got us a table in the front of the place, she was very intrigued by me, asking me lots of questions. I am leaned back, answering her questions with confidence and smiling when I find something amusing. 

Eventually, I get tired of talking and shift the conversation towards her, asking her about her travel desires, how passionate she is about her work, her living situation, etc. 

She is very sweet. 

After about an hour, I say that there's this pottery making place across the street that I've always wanted to bring a date to, she is interested, and we walk over to it. 

There is a 4 way stop sign with a cross walk in the middle. She is nervous about crossing the street, but I just start walking and she follows. I am the man, I will protect you. 

When we get to the pottery place, its packed with mostly kids and their parents. We take a walk around the outside of the room so that we can take a look at all of the pottery pieces that you can paint. The whole time, I am in the front, leading her around the room at my own pace. 

She really likes a painted margarita glass that she sees. I love how into this she is. Once we finish, she says that she'd rather come back another time so that she can have time to plan out what she wants to paint LMAO. I love this so much, that is adorable. 

And boom, the second date has been implanted into her head, I just need to text her and set it up. 

As we are walking back to our cars, she says that I have a really nice personality. This warms my heart, thank you. 

Edited January 21 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

I had another date with a different girl last night. I have known her for a few years and she finally broke up with her boyfriend.

We sit down at a restaurant for happy hour. At first I was a little passive, I had just jerked off the night before which was probably a bad idea my energy levels weren't as high as they usually are. I allow her to mostly talk for the first 10-15 minutes, I ask good questions to keep the conversation going.

As the drinks start to roll in, we start to loosen up a little bit. She kept brushing my foot with her foot, I enjoyed this. The sexual tension was definitely there. It wasn't there at all with the first girl.

Eventually, we cover topics such as what we like about each other, what we're looking for in terms of dating, and future date talk... Now things are moving along. 

Towards the end of the date, she was talking about the scar on her forehead, I lean in for a closer look and brush my hand on her hand, what a tasty, tension- filled moment. I didn't kiss her because I wasn't ready. 

The two hours absolutely flew by, at the end of it, I told her I had to go to pick up basketball. I walk her to her car, give her a hug and tell her that I'll text her. She's actually an inch or two taller than me, but she was wearing flats so we were at eye level. I hope she didn't do that on purpose so that I wouldn't feel bad, I really don't mind. I want you to wear whatever makes you feel good. 

This girl is truly beautiful; She can cook, is artistic, is introspective, conversation is easy, she's funny, everything about her seems perfect.

Until next time...

Edited January 23 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

I really want to help 3 friends out with their dating lives. I intuit that they are struggling with attracting women, getting dates, putting themselves out there, etc.

This is so near and dear to my heart because for YEARS I have struggled mightily with this area in my life. It has caused me much anxiety, pain, and confusion. But now, at age 28, through lots of hard work I am finally having success and I would like to share my insights with these 3 individuals.

How am I going to do this? 

I'd first like to teach them how to dance. Dance is an amazing way to understand the masculine and feminine dynamic at play. For a man, it will teach you how to lead with confidence and assertiveness, while still giving the woman room to breathe. For the women, it will teach you how to surrender to a masculine's lead and also how to embrace your beauty and femininity.

When will you teach them? 

I would like to get them into a dance studio so that they can get really good, but first I need to convince them that dance is a good way of getting good with women. This is going to be a slow process, they're not going to meet they're dream girl after one dance lesson.

I think I have to market myself to them first, by showing them the beautiful women that I have attracted through dance. They have no reason to believe that I can get them there right now, I haven't shown them anything. That's what I must do for now.. just continue going out on dates. Eventually they will see me with all of these beautiful women, and they'll be like "Alright, how is this 5'5" average looking dude dating of these beautiful women..." That's when I'll have them and I'll teach them my ways. 

Let's keep grinding. 

Edited January 23 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Women will pick up on your vibe and mood. If you can be chill and confident, she will feel chill and confident. If you are playful and giggly, then she will feel playful and giggly. 

 

[Spiritual Warrior]

What do women want most in a man?

A woman's ultimate fantasy is to tame a player

She wants to feel like she is the special girl that he chose

 

Become the player

Then settle down with a girl eventually

And the girl will feel fullfilled in the sense that in her head, she tamed the player

 

Engage in the player frame at first

Then once she is hooked and attracted to you

Then you can start to fulfill the role as the provider

 

Edited January 29 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

I had a date last night. We went out dancing and drank margaritas. Then we went back to her car and listened to music.

I've been contemplating the impermanence of life and it's been taking a toll on me. I'm feeling emotionally unstable right now.

A sad song comes on and she starts to sing. I bury my head into her shoulder and I start to cry. 

When the crying subsides, I ask her if she's ever seen a dude cry. She nods her head, opens her car door and pukes.

Once she finishes, I give her a kiss on the forehead and we part ways..

Edited February 9 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

I'm falling for this girl that I'm dating. I think about her when she's not around, and sometimes I feel an emptiness in my stomach, like it's a bottomless pit. The issue is that I had goals for this year that require me to date around and approach lots of new women. If I were to date this girl, then I would be going against this vision for myself. Is this okay? Or am I settling? 

I honestly don't know. 

I've mad a pact to always steer towards what is emotionally uncomfortable. The issue here is that both paths are going to be emotionally difficult. Hitting on lots of women and dating around is scary. Getting very close to one individual is also very scary.. so which path should I choose? 

Which path is more scary? 

I don't know ... I'd have to think about that one.

[Spiritual Warrior]

Perfectly describes what I'm going through right now 

 

[Spiritual Warrior]

Developing a relationship with a woman, and dealing with all of the difficulties that come along with holding a relationship, holding her wants and desires in the same respect as your own, to expand yourself so deeply, that you're selfish needs and desires are not wanted anymore. 

Dive in, dive in with all your heart 

Don't hold back

Fall into the abyss of love 

Drown in it

Drown as much as you can 

Go as deep as you possibly can

Into the sea of love

Until it is suffocating 

Until it suffocates your entire body

So much so that it pops 

And you dissolve into dust

Edited February 19 by Spiritual Warrior

[Spiritual Warrior]

Can we kiss forever? 

No. No we can't. Because everything is impermanent. I need to let you go.

I want to understand what it feels like to lose you. 

That's the only way out. 

The only way to climb higher. 

Edited February 19 by Spiritual Warrior