Are you special, average or nobody?

[Butters]

When navigating everyday life, how do you use different thoughts like these? 

For example: sometimes I get really worried because I get negative feedback from someone. Could be a stranger in the streets or someone at work. But then I realize how incredibly simplistic the human desire system is, and the reason they behaved in a certain way is always so simple I overlooked it. 

So then I think of how special I am doing this work and looking at the world like this. I those moments thinking I'm special is helpful. 

Then other times it is helpful to think of myself as an average dummy, which I am in many ways. That's why going out is so good because the conversations are so stupid and simple, it's freeing almost. 

Also when I buy something, I'm a customer, I sell something I'm a vendor etc. So I can play all these roles and I enjoy it. 

Then I'm also nobody I guess, but that kind of thinking hasnt been too useful in the everyday world. I do have solipsism thoughts sometimes which works only as long as I have my heart open and compassion. 

The Law of Attraction stuff is kind of stage orange / green that ties in perfectly with solipsism in my view. 

Life is a wild trip. I'm trying to really embody all stages up to yellow as best I can. Would love to hear your experiences. 

Edited November 4, 2023 by Butters

[Guest Bazooka Jesus]

All of the above, and none of it.

Why cling to a label?

[petar8p]

I treat myself as special in public. 

Average in a group of people I know 

Nobody when I'm with myself.