My life is nothing🌸🎥

[Sabth]

My favourite book still remains said Nursi and al Ghazali. 

[Sabth]

10 minutes ago, Sabth said:

What is true happiness in this world? True happiness and satisfaction. 

I think I will be reincarnated as my child. So it is important to give my life to my child. And my future generations. Then I can die peacefully. And they'll do the same to their generations. 

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Things that I no longer enjoy as I get older :

• Watching movies or dramas
• Listening to music
• Learning/reading
• Walking/physical activities/skating (I think I can do this but it takes a while for me to enjoy it again. )
• Straining my eyes.
• Basically everything . I guess.  I think if I could make a film I would not enjoy it anymore now. Since I don't like looking at a screen any longer. 
• And there are several other things which I no longer likes. 

Things that I like :

• Expensive clothes
• Self-care
• Handbags
• Cameras
• I like to take care of myself more. 
• I don't like eating still. 
• I just want to travel to a calm and peaceful country. 

Things that I no longer do :

• Ratib
• Reciting the Quran everyday
• Knowledge searching

[Sabth]

I can't used my online banking it is so frustrating. Huh? 

I forgot my password and I've changed my number so I would hv to go to the bank to settle it. Meanwhile, I couldn't make online transaction. 

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Ahahahhaha

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I dream that I'm dyeing my hair pink. I've been wanting to do this for a long time. But my mom would never bring me to dye my hair. I can only wait for my freedom. Will I ever be free & independent ? There's so much thing I wanna do. If , only, I'm already free & adult... But I can never, 

There's so much things I wanna do.  

 

I am doomed for life. 

I can't drive. 

I wanna travel. I wanna go to a concert, I wanna dye my hair, I want to work. I want to be independent. I want to have my own house and paid my own bills. (But right now I no longer care because the things that I wanna keep safe had been stolen so nothings mattered anymore. I don't need a safe space anymore. My life's is fucked.) Since I was a child I have been wanting to get my own money and to work and to have my own studio apartment so that I could keep all these things. Since I was young. I even thought of creating my own cabin beside the house. However small. To keep my arts. And my works. Like an art studio. ) But it never happens. And my things are stolen. Once I get forcefully put into a mental hospital and have no control over my own room, they steal everything. I still didn't know who. Though. It's fucked up. And we're still living together. There's no one else . It would be only either one of them . Who steals my things. No one else. 

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I think I should just be grateful wherever I am. But maybe I was wrong. 

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Will I win a Tesla Y? Well idk ~~

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I bought a hair dye. But no way I could do that by myself. It is tempting not to buy it. But I think I will trust the salon more. Plus I had to bleach my hair first. So idk, 

Of course I can't do it by myself. 

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What services can I provide? 

 

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Right now , I'm thinking , of going back to study. It's never too late. Even in the book* it said it's not too late. And I have to achieve something out of life. I can't be doing nothing forever. My child would be nothing.

And I'm also thinking of working and having a career. 

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The desire of God is for everything to glorify Him. /God. 

For all of creations to glorify Him. 

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I have read this book until chapter 6. 

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I have read chapter seven . 

1:05AM

[Sabth]

Okay I have read chapter eight 

1:53AM

I think chapter seven is good. Chapter eight is history. 

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I can't believe

That xx is going to make a comeback this year. 

If I can't go to his concert I would be a little sad. 

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