My life is nothing🌸🎥

[Sabth]

I am so bored not doing anything. Not doing anything. Not doing anything....

[Sabth]

I wish my life was richer. Only if, .... If everything went perfectly since I was young. Only if.... 

[Sabth]

I am so tired of being poorer than my mom. 

https://www.toyota.com.my/en/models/alphard.html

[Sabth]

I feel terrible in my own body. 🤢 I feel like I wanna puke 

Waking up like this. I think I overeat. 

 

 

 

2:07

[Sabth]

Got a bad dream. I think my life is terrible. So terrible. 

 

 

I am so much in a bad state. 

Edited February 24 by Sabth

[Sabth]

I need something that costs like an Alphard . 

Today, because I was not feeling well yesterday, I decided to fast today. So I am feeling much better today. I hope all is well. 

I got a weird dream. I think I got weirder and weirder dreams these days. As I became disconnected (more disconnected) with my past life. I don't know. I don't know how to make everything's better. I wish,

[Sabth]

Toyota Alphard = All the things that I've ever wanted . 

The price of an Alphard = the price of everything that I've ever wanted . 

 

[Sabth]

I saw an 18 year old kid buy an Alphard for her mom. 

[Sabth]

I remember my diaries and my writings....

[Sabth]

I don't like old books. I like the latest release of everything.

Edited February 26 by Sabth

[Sabth]

Many people are feeling hopeless for me. 

[Sabth]

What is a good degree? 

[Sabth]

The last book that I read is truly the Risala An-Nūr by Said Nursi. He has a lot of it. 

And the last book that I wanna buy last year 2023 is "Barefoot like the earth" by Dakota Wint. It is the only book that I want to buy. I watch him a lot those years. Back then. I think his journey is interesting. But these days, I no longer like it. But I still want to buy his book. I think he is the same category like Lilly Singh. I bought her book too in 2017. 

And I re-bought this book because mine was stolen. So last year I bought it again. Just for the memories. Because I like it. 

[Sabth]

I don't know how much these books would suit me. Or if I should read it even . 

[Sabth]

It's been a while since I've read a book so, I kinda feel nostalgic. I used to be so into it back then. Meeting authors. Years ago. 

Now the kind of thing I wanna buy are

Skincare/makeup/clothes. Basically things that makes me feel good. I no longer buy books. 

Except this. So I don't know.

To start again. 

Edited February 27 by Sabth

[Sabth]

On the 14th page, I feel like I don't wanna go on. I am not in a position to read a book and get something new into my mind. It wasn't settled. The stolen things. I had to go to the police station and make a police report. I can't act like nothings happened. I can't go on. I couldn't. I shouldn't. It bothers me still. I'm not moving on. 

 

Things aren't fine. I can't read peacefully. It keeps bothering me. 

No I'm not fine.. 

Edited February 27 by Sabth

[Sabth]

Idk. I got a lot of weird dreams now I'm scared. 5:10AM

It must be the places that I go to and the people I interacted with these few days. Idk. 

[Sabth]

I only wanna be in contact with the right people. 

Oh . Oh no. 

[Sabth]

I really want to be rich. I want a million dollar. I see a lot of people in my country being rich/a millionaire. And can buy everything they've ever wanted. And can travel to places. It was good. They are super rich. I find it's okay to show their riches. I wanna see their limits. 

[Sabth]

What is true happiness in this world? True happiness and satisfaction.