My life is nothing🌸🎥

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I feel like I'm so messed up. 

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No. I regret saying it. Never in my whole life. Not worth it. Never. ♣️

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*will update*

The Most Compassionate

taught the Quran,

created humanity,

˹and˺ taught them speech.

The sun and the moon ˹travel˺ with precision.

The stars and the trees bow down ˹in submission˺.

As for the sky, He raised it ˹high˺, and set the balance ˹of justice˺

so that you do not defraud the scales.

Weigh with justice, and do not give short measure.

He laid out the earth for all beings.

In it are fruit, palm trees with date stalks,

and grain with husks, and aromatic plants.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you ˹humans and jinn˺ both deny?

He created humankind from ˹sounding˺ clay like pottery,

and created jinn from a ˹smokeless˺ flame of fire.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

˹He is˺ Lord of the two easts and the two wests.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

He merges the two bodies of ˹fresh and salt˺ water,

yet between them is a barrier they never cross.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

Out of both ˹waters˺ come forth pearls and coral.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

To Him belong the ships with raised sails, sailing through the seas like mountains.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

Every being on earth is bound to perish.

Only your Lord Himself,1 full of Majesty and Honour, will remain ˹forever˺.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

All those in the heavens and the earth are dependent on Him. Day in and day out He has something to bring about.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

We will soon attend to you ˹for judgment˺, O  two multitudes ˹of jinn and humans˺!

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

O  assembly of jinn and humans! If you can penetrate beyond the realms of the heavens and the earth, then do so. ˹But˺ you cannot do that without ˹Our˺ authority.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

Flames of fire and ˹molten˺ copper will be sent against you, and you will not be able to defend one another.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

˹How horrible will it be˺ when the heavens will split apart, becoming rose-red like ˹burnt˺ oil!

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

On that Day there will be no need for any human or jinn to be asked about their sins.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

The wicked will be recognized by their appearance, then will be seized by ˹their˺ forelocks and feet.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

˹They will be told,˺ “This is the Hell which the wicked denied.”

They will alternate between its flames and scalding water.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

And whoever is in awe of standing before their Lord will have two Gardens.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

˹Both will be˺ with lush branches.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

In each ˹Garden˺ will be two flowing springs.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

In each will be two types of every fruit.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

Those ˹believers˺ will recline on furnishings lined with rich brocade. And the fruit of both Gardens will hang within reach.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

In both ˹Gardens˺ will be maidens of modest gaze, who no human or jinn has ever touched before.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

Those ˹maidens˺ will be ˹as elegant˺ as rubies and coral.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

Is there any reward for goodness except goodness?

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

And below these two ˹Gardens˺ will be two others.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

Both will be dark green.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

In each will be two gushing springs.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

In both will be fruit, palm trees, and pomegranates.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

In all Gardens will be noble, pleasant mates.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

˹They will be˺ maidens with gorgeous eyes, reserved in pavilions.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

No human or jinn has ever touched these ˹maidens˺ before.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

All ˹believers˺ will be reclining on green cushions and splendid carpets.

Then which of your Lord’s favours will you both deny?

Blessed is the Name of your Lord, full of Majesty and Honour.

 

Edited October 31, 2023 by Sabth

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Indeed, We have granted you abundant goodness.
So pray and sacrifice to your Lord.
Only the one who hates you is truly cut off.

Edited October 31, 2023 by Sabth

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By the morning sunlight
and the night when it falls still!
Your Lord has not abandoned you, nor has He become hateful .
And the next life is certainly far better for you than this one.
And your Lord will give so much to you that you will be pleased.
Did He not find you as an orphan then sheltered you?
Did He not find you unguided then guided you?
And did He not find you needy then satisfied your needs?
So do not oppress the orphan,
nor repulse the beggar.
And proclaim the blessings of your Lord.

Edited October 31, 2023 by Sabth

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How do I create a career for myself? 

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This is my song in 2020

 

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I'll put a picture of Teal Swan next to mine. And a mother of triplet because I want to have a baby in the future too💞

Edited October 31, 2023 by Sabth

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I'm feeling so much anxiety right now. So much. 

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I dream about my baby (from 2011) in a strange condition. Idk what this dreams implies.. 

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WEDNESDAY | 1 NOVEMBER 2023

Wow I can't believe that it's already 1 November .  And out of all things I dreamed of my baby being pierced through on her lower lips two blocks. It was done by the hospital that put me into the mental hospital. The same hospital. But now they're doing it to my baby. And she's smiling and it seems like it doesn't hurt. But I remember feeling like now they're doing evil to my baby sister. It was just pure evil. Spoiling my baby sister. 

I just wish I would do really well this two months left for the year 2023. 

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I just wish that I could go to EGYPT or NYC. 

And I need a lot of things. 

These are the examples of things I needed. 

 

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Idk. I'm not even working right now.. I couldn't buy these expensive cameras. And I'm getting older now..

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They said there isn't electricity in Egypt. Why couldn't they make their own electricity? For four hours a day. 

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I'm tired of just staying at home even my body hurts because there's little movement. It has been like this for long for years. And I'm still like this. I feel like my life is bad. 

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My hell right now is my tummy. My head. I feel like I want to vomit but didn't. I feel like I'm full but there's indigestion. It felt too much for my whole body. And I have little movement. That adds up to my discomfort. I feel like I want to start diet again. Eating as little as possible. It actually makes you feel better. To be hungry. To be not processing any food in your body. Maybe I'll eat just fruits from now on. I feel so bad right now. In so much discomfort. ><

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I regret eating. I am in so much pain and discomfort now. 

7:26PM nov1

I can force myself to vomit now

(I actually did).....

Oh my life is so terrible now. 

I need a digestion pill right now.  

To be hungry is better than to be full... 

8:36PM - I'm glad that I wouldn't have to wait for tomorrow morning until my food is digested. I have already vomit a whole lot of it like a whole plastic bag. Hehe. I like it very much. 

What I did was , eating a spoonful of honey, lay on my bed, say hasbunallah wa nimal wakeel, listen to Taeyeon's song. U R. Then vomit like hell. It's so satisfying. But I feel like I got some more. Gotta drink some water. 

8:43PM I can't believe that there was that much things in my stomach. No wonder I feel bad. It's way bigger than my fist. 

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This is the meaning of hasbunallah wa nimal wakeel :

But what I did was listening to Taeyeon's song. And vomit all I might . 

Edited November 1, 2023 by Sabth

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I'm still not fully healed now but way better ❤️‍🩹

 

First things I'll do tomorrow morning, is going to buy some fruits. Then I'll buy some workout clothes. Then I'll start walking in this neighbourhood. Perhaps that will make things better. But this area is dangerous. It's not all good. My neighbour's garage was bombed at night. So we still hv crime going on. 

 

I hope this nescafe will make me feel better ...

Edited November 1, 2023 by Sabth

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I only have 15.6 USD other spendings, all are paid by my mother and father. I had a little gold and silver. And monies from other currencies. And there are some money in that trading company, which are on hold. Because I don't have any more money. 

That's all I got. I can't wait for the day I make my own money. And to see this $15.6 grow. So that I could pay that trading company and get my money which are on hold out of that company and never come back. I just want to get my money back. If it s successful, I'm gonna try for the second and that's only it. By doing that, I can get a little over $43k. 

That's all I need.