How am I small me even?

[Bulgarianspirit]

If i'm me and you and my awareness can expand to become and cover the whole universe, how did this "me" begin? It's weird I had experiences of being in the void yelling I don't want to be an eternal god and I can't get this metaphysical solipsism thing down and understand how my awareness is currently limited.

[itsadistraction]

Nice to have you back @Bulgarianspirit

There is no "how" it just is? Asking "how" turns into an infinite regress? I am not sure.

 

[Osaid]

40 minutes ago, Bulgarianspirit said:

how did this "me" begin?

It didn't.

40 minutes ago, Bulgarianspirit said:

understand how my awareness is currently limited.

You can't understand this because it isn't the case. You've created a relationship between "me" and "awareness", which is of course perceived as limited, because it can't be the case and isn't the case.

40 minutes ago, Bulgarianspirit said:

awareness can expand to become and cover the whole universe

Awareness can't expand or cover anything. Awareness is just awareness. It doesn't become more of itself, or expand itself, because it is itself, always.

40 minutes ago, Bulgarianspirit said:

I don't want to be an eternal god and I can't get this metaphysical solipsism thing down

You can't get it down because it's not there. There's nothing to "get down." You're making it up.

Nothing you can speak is actually the case. You can't speak the color red. Any conclusions you have about yourself are basically garbage, because they are not the thing. In the same way that any conclusions you have about red are garbage, because they aren't red, they are just conclusions about red. Conclusions != red. Conclusions != you.

Finite doesn't exist. Relative doesn't exist. Limited doesn't exist. Only deception can perceive deception. Only the limited can perceive what is limited. Conclusions about the color red only exist as conclusions, not the color red. So the conclusions can only ever perceive red as a conclusion, not the actual color red. Because that is the mode of perception it is stuck in.

Edited October 17, 2023 by Osaid

[HMD]

@Bulgarianspirit It is not there. You just have an illusion of it. And then you have all the backstory to justify its “existence”. 

[Razard86]

Awareness expands all the time. Its infinite it has no limits so yes it can expand and contract through construction of an appearance. Through appearance awareness can become more aware or less aware of the appearance and the appearance is awareness and is how awareness experiences what it is.

[Thought Art]

Only alone cuz your so together