Three Year Awakening Process?

[mondochon]

From 20 - 25 years old I was undiagnosed Bipolar 1. I was abusing weed and amphetamines heavily, and "with Psychotic Symptoms" was added to my diagnosis. I would talk to myself, I felt as if the Universe were talking to me through synchronicity, and I was having persecutory delusions. I got well, medicated, and for the next 5 to 8 years I was "well."

When I turned 33 I got accepted into a graduate program, had an "epiphany" and would be floridly delusion for the next three years, all the way until roughly 3 months ago. Same symptoms, heavy synchronicity, I felt search and Spotify algorithms were speaking to me, and I felt as if I had fallen in love. The entire duration I was still (heavily) medicated but felt as if everyone and everything could hear me talking to myself. Three years I was roaming aimlessly, living at home with my parents under the guise of being episodic. I learned not to care what people thought of me, I learned to shrug off the little things, and overall I feel like I became a much healthier person after having snapped out of the delusional state 3 months ago.

Has anyone dealt with something like this?

[Yimpa]

6 minutes ago, mondochon said:

Has anyone dealt with something like this?

Yes. Society looks at all this as crazy, but that is society’s bias.

Also, nice job for no longer abusing drugs.

Edited October 8, 2023 by Yimpa

[BipolarGrowth]

Plenty of people have experienced similar situations. About 1% of the population is bipolar type 1. People with bipolar are disproportionately interested in spirituality. It’s good to hear you’re doing better now. 

[Yimpa]

12 minutes ago, BipolarGrowth said:

It’s good to hear you’re doing better now. 

It’s good to hear that you’re doing better as well; haven’t seen you in a while.