First Samadhi Experience

[Dez]

How was your first mystical experience like? What authentic insights did you gain in this temporary state of consciousness?

I personally named this, “The Awareness Realization”.

”Revealable through questioning, enterable by not knowing. Ego allows conceptualization of life and death is what makes it meaningful.”

- LYD_Dez

[r0ckyreed]

I was contemplating time and self. Realized I was Infinite and so is time. I fell in love with just existing. I cried of joy and hugged a tree for no reason. 

[vibv]

This is what I noted on that day (in January 2015; translated from German):

Suffering is the illusion of the possibility to do anything wrong and therefore be separated from Unity.

This illusion is flawless, because it allows God to discover its own beauty again and again.

You become aware of this knowledge by completely trusting and unconditionally embracing what appears.

You can NEVER arrive at that knowledge through logic or by deriving it somehow. It is always there, you become aware of it by trusting in it. Then there's no sliver of doubt anymore.

You just have to do it.

All fear and all doubts disappear and reveal their true nature - a perfectly designed illusion - when you begin to trust.

[Breakingthewall]

I did 5meo and immediately the limits disappeared. this is infinity. An endless abyss opened before me. I automatically realized that in the face of infinity, I was nothing, my entire experience was nothing, anything blurred until it became zero. nothing. The terror that invaded me was total. reality was infinite death with no possibility of escape. It's all an illusion, it's really nothing. I couldn't conceive of anything more horrible, worse than torture. After a while I did it again, and again, lot of times, until I got used to that emptiness. The problem was simply my attachment to the limits of the mind, my vertigo to infinity. Like everything that causes terror, the solution is exposure and getting used to it. to the point of not distinguishing the opening to infinity while sober or doing high doses of 5meo