Forgetting The Past. Over And Over And Over Again...

[FirstglimpseOMG]

I'm thinking that if I look back with regret or trepidation at something I did, said, or thought two minutes ago, and decide to notice that I was for some goof reason revisiting a past that did not exist, and that I can only create, moment by moment, as I go, and that that creative mode is only possible, period, within the present moment... I manage to tangibly diminish that 'apparently negative past' shit. I say diminish, because before I know it, that 'two minutes ago' thing is being revisited, only now it's eight minutes ago. If I don't diminish the reality of it's ass then and there, when I revisit that shit again, twenty minutes ago, it will be just as illusively strong. 

[FirstglimpseOMG]

...which becomes two months, two years, or two decades ago. Ffs.     

Edited March 29, 2017 by FirstglimpseOMG

[egoeimai]

Υes. Focus on wanted. Withdraw your attention from unwanted.

[FirstglimpseOMG]

I don't seem to create much of anything of beauty or grace while thinking too much. It just leads to more thinking & less being. When my thinking zips back and forth between the past and the future, I really can't create much beauty or grace.. 

...I can manage mud. ...& muddle. But the artist and creator remains more in the background, waiting to be rediscovered.

Then life gets all glorious again when I remember to remember to forget and keep creating.

[FirstglimpseOMG]

Then I remember that I'm always, always creating, might as well make it pleasant and helpful and awesome and an expression of 'higher'...

Sorry, not trying to boost my post count haa.  ..uh, just thinking sort of out loud as I go. 

Kind of like public journaling.

It works..

[FirstglimpseOMG]

Speaking of 'Higher', this is good stuff;

"And you, broken.
There's your legacy, locks you in.
Doesn't matter, I'll stay.
I'm not ready, I'm quite low.
...So are we gonna go?

Higher.

So we'll need a moment far from peaceful to know
We've no reason to be frightened all the time

Higher

Sewing pieces of a broken threadbare family
Now the world is dying, How the mind must try

Higher

Craft your life in ways you will be shown
Craft your life in ways that will be known
Craft your life in ways you will be shown
Craft your life in ways that will bring your darkness

I, the destroyer, shall not be contained.
But, ah, keep strong... don't let the bastards grind you down.
Change direction

I, I am I
I am war by creation

Higher, now go.

So you have grown ...all ways!

I know!

And you, broken.
And there's your legacy
It locked you in
I won't be a martyr
For love or the father

So are we gonna go?
Take me higher!"

 

Edited March 29, 2017 by FirstglimpseOMG

[FirstglimpseOMG]

@egoeimai agreed.. we will create it, 'good' or 'bad'.