Bollards in Asphalt

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@Sidra khan yup. It's all around me but a little far. 

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It's tough out there. No??? 

 

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Edited September 21, 2023 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

I have been taking therapy for schizoid disorder. 

   

 

 

 

 

@Sidra khan yep. 

Edited September 21, 2023 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

1 hour ago, Sidra khan said:

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I see this 

You aren't able to see the Pic you mean? 

 

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1 hour ago, Sidra khan said:

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I see this 

Are you able to see now? I uploaded once more. 

 

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Edited September 21, 2023 by Buck Edwards

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Hawaiian baby woodrose seeds. 

Hawaiian baby woodrose grows in Florida, California, and Hawaii. The seeds of Hawaiian baby woodrose contain a chemical called lysergic acid amide. Internet sellers promote this as a "natural LSD", even though these chemicals are not the same.

 

Edited September 21, 2023 by Buck Edwards

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There is a TEKK where you can mix your morning glory seeds in Sherry wine and no side effects at all. Morning glory seeds are also very loving. 

 

Edited September 21, 2023 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

Taken from previous notes

 

 

 

From last month (taken from my notes) 

I took 5 hawaiian baby woodrose seeds. Crushed it to powder format. Soaked in lemon juice. And than drank it. Whole. 

 Hawaiian Baby woodrose Seeds, as fresh as possible. 

Light dose. Mini. 

Side Effects I felt - Nausea, crampy, sluggish heart rate 

 

One hour after I drank the concoction, I began to feel nausea. I began to feel stuff after 4 hours. For the first like 2 hours after this, It felt like a more euphoric trip. I really enjoyed the substance so far, and thought I already reached the peak. No visuals. 

In about let's say 6 hours later, I felt tired yet the trip still felt potent. I experienced dissociation from life and stuff. I did feel like I was dying but I quickly dissociated from it. I layed down and just went with it. 

I had thoughts racing through my mind that everything is just stupid. That enlightenment and  my "work" towards it utter nonsense, watching actualized.org videos and starting psychedelics as though not meant for me, me having permanent effect. All the negativity around it.  It's just my mind feeding me negative blah blah. I dozed off. 

I woke up 3 hours later, still tripping considerably. I felt wide awake. I felt more focused. 

Everything was murky. Colorful. Woof woof. I'm not myself anymore. I felt like a human being with a ghost in the brain, told to do stuff. Not free. Free your mind and you'll see. I was meant to live life a certain way. Tired!!!!!!!!! 

Mmmmmm Mmmmmm Mmmmmm mmmm.... 

I felt astral entities. Mmmm. Mmmm.. I began to see patterns on the walls. 

 I CLOSED MY EYES..... DANG!! 

I felt infinite love for all beings. So sweet. Passion flows through. Eat a fruit buck. You don't love yourself. I had to put end to the chatter in my mind because it's nothing. Just human garbage. I felt like I was born again.. Everything was beautiful and amazing. 

 I felt it for 2 days. 50 hours later I returned to normal state/baseline. 

 

 

Edited September 21, 2023 by Buck Edwards

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Why do I always want everyone's approval? 

And at the same time, I'm schizoid. 

If someone hates me or dislikes me i feel depressed. Like I feel like a piece of crap. 

Why o why. 

And I also don't wanna be around people. 

Why can't I just be me all the time. Why do people have expectations with me and how to deal with that? 

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Is it my fault that I was born schizoid? 

 

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Hawaiian baby woodrose seeds and yopo seeds. 

 

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I don't want pure LSA. Seeds are enough. 

 

Edited September 21, 2023 by Buck Edwards