Bollards in Asphalt

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Edited September 18, 2023 by Buck Edwards

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9 hours ago, Sidra khan said:

You have put some restrictions on your profile so users who like your posts can't follow you. 

Oh I see. I did it because I get nervous when someone follows me. I'm not going to be changing that. Sorry for the inconvenience. 

 

[Jehovah increases]

I have never been a part of any religion or any affiliated with any of it. You opened me up to Hinduism and I fell in love with it thanks so much, Buck.?♾. I will leave you be.

[Buck Edwards]

Ok

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Narcissists are always trying to get edge on you. 

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Words like boundaries, cutthroat, civil, respect, shame, walls, trivial, insult, humiliation, criticism, discrimination, judgement. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

I need to start watching podcasts that are helpful to my life. 

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On 9/18/2023 at 9:00 PM, Jehovah increases said:

I have never been a part of any religion or any affiliated with any of it. You opened me up to Hinduism and I fell in love with it thanks so much, Buck.?♾. I will leave you be.

@Jehovah increases you can follow my journal no problem at all. 

@Sidra khan thank you. 

[Buck Edwards]

If someone hates me so much, I'm better off dead. 

From today, I'm dead for them. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited September 20, 2023 by Buck Edwards

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You just have to expect that one day they stop hating you and things change for the better. 

I'll hope for that day. Then it won't be so bad. 

 

[Buck Edwards]

4 minutes ago, Sidra khan said:

What you think of yourself matters more than what other think of you, cz other don't know you. You're lovable ? percent. 

Thank you for the kind words. 

[Buck Edwards]

Note this Buck - Don't seek anyone's approval because you're always in the habit of doing that. You don't need someone's appreciation to feel your own value. Approval seeking behavior stems from needs not being met early on. Not feeling good within. Always looking for a substitute. 

Look for a substitute even if you have to, then look for a good one. 

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On top of that I have amnesia. 

I think it's a condition of autism. Combined with taking cues and adjusting behavior accordingly. Acting inappropriate. Then looking for approval. Slow or fast talk. Briefing, commands, cue words, clear instructions, flat communication lines are helpful with managing autism as well as managing a situation. 

Impulsive reaction during a situation is common. 

There's delay in processing, understanding and improving on cues and interpretation - action. Takes time to adjust to new cues. 

 

Edited September 20, 2023 by Buck Edwards

[Buck Edwards]

I've decided to let go of the person I was involved with for some time in the past. I've decided to take a more compassionate approach. Not disturb them anymore. Although I still care about them, I won't bother them anymore. They're sick of me and that's understandable why. My own behavior hasn't been exemplary. I troubled them to the tilt. I was a pain in the ass. I kept gnawing at them. I was disrespectful and did not care. I treated them badly. 

I got on their nerves. Now I'm guilty of hurting them over and over. I'm guilty of my emotions getting the better of me. 

I have decided to give them peace forever. I have decided to not let their thoughts impact me anymore. I have decided to stop ruminating about them. They deserve their space and quiet and peace. 

I have behaved in an absolutely awful manner and caused them pain, unnecessary stress and constant provocation and I accept full responsibility for this. Although it's difficult for me to not love them, it's best to let them have the absolute peace they deserve. 

I should back off. I should not trouble them anymore. Wherever they are, I wish them the best. They will always be important to me. 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited September 20, 2023 by Buck Edwards

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