How to overcome the fear of touch?

UnlovingGod · August 24, 2023

I'm quite good at socializing, vibing. Even before actualized.org I just got those insights about vibe. The only thing that really drops my conversation rate, is going more intimate with the touch. I'm just so fucking scared to be mocked, once had to change universities, because there was a rumor going through the whole university, that I punched three girls in the face. I don't even know, where that came from. I haven't punched any girl in my life to be clear. But you can imagine that being in this environment, where everybody thinks you are a serial puncher, can become quite frustrating. I just have so much fear for my reputation, that anything, that can be used against me, may be used against me. And I'm quite bullyable, a little charactertrade I have, that I need to get sorted out. So that's what keeps down my conversation rate and I know, with some little tweeks in my psyche it could be 5-10% higher. Anyone knows how to deal with it? Of course just touch more anywhere, but man, everywhere I go, there's just so much shit talking behind the back and the reputation is just so fucking important, because it means social status, and everyone who wants to get you down, wants to get you down.