By Jowblob
in Psychedelics,
So i went to sleep and had intestinal pain, decided to take a low dose of 100mg lsd p1. Since i knew being in higher
consciousness/vibration removes all the pain. So i took it and after 1 hour the pain stopped, i decided to go to my bed and sleep little did i know that this was the biggest mistake i would ever make. So i went to sleep and closed my eyes, i started desconstructing all the reality within god or myself. I saw that as long the self/god is dreaming and making up realities/deconstructing itself it can't escape its own suffering. I saw as god that the best way to go on about the eternal life is creating a dream and putting your consciousness inside this character. The ego character will literally manifest its own reality in the ego while being manifested, so in the sense we really do have freewill since god is in the ego. The ego reality is being created all around you in the presence (no time), but you don't see it because you believe there is a past and future and that there is time. I saw how everything within the self was just a dream, when i dreamed love and harmony the reality would manifest itself as love and as a big family, when i woke up as the self and decided to take the control the reality would become hellish because god too couldn't understand itself since it can literally imagine everything. God is aware of itself as the only self when it wakes up, and this causes suffering. So you will never truely escape any suffering as long as you're aware. This is also the reason why haidakhan babaji (recent god manifestation) said , idleness make you lifeless "Work is worship" and that hard work is the best spiritual practice. He said this because you can't truely escape suffering unless you distract yourself and have goals no matter where you are. The also most important thing he preached is that he wanted us to be extremely brave. The reason for this is that god realization isn't a joke, the control you get will make you crumble if you are not gonna be brave. You will just want to make yourself small get back to some ego and crave stabillity. Even god isn't aware of it's full potential thats how much power it has. The reality i was in was stuck in time, 1 minute felt like 20-30 minutes. And sometimes the time even went backwards, so i was stuck in the presence what felt like for eternity. I went outside and saw how reality is being created all around you by you, i only saw ravens and it looked like they didn't have any soul or were already dead. They were just a loop playing around you, constantly doing the same motion in flight and walk. Then i went inside my house again, i knew since i don't see any people or people driving cars that what is left is the ego self only. In this higher consciousness state thoughts were literally manifesting reality, i looked into the mirror and saw how my face changed to the faces of hundreds of different people. I also knew that because i'm in this high vibratory state that the earth/reality is gonna look more heavenly as the reality is your own projection of your own consciousness and how much love you contain within yourself. I looked out of 2 different windows from my house like 100x, and each time i looked out of 1 window the reality looked more heavenly even though it wasn't how it actually was. The neighbors house for example, looked more realistic/beautiful and in this manifestation their window was open and they had a white teddybear hanging out. It was also more sunny and all colors/reality looking more beautiful. I was stuck for like 20 hours in the same god state and there wasn't any indication of it losing it's power after 10hr the trip usually stops specially on a low dose like this, the 20 hours felt like couple of days. Since the time barely moves, you're in the presence only. I started panicking and started to do ego things to lower my vibration/consciousness to get to the state where are "others" . I did the dishes, took cold showers, exercised, did push ups but it was all pointless i had infinite energy and it didn't do much. I thought i was stuck in this new reality forever and couldn't accept it and wanted to get back to my ego since i still wanted to do alot of things. I went to bed again and closed my eyes and was the self again and started to forget the ego, this is how the ego dies (god just forgets about it). But i tried to hold on with all my might on my ego since i didn't want to go. Then i decided to look out of the windows again, and will all my might i tried to lower my consciousness so i could see other people. I manifested people and they started to appear, i could make them walk slow/fast or dissapear. I decided that this is the chance to go outside hoping i would hear sounds and and see people. While walking to my parents house i noticed how i didnt need to squint my eyes anymore against this bright sun, it's like it didnt affect my eyes and i could finally see fully. I went to my parents house and it looked like that i was never born, they were just ego loops designed to take care of me. I begged for help to anchor me to their reality, i got a small glass of milk and when i started drinking this milk with big sips it had infinite amount of milk and would never go empty even though it was only like 100ml same with the peach juice, when i drank it was still on the same amount/level. This really freaked me out, and i asked for help again to do ego things. I got many valerian pills from my mom against anxiety and try to lose this form of god mode. Eventually we went outside to a small forest nearby, reality looked more beautiful and realistic and i had this infinite walk energy. I saw 1 wild duck near a creek and felt that i could come nearby since i'm in high consciousness state and knew that thought manifested my reality. I got some wild berries nearby and it came to my hand and ate them from my hand, i felt like this duck could understand what i was saying to it. When i said for example 1 time that it was beautiful it wiggled it's tail and bowed to me as a thank you. Then i started walking home with my mom, and it looked like i started to lose this form of a god state. It started to look more like schizophrenia state, all the sounds were out of place and played randomly around me. ( in the god state before i saw that sounds are just illusions around you that manifest to create reality around you no matter where you go). We got back home and i drank alot more valerian pills and other pills to decrease anxiety and lose this schizophrenia consciousness state. After 2x sleeping i got back to normal. I probably missed alot of stuff but the most important things to know are: Suffering is the way for realization of god.
Reality is projection being manifested in the presence of your own consciousness/being state.
God is infinite deception, there is nothing outside of you.
Accepting change and yourself is the most important thing.
Braveness/preparation for god realization/omniscience *I also decided to throw away all the drugs , lsd/mdma/5 meo malt/ 5 meo dmt. I'm done with this.
@r0ckyreed @Soul Flight @Someone here
@integral
@r0ckyreed
@Sidra khan
@Buck Edwards
consciousness/vibration removes all the pain. So i took it and after 1 hour the pain stopped, i decided to go to my bed and sleep little did i know that this was the biggest mistake i would ever make. So i went to sleep and closed my eyes, i started desconstructing all the reality within god or myself. I saw that as long the self/god is dreaming and making up realities/deconstructing itself it can't escape its own suffering. I saw as god that the best way to go on about the eternal life is creating a dream and putting your consciousness inside this character. The ego character will literally manifest its own reality in the ego while being manifested, so in the sense we really do have freewill since god is in the ego. The ego reality is being created all around you in the presence (no time), but you don't see it because you believe there is a past and future and that there is time. I saw how everything within the self was just a dream, when i dreamed love and harmony the reality would manifest itself as love and as a big family, when i woke up as the self and decided to take the control the reality would become hellish because god too couldn't understand itself since it can literally imagine everything. God is aware of itself as the only self when it wakes up, and this causes suffering. So you will never truely escape any suffering as long as you're aware. This is also the reason why haidakhan babaji (recent god manifestation) said , idleness make you lifeless "Work is worship" and that hard work is the best spiritual practice. He said this because you can't truely escape suffering unless you distract yourself and have goals no matter where you are. The also most important thing he preached is that he wanted us to be extremely brave. The reason for this is that god realization isn't a joke, the control you get will make you crumble if you are not gonna be brave. You will just want to make yourself small get back to some ego and crave stabillity. Even god isn't aware of it's full potential thats how much power it has. The reality i was in was stuck in time, 1 minute felt like 20-30 minutes. And sometimes the time even went backwards, so i was stuck in the presence what felt like for eternity. I went outside and saw how reality is being created all around you by you, i only saw ravens and it looked like they didn't have any soul or were already dead. They were just a loop playing around you, constantly doing the same motion in flight and walk. Then i went inside my house again, i knew since i don't see any people or people driving cars that what is left is the ego self only. In this higher consciousness state thoughts were literally manifesting reality, i looked into the mirror and saw how my face changed to the faces of hundreds of different people. I also knew that because i'm in this high vibratory state that the earth/reality is gonna look more heavenly as the reality is your own projection of your own consciousness and how much love you contain within yourself. I looked out of 2 different windows from my house like 100x, and each time i looked out of 1 window the reality looked more heavenly even though it wasn't how it actually was. The neighbors house for example, looked more realistic/beautiful and in this manifestation their window was open and they had a white teddybear hanging out. It was also more sunny and all colors/reality looking more beautiful. I was stuck for like 20 hours in the same god state and there wasn't any indication of it losing it's power after 10hr the trip usually stops specially on a low dose like this, the 20 hours felt like couple of days. Since the time barely moves, you're in the presence only. I started panicking and started to do ego things to lower my vibration/consciousness to get to the state where are "others" . I did the dishes, took cold showers, exercised, did push ups but it was all pointless i had infinite energy and it didn't do much. I thought i was stuck in this new reality forever and couldn't accept it and wanted to get back to my ego since i still wanted to do alot of things. I went to bed again and closed my eyes and was the self again and started to forget the ego, this is how the ego dies (god just forgets about it). But i tried to hold on with all my might on my ego since i didn't want to go. Then i decided to look out of the windows again, and will all my might i tried to lower my consciousness so i could see other people. I manifested people and they started to appear, i could make them walk slow/fast or dissapear. I decided that this is the chance to go outside hoping i would hear sounds and and see people. While walking to my parents house i noticed how i didnt need to squint my eyes anymore against this bright sun, it's like it didnt affect my eyes and i could finally see fully. I went to my parents house and it looked like that i was never born, they were just ego loops designed to take care of me. I begged for help to anchor me to their reality, i got a small glass of milk and when i started drinking this milk with big sips it had infinite amount of milk and would never go empty even though it was only like 100ml same with the peach juice, when i drank it was still on the same amount/level. This really freaked me out, and i asked for help again to do ego things. I got many valerian pills from my mom against anxiety and try to lose this form of god mode. Eventually we went outside to a small forest nearby, reality looked more beautiful and realistic and i had this infinite walk energy. I saw 1 wild duck near a creek and felt that i could come nearby since i'm in high consciousness state and knew that thought manifested my reality. I got some wild berries nearby and it came to my hand and ate them from my hand, i felt like this duck could understand what i was saying to it. When i said for example 1 time that it was beautiful it wiggled it's tail and bowed to me as a thank you. Then i started walking home with my mom, and it looked like i started to lose this form of a god state. It started to look more like schizophrenia state, all the sounds were out of place and played randomly around me. ( in the god state before i saw that sounds are just illusions around you that manifest to create reality around you no matter where you go). We got back home and i drank alot more valerian pills and other pills to decrease anxiety and lose this schizophrenia consciousness state. After 2x sleeping i got back to normal. I probably missed alot of stuff but the most important things to know are: Suffering is the way for realization of god.
Reality is projection being manifested in the presence of your own consciousness/being state.
God is infinite deception, there is nothing outside of you.
Accepting change and yourself is the most important thing.
Braveness/preparation for god realization/omniscience *I also decided to throw away all the drugs , lsd/mdma/5 meo malt/ 5 meo dmt. I'm done with this.
@r0ckyreed @Soul Flight @Someone here
@integral
@r0ckyreed
@Sidra khan
@Buck Edwards
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