I'm the most confusing person in this forum

[Someone here]

One day I'm awake ..another day I'm wondering about useless stupid stuff..the next day i want to become a muslim etc 

Who knows what comes next ?lol 

But I didn't feel any bad pressure from any member here . Including Leo. Oh dear ..he puts up a lot with my BS ?. 

If I try to relate to what someone said.. it often cuts them off awkwardly and nobody gives that big.. "OH YEAH" reaction that others get. I think it's because my sentence doesn't have any structure and I kind of just say it all at once with no real build up or climax.

Anyways I know I'm the most confusing person in this forum ..but stay with me guys ..inshaallah I will be more one pointed and one directionally oriented in the future..

[Princess Arabia]

16 minutes ago, Someone here said:

One day I'm awake ..another day I'm wondering about useless stupid stuff..the next day i want to become a muslim etc 

Who knows what comes next ?lol 

But I didn't feel any bad pressure from any member here . Including Leo. Oh dear ..he puts up a lot with my BS ?. 

If I try to relate to what someone said.. it often cuts them off awkwardly and nobody gives that big.. "OH YEAH" reaction that others get. I think it's because my sentence doesn't have any structure and I kind of just say it all at once with no real build up or climax.

Anyways I know I'm the most confusing person in this forum ..but stay with me guys ..inshaallah I will be more one pointed and one directionally oriented in the future..

There's a name for this but Idk what it is, because I've never seen anything like it. Maybe It's called "No Name Condition" because I actually did drive by a street once called "No Name Street". Consciousness is tricky and is full of games up it's sleeve. Be aware of this and just allow it to flow and become whatever it wants to become. There's a sense of peace that comes with this. It doesn't like boxes.

[Sugarcoat]

You’re consistent in your confusion ? it’s a certain way of being 

[Princess Arabia]

Just now, Sugarcoat said:

You’re consistent in your confusion ? it’s a certain way of being 

Lol

[Someone here]

8 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

There's a name for this but Idk what it is, because I've never seen anything like it. Maybe It's called "No Name Condition" because I actually did drive by a street once called "No Name Street". Consciousness is tricky and is full of games up it's sleeve. Be aware of this and just allow it to flow and become whatever it wants to become. There's a sense of peace that comes with this. It doesn't like boxes.

Well part of how I interpret whats happening with me is that there is no CEO in my mind that does stuff . Doership is an illusion. So I'm not the same person everyday .

Also ..I really struggle with  Knowing things but not being able to regurgitate it in a concise way makes having convos with people so hard. it impacts my self esteem a lot because i often feel dumb. then i end up getting social anxiety because of it and yeah it's just shitty.

9 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

You’re consistent in your confusion ? it’s a certain way of being 

Yup. Sometimes I just need to shut the fuck up .

Silence is golden.i  tend to over talk at times and then get lost in the story.i  don’t have to be in on every conversation

[Sugarcoat]

3 minutes ago, Someone here said:

Yup. Sometimes I just need to shut the fuck up .

Silence is golden.i  tend to over talk at times and then get lost in the story.i  don’t have to be in on every conversation

I admire your openness?

I am the opposite I am too quiet at times so expressing myself more verbally feels expansive for me. 

[Breakingthewall]

much better to be confused than sure than something wrong. at least you have mental flexibility

[Someone here]

6 minutes ago, Breakingthewall said:

much better to be confused than sure than something wrong. at least you have mental flexibility

Thanks but" Mental flexibility "is something and pure contradiction is another thing . I contradict myself on a daily basis on this forum . Some members are mislead by my nonsense . I really need a few months break from this form to cool out /chill out .no need to post every other day delirium stuff. 

[Princess Arabia]

4 minutes ago, Someone here said:

Well part of how I interpret whats happening with me is that there is no CEO in my mind that does stuff . Doership is an illusion. So I'm not the same person everyday .

Also ..I really struggle with  Knowing things but not being able to regurgitate it in a concise way makes having convos with people so hard. it impacts my self esteem a lot because i often feel dumb. then i end up getting social anxiety because of it and yeah it's just shitty.

Yup. Sometimes I just need to shut the fuck up .

Silence is golden.i  tend to over talk at times and then get lost in the story.i  don’t have to be in on every conversation

You are trying to interpret life when life needs no interpretation. It just is. Do you even know what non-doership really means. Be careful what you say is an illusion because the mind will get confused if it still believes it's a separate entity. You are not the same person every second, minute, hour, day, year, decade and so on, not because you're a non-doer but because things are constantly changing and vibrating and whatever else is the reason I won't get into because I'm not too keen on the process there.

I always use to say to myself when I read a lot of your posts that you were just regurgitating stuff you've read or heard without having proper understanding of what you were saying, but I never voiced that because I might also be guilty of doing that on some topics too and didn't want it to come off as a criticism, that wouldn't be too well received. But I saw that in your posts. 

Please don't be afraid of expressing yourself and showing vulnerability because that's a way to grow and will only strengthen you and the feedback you get from that might just be what was needed to break apart some of the resistance of the mind. If I was a teacher in a classroom and you were my student' I would pick you as the first one to graduate with honors because of your passion, curiosity and willingness to grow and to put yourself out here for the world to see and not caring too much of how people judge you. People are not speaking up because they are shy or don't know what to say, they're not speaking up because they're afraid of being judged and what people may think of them, but people don't judge you for who you are, they judge you for the character they imagined you to be. 

[Nemra]

18 minutes ago, Someone here said:

I really need a few months break from this form to cool out /chill out .no need to post every other day delirium stuff. 

Not just you, but everyone.

It comes to a point where staying active on the forum degrades your mind. It's so subtle that you won't notice how it's happening.

So, be careful.

Edited August 17, 2023 by Understander

[Princess Arabia]

15 minutes ago, Someone here said:

Thanks but" Mental flexibility "is something and pure contradiction is another thing . I contradict myself on a daily basis on this forum . Some members are mislead by my nonsense . I really need a few months break from this form to cool out /chill out .no need to post every other day delirium stuff. 

The thing is people are misusing the tools available to them. It's not the Forum that's the problem, it's how it's being used and the reasons behind it's use. Take a break for the right reasons because how you do one thing is how you do everything so you might just be transferring the same pattern in your personal life. 

[Princess Arabia]

3 minutes ago, Understander said:

Not just you, but everyone.

It comes to a point where staying active (reading and posting) on the forum degrades your mind. It's so subtle that you won't notice how it's happening.

So, be careful.

Shush. How does reading and posting degrade your mind if you are helping others and yourself. Too much of anything isn't good, I agree, and variety is the spice of life but generally speaking reading and posting is not an issue if you're reading and posting things of value. Excuse the word Shush, as that's our special love language. I will never say that to anyone else but you, so consider that special. 

[Nemra]

It happens differently for different people. I know it from my experience ?.

Maybe you are special in that you can do it for a long time without being affected.

13 minutes ago, Princess Arabia said:

Excuse the word Shush, as that's our special love language. I will never say that to anyone else but you, so consider that special.

No worries, I understand. You are special to me.

Edited August 17, 2023 by Understander

[Schizophonia]

Can you give concrete examples of inconsistency?

[Razard86]

1 hour ago, Someone here said:

Well part of how I interpret whats happening with me is that there is no CEO in my mind that does stuff . Doership is an illusion. So I'm not the same person everyday .

Also ..I really struggle with  Knowing things but not being able to regurgitate it in a concise way makes having convos with people so hard. it impacts my self esteem a lot because i often feel dumb. then i end up getting social anxiety because of it and yeah it's just shitty.

Yup. Sometimes I just need to shut the fuck up .

Silence is golden.i  tend to over talk at times and then get lost in the story.i  don’t have to be in on every conversation

Consciousness is able to create compartmentalizations for example you have walls in your room. Also there is a CEO, if a CEO didn't exist that concept couldn't exist. How it all works is your ego is a collection of patterns that consistently choose thoughts/emotions and actions that fit said pattern. So the CEO is the pattern itself. You have to observe the ego to learn what it is. 

Observation is the key to learning. Learning is understanding pattern recognition. Understand your patterns then you understand the individual self you constructed. So until you escape the prison of the ego, that pattern IS THE CEO.

[Princess Arabia]

1 minute ago, Understander said:

It's happens differently for different people. I know it from my experience ?. Maybe you are special in that you are can do it for a long time without being affected.

No worries, I understand. You are special to me.

My life is very boring and I stay home a lot with no kids just a cat. So I tend to go online a lot to make use of my time and I'm somewhat a nerd that always want to learn something and listen to podcasts and shit like that. Noone here is complaining in my ear. But watch out, when the tiger get's loose it gets loose. That's why I stay home to keep outta trouble. Lol. Now back to the topic on hand.

[Schizophonia]

If I said 10% of what I really think and the way I put it in my head, 10% of my agenda, I would be taken for a fool and I might be banned.
Through extreme trauma in my childhood I was able to break down pervasive cognitive dissonances in other human beings including here, no matter how much psychedelics people here may ingest.

[Princess Arabia]

7 minutes ago, Razard86 said:

Consciousness is able to create compartmentalizations for example you have walls in your room. Also there is a CEO, if a CEO didn't exist that concept couldn't exist. How it all works is your ego is a collection of patterns that consistently choose thoughts/emotions and actions that fit said pattern. So the CEO is the pattern itself. You have to observe the ego to learn what it is. 

Observation is the key to learning. Learning is understanding pattern recognition. Understand your patterns then you understand the individual self you constructed. So until you escape the prison of the ego, that pattern IS THE CEO.

You are one example why I keep visiting this forum. The knowledge I get from your remarks and comments. As well as from others as well. But you are one of the main ones. 

Edited August 17, 2023 by Princess Arabia

[Schizophonia]

Most of the time the opinions that seem intuitively contradictory are not and are just integral parts and the mark of particular and shocking (intelligent?) nuances of a paradigm, of an argumentative system whether it is for sociological purposes, politics, or whatever.

[Princess Arabia]

2 minutes ago, Schizophonia said:

Most of the time the opinions that seem intuitively contradictory are not and are just integral parts and the mark of particular and shocking (intelligent?) nuances of a paradigm, of an argumentative system whether it is for sociological purposes, politics, or whatever.

??