Trip report - Kundalini awakening.

[inFlow]

This week I went to my ashram to practice yoga quite hard and friday in the last poses I had this moment of undertstading that "It's time". I didn't understand what that was, but the next day I understood what that meant.

So yesterday tripped on 3.5g mushrooms. Albino Penis Envy. I was about 2hours in the trip and I started yawning like crazy. My jaw sort of wanted to stretch. Then I just noticed that my body wants to stretch out. In my mind I though "ok lemme take a piss and I can go lay on my yoga matt and stretch out like a SNAKE. Notice the word - SNAKE. I was super wobly and not coordinated walking to the toilet, I swayed left to right like I was drunk, but after my piss I just dropped on the ground and started to stretch on my own. And then it hit me that this is something significant. I started to laugh like crazy and stretch out my body on my own and I started to repeat "Oh mommy heal me from my ignorace" and my body turned so hot and I intuitively knew this was the  Kundalini Shakti. So the next hour I just went into sort of a "exorcism" mode. Have you seen any videos where people have a kundalini awakening, twitching like crazy, crying, laughing and speaking jibberish all at once? That was the same for me. Moments of laughter, moments of tears, moments of anger, moments of almost puking almost the the level of just spitting on the floor. (I even managed to film the whole experience, but I will never post it anywhere or show it to anyone because it was such a private experience and people will find this negative to look at considering how beautiful they imagine this experience to be.) I was doing all kinds of asanas and stretches because the Kundalini needed it. Twitching myself like nut, shivering, twisting my neck etc. Immense sounds roared through my head with moments of complete deafening silence. It was so bizzare. The whole experience took over an hour. And I can explain the whole experience as if the kundalini was destroying the Memory/Karma that was locked inside the body, this destruction was meant in order to "kill" off the "Ego" in order for God to live through this body. It felt like I was being BORN. In those moments it felt like I need to surrender this body to its max. It felt like God was piercing through all of the shit that this body acumulated in so many years. And the internal ressistance was so low in that moment that God knew that this is the opportunity to go in and actually take ownership. After all of it I just sat in my bed, with complete silence in my mind, just observing the room I was in. And the trip ended there, ate a bit, drank tea and went to sleep.

If you ever saw any videos of random people looking like they are going through an "exorcism" kind of experience, know that that's kundalini awakening and that shit ir real.

Today I just feel quite tired and can't comment on any significant changes in my consciousness or any changes in activity. Just that I came to realize that I need to Love and care for my body WAY WAY WAY more. But I definitely feel different. I will post in the future if I notice any significant changes in my lifestyle.

 

P.S. I only recorded it to actually see and maybe show someone in the future of how dirty all of this work actually is. It's not just rainbows and angels with lights all around. It's a shit-show.

Edited August 6, 2023 by inFlow
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[Hojo]

I know the experience it is the most beautiful thing you will feel .good for you to feel it.

Did you feel like fireworks were going off in your brain?

It is lucky no one is around us when this happens or we get sent to mental institution for how crazy it can get. It last like 6 hours for me hysterical laughter im screaming at the top of my lungs and rolling around crying and laughing. 

It is important to look at these moments to understand the vibrational system thats in place. These are states you can reach in baseline conciousness and keep them with you to feel like that forever. Its just a matter of understand how.

But congrats its god saying you are pure welcome to paradise

Edited August 6, 2023 by Hojo

[inFlow]

8 minutes ago, Hojo said:

Did you feel like fireworks were going off in your brain?

 

Ummm no fireworks. I understand that these experiences are different for every individual. Some see light, some see visions. I never see any lights/colors or visions.

8 minutes ago, Hojo said:

It is lucky no one is around us when this happens or we get sent to mental institution for how crazy it can get 

Yes. That's a super private experience only for you to experience. I would want everybody out of the room at that moment.

Edited August 6, 2023 by inFlow

[Hojo]

@inFlow well now you know how much God loves you and you can carry it around as a badge of self honor. Cause everything you do is perfect and you are the most beautiful thing God has ever created. 

I had insane fireworks but It might be because I logic myself out of the my greatest fear and my neurons were self repairing. The fear went so deep it need a complete change in neural pathways in my mind. For 2 years after almost daily I would feel electricity in my mind as something, I don't know what, is kind of sitting in my mind changing things as they come up in conversations or thoughts

And since you raised your vibration so high good things are on the way

Edited August 6, 2023 by Hojo

[inFlow]

@Hojo And at the end of the day I looked in the mirror and I said Thank you. Thank you to the ego for building this body the way it is, this beautiful avatar.

[Buck Edwards]

Right now from whatever I know, there's a huge connection between snake and kundalinis and I'm exploring that. Nag panchami. 

[Leo Gura]

@inFlow Good work! Yeah, the realities of awakening can be quite ugly and brutal, not something to show off to others because they will just misunderstand and mock you.

Edited August 7, 2023 by Leo Gura

[inFlow]

@Leo Gura Exactly!

Oh and by the way I forgot to mentioned that the chant "AUM/OM" is actually destroying your karma with that vibration going through the body. I remember glimpses of where I was forced to hum the sound in order to release more karma.

[Harsh Bagdia]

@inFlow this is so great....bravo?

Thank you for sharing this. This is inspiring and a bit scary??

I wish I experience something like this...I have started practicing Yoga, it's been a few months and I can see that it has started working..my body and mind are much more flexible now..I believe I will see the radical effects after years of practice..

And yep you are so right we need to take care of our bodies more...and not just food and exercise but also celebrating the body in whatever way appropriate. 

I had given a break to tripping and I was thinking about starting it again and after reading this, I feel more motivated. 

Can you share how long have you been tripping and practicing Yoga? 

And are mushrooms enough or do you find need to take other psychedelics also? 

I understand that it's not just about tripping and yoga but also about your understanding, intentions and personality structure. And I may experience something very different than what you did. Still share as it would help me to make a wild guess of how long it would take me. 

 

[inFlow]

@Harsh Bagdia Now that it's been some time after that experience, can say that you need to burn enough Karma, with the use of yogic practices, in order for Kundalini to find an opportunity to activate itself. The thing is there is no metric for understanding just how much have we burned or need to burn through until Mother kundalini can do it's magic. It can take years if you have a lot of Karma. So it's tough to even advise anything here. I'm was sort of lucky in this case. As much Karma was burned that day I still have mountains of it still left. But now I understand how a person can reach Mahasamadhi, to end the birth/death cycle.

Also I want to mention that all this week I no longer have an ego. It's just God looking at the world through this vessel/being. I can no longer even thank God for anything, I'm always left in BEING. If you gave me a compliment, there is no longer anyone who is going to receive it. Because I'am not the body.

Edited August 10, 2023 by inFlow

[Harsh Bagdia]

2 hours ago, inFlow said:

@Harsh Bagdia Now that it's been some time after that experience, can say that you need to burn enough Karma, with the use of yogic practices, in order for Kundalini to find an opportunity to activate itself. The thing is there is no metric for understanding just how much have we burned or need to burn through until Mother kundalini can do it's magic. It can take years if you have a lot of Karma. So it's tough to even advise anything here. I'm was sort of lucky in this case. As much Karma was burned that day I still have mountains of it still left. But now I understand how a person can reach Mahasamadhi, to end the birth/death cycle.

I see...still it means yogic practices do work..I will continue doing it...

how can one reach Mahasamadhi? First of all what is it? Birth-death cycle?? 

2 hours ago, inFlow said:

@Harsh BagdiaAlso I want to mention that all this week I no longer have an ego. It's just God looking at the world through this vessel/being. I can no longer even thank God for anything, I'm always left in BEING. If you gave me a compliment, there is no longer anyone who is going to receive it. Because I'am not the body.

Okay so I take it back then?? Just joking...glad that you shared your experience..have a good day

Edited August 10, 2023 by Harsh Bagdia

[inFlow]

13 hours ago, Harsh Bagdia said:

how can one reach Mahasamadhi? First of all what is it? Birth-death cycle?? 

13 hours ago, inFlow said:

Localy we are a Soul, that lives through hundreds of thousands of lives. Same Soul different body. And our Soul is locked with the body by Karma. Karma is memory which you acumulate within this lifetime. Once you burn off enough Karma the Soul no longer has anything to attach to the body with, thus leaving the body which is called Mahasamadhi - The ultimate Samadhi, Final Union with God. This is what the game of life is about.

[Harsh Bagdia]

3 hours ago, inFlow said:

Localy we are a Soul, that lives through hundreds of thousands of lives. Same Soul different body. And our Soul is locked with the body by Karma. Karma is memory which you acumulate within this lifetime. Once you burn off enough Karma the Soul no longer has anything to attach to the body with, thus leaving the body which is called Mahasamadhi - The ultimate Samadhi, Final Union with God. This is what the game of life is about.

Seems great..I too want to achieve Mahasamadhi sometime...it seems like what you are calling Mahasamadhi, Leo calls Godhead. 

But what after Mahasamadhi? 

Consciousness will again find some form of expression..

You do realise that THIS is endless, don't you? Which is what makes reality so mysterious and sometimes so overwhelming and alien?

 

[inFlow]

On 8/11/2023 at 3:26 PM, Harsh Bagdia said:

You do realise that THIS is endless, don't you?

Yes I do. And I want to dive deeper to this question and find out how it acutally is. Because one time I understood that all of this spirituality and seaking Enlightenment, Mahasamadhi, ending the birth/death cycle was just a sham. Another self-deception to keep you busy. And as you said God is ENDLESS so this contradicts everything I said.

[Harsh Bagdia]

4 hours ago, inFlow said:

Yes I do. And I want to dive deeper to this question and find out how it acutally is. Because one time I understood that all of this spirituality and seaking Enlightenment, Mahasamadhi, ending the birth/death cycle was just a sham. Another self-deception to keep you busy. And as you said God is ENDLESS so this contradicts everything I said.

I love your answer? and I too want to dive deeper into this...

And I don't want to take any positions about Mahasamadhi currently because I believe there must be some truth to it...ancient yogis who invented the idea weren't stupid...maybe majority of people misinterpret it...I don't know..I will just keep exploring.. doing yoga, psychs, and contemplate..

Hey when I think deeply about your statement that all Enlightenment and Mahasamadhi is a sham...

Can we say that

We are already Enlightened/ Mahasamadhied. 

? 

You know what, I realised that subconsciously I was denying that I was God even after awakening to it many times. 

But truth is truth and I accept it fully now.

I Am God?????

And you too are God, Woah...?? And you also realize it??? ???

This human body and this mind is truly a wonderful creation..we shall honor it more... Thanks for triggering this Awakening into me...?

And now I Understand the depth of this...

God Is Endless......

 

[inFlow]

18 hours ago, Harsh Bagdia said:

We are already Enlightened/ Mahasamadhied. 

 

See the preoblem with Enlightenment is - what is it acutually? There is no straightforward answer/description. It has A LOT OF MEANING behind it. Different spiritual gurus and people talk about Enlightenment, but their understanding of what it is differs. Even Leo has it's own interpretation of what Enlightenment is. So can we actually agree on what are we talking about when it comes to the word Enlightenment? I think No. There needs to be an actual dictionary for these things that we could agree upon. So it's quite hard to answer this question.

19 hours ago, Harsh Bagdia said:

You know what, I realised that subconsciously I was denying that I was God even after awakening to it many times. 

 

It's just the ressistance of your mind of letting go of the ego that's in the way of letting you to be/stay AWAKE. Thats why daily practice/sadhana is important. I cannot stress this enough, actual work is crucial.

19 hours ago, Harsh Bagdia said:

And you too are God, Woah...?? And you also realize it??? ???

 

Yes I do. Even though some people dont know this I still recognize the God inside of them which is still not AWAKE. And when I'm going to my ashram I see some people are recognizing God inside of me. They are different people and you can SEE it. They look at you different, they act different, their body language is different.

19 hours ago, Harsh Bagdia said:

Thanks for triggering this Awakening into me...

My pleasure. ???

Mahadev ♥♥♥

The meaning for MAHADEV is - a Greeting (with pranam mudra - ?) to another Being and recognizing the God inside of them.

[Harsh Bagdia]

12 hours ago, inFlow said:

There needs to be an actual dictionary for these things that we could agree upon. So it's quite hard to answer this question.

I see...I now define Enlightenment for myself as enlightening others or simply shining/radiating my light of awareness to it's maximum?

So rather than making it an one time achievement, I am making it a continuous series of daily achievements. And I will know if I reached a high degree of Enlightenment when others think and say that I am enlightened. The word will lose its value if I only claim my enlightenment. (but I will internally say it to myself and ofcourse also act as such??)

Doesn't it makes sense? 

and you don't need to validate me; I am happy to know the limitations in my thought process. 

so according to me, your trip report was pretty enlightening?

12 hours ago, inFlow said:

It's just the ressistance of your mind of letting go of the ego that's in the way of letting you to be/stay AWAKE. Thats why daily practice/sadhana is important. I cannot stress this enough, actual work is crucial.

Yes..I am now able to see ego minds tricks and not get influenced by them. It feels like a stubborn kid who thinks he knows what is best for him and I am like a strict father as well as a loving mother who knows what is actually best for him.(which is me???) ( I know that I and ego are one but ego doesn't know it..)

SO YES Sadhana, practice and listening to masters, contemplating is very crucial I understand. 

12 hours ago, inFlow said:

Yes I do. Even though some people dont know this I still recognize the God inside of them which is still not AWAKE. 

how beautiful is this..you can see the highest in them when they themselves can't see it?

You know just a while back I was looking at a cat directly into her eyes. I could see who's looking through her eyes? And she got all relaxed and Zen like in the moment. It was so profound.

12 hours ago, inFlow said:

And when I'm going to my ashram I see some people are recognizing God inside of me. They are different people and you can SEE it. They look at you different, they act different, their body language is different.

Amazing...I want to experience this too..actually I have..I just understood it now when you mentioned this.

When I visited my ashram last time, one woman was smiling looking at me and not just smiling..as you said they look at you different and act different..as if they are a bit stoned but deeply conscious..there's a sense of judgementlessness and fearlessness around them.

Oh God why didn't I talk to her? I could see the 'Real Her' and I thought also that she saw Me..but then I distracted myself? anyways next time for sure. 

12 hours ago, inFlow said:

Mahadev ♥♥♥

The meaning for MAHADEV is - a Greeting (with pranam mudra - ?) to another Being and recognizing the God inside of them.

Mahadev?❤️?

हर हर महादेव। शंभो। ॐ नमः शिवाय। नमस्ते। 

Har har Mahadev, Shambho, Aum Namah Shivaya, Namaste all these are used in similar way..and you know in Hindi language we refer Shiva as Mahadev..

Shiva is Devo Ke Dev(God of Gods), Mahadev(The One)

We can also call it Infinity of Infinities, Absolute Infinity..??

 

It was great talking to you brother..I will DM you if I have any major doubts about Yoga, is that ok? Namaste. 

[inFlow]

1 hour ago, Harsh Bagdia said:

It was great talking to you brother..I will DM you if I have any major doubts about Yoga, is that ok? Namaste. 

Sure. Lets close this post thread.