Bridging new ways of being

[Identity]

After a phase with the theme ‘Resting in Being’ I sense a renewed desire in me to grow into a new way of being.

What I am contemplating, is the ‘bridge’ of getting from my current way of being to the vision I have. Let me explain.

When I got into the world of personal development and spirituality I had to climb out of quite a deep hole. My reality then was;

- I had very little discipline

- There were many habits and addictions that were dragging me down; smoking weed, gaming, porn, unhealthy eating, the usual suspects

- I had no idea who I was and what kind of life purpose to pursue

- Very little experience with dating

It’s a bit of a simple way of explaining a more nuanced situation, but in many ways I was a lost student.

 

Over the last 6-7 years my life has improved radically. The list above can basically be flipped around. I am excelling at all of these domains for the most part. From dating, to business, to lifestyle, as well as many spiritual layers have opened up.

With that period of change being quite exhausting on many layers, the past 6 months or so have been on the theme ‘Resting in Being’. Ending that chapter with a month of holiday, I feel recharged and want to take myself and my life to the next level.

The vision for it I can see quite clearly. What is unclear to me, is the ‘bridge’, the ‘how’. With how I don’t mean the practices or practical steps, that is clear to me as well.

It’s more about the way I want to pursue this change. See, the ‘bridge’ that was very effective to get to where I got consisted of:

- huge vision board

- Many goals and habits

- (Neurotically) tracking 

- Setting commitments

- Consuming a lot of content

It was the structure and discipline I needed to pull myself out of this whole. But it also came with a tightness, guilting myself, whipping myself.

This whole system had melted away for the most part and I have learned that I can trust myself to function also without it.

So the question is, what new ‘bridge’ do I want to build?

I know it will be lighter, less structured, less mental, more intuitive… yet, it won’t be nothing either…

‘Conscious Discipline’ is a term that comes up, but what that will entail is yet to be shaped.

Would love to hear your inputs and happy to answer questions ✌?