Finally reached physical reality

[Sugarcoat]

For most of my life. I have been very aware of my own mind. I have always had an extremely strong visual thinking ability for some reason.

It got to the point where it seemed that the only thing that I had any grasp on was my mind. 

imagine walking around and feeling like you have no access to physicality everything you know is like your thoughts and outwardly projected mental projections especially on your body 

but ever since my awakening experience this April. I discovered this ~self corrective tendency~ of this human vessel that has allowed for profound healing like never before and it’s like all these mind-layers, in particular on my body associated with my sense of self  have dissolved one by one like bricks of domino

like what the hell

life is no longer just mental projections

For example this morning I danced and it was like my body was an ~actual physical entity~ that I experienced in this light, complete,  smooth way and not just this pile of heavy mental projections weighing it down 

I have been trying to access this for years 

and now I got it 

is this how normal people live? They just feel like they have a real physical body it’s not like dense layers of their mind projected onto it standing in the way 

Damn

i wonder sometimes maybe this is also like another mind-layer waiting to be dissolved

but then it’s like naaah this can’t be this is way too tangible and stable for that to be the case 

also I’m very familiar with lowkey feeling like everything is my mind so it’s not really scary to me (although this is much preferable) so I’ll just bask in this new found physicality while it lasts if it does 

 

Edited July 31, 2023 by Sugarcoat

[Razard86]

Cool I had the same experience. Glad you are enjoying it!

[Salvijus]

Maybe you reached what echkart calls presence?

[Sugarcoat]

39 minutes ago, Razard86 said:

Cool I had the same experience. Glad you are enjoying it!

There is more ????

Your comment surprised me btw!

Edited July 31, 2023 by Sugarcoat

[Sugarcoat]

5 minutes ago, Salvijus said:

Maybe you reached what echkart calls presence?

Presence was revealed when the shift occurred this is something else in my experience . It’s like this human vessel has different components, mind. energy, physicality etc. And it all was a whole mess before, all this stuck energy in my system, limiting beliefs , mental projections, neurotic patterns , psychosomatic tension knots, I could go on and on. Just dense and heavy and “edgy” ugh
 

and it all gets untangled! Without doctors , no science needed just pure awareness nature healing itself seemingly endlessly, effortlessly! WOW! 

 

 

Edited July 31, 2023 by Sugarcoat

[Salvijus]

13 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

And it all was a whole mess before, all this stuck energy in my system, limiting beliefs , mental projections, neurotic patterns , psychosomatic tension knots, I could go on and on. Just dense and heavy and “edgy” ugh
 

So you went from contraction to sense of openness? Sounds like what dancing would do. 

This woman teaches concious dancing or dancing with a stronger spiritual twist to it. Certain specific movements to open the heart and the flow of love. Maybe you'll find it interesting.

 

Edited July 31, 2023 by Salvijus

[Hojo]

You hear stories about people who dance and stop thinking and dance till they die. Why stop when you have no mind to tell you to stop. Get into a trance and just dance

Edited July 31, 2023 by Hojo

[Sugarcoat]

18 minutes ago, Hojo said:

You hear stories about people who dance and stop thinking and dance till they die. Why stop when you have no mind to tell you to stop. Get into a trance and just dance

Where can you hear about those stories?

 

interesting you mention btw. After this morning I realized I want to bask in this direct connection to my body so deeply while dancing to music that I need to set myself time away to do just that.
I have had mystical like experiences before when dancing and afterwards so I am curious where one can go with it. Am currently with people and busy with other things but when I get the chance I will!? 

Seriously tho, prior to my shift I was so stuck in my head, allowed myself almost no free time ever to do what I spontaneously wanted. After the shift I discovered my deep love for dancing. It is funny to me, in my past I saw it as this meaningless but nice activity …oh boy it is so much more

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[Hojo]

@Sugarcoat https://www.bbc.com/culture/article/20220512-the-people-who-danced-themselves-to-death#:~:text=In 1518%2C a 'dance plague,and writers%2C writes Rosalind Jana.

 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dancing_plague_of_1518

 

Seems like they all got high and then danced till they died. Could just be spirituality tho who knows whats right or wrong on the internet.

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[Razard86]

40 minutes ago, Sugarcoat said:

There is more ????

Your comment surprised me btw!

Why did my comment surprise you?

[Sugarcoat]

37 minutes ago, Razard86 said:

Why did my comment surprise you?

Well I can be a bit hesitant to post here since it seems like my “journey” in life is so extremely rare that I doubt even most people here would relate and resonate with it

 

Also the fact most here are male and older than me already makes me feel a bit out of place so I cannot deny that your comment, also coming from you who seems to have gone “deep” or whatever one would call it, was a bit reassuring to this little insecurity of mine!

Edited July 31, 2023 by Sugarcoat

[Sugarcoat]

1 hour ago, Salvijus said:

So you went from contraction to sense of openness? Sounds like what dancing would do. 

This woman teaches concious dancing or dancing with a stronger spiritual twist to it. Certain specific movements to open the heart and the flow of love. Maybe you'll find it interesting.

 

There has been a lot of expansion since the shift. Yet also a “stabilizing”. But not like the stability before the shift which was some wacky mental reality

yes dancing has been a part of the process since I have been naturally attracted to it

As of now I prefer to dance without instruction as i please in the moment. But thank you anyways for the suggestion!

[Sugarcoat]

53 minutes ago, Hojo said:

@Sugarcoat https://www.bbc.com/culture/article/20220512-the-people-who-danced-themselves-to-death#:~:text=In 1518%2C a 'dance plague,and writers%2C writes Rosalind Jana.

 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dancing_plague_of_1518

 

Seems like they all got high and then danced till they died. Could just be spirituality tho who knows whats right or wrong on the internet.

LOL that’s creepy asf yet funny asf. And cool. Thanks for sharing will look into it. And perhaps it can work as a warning too ?

[Hojo]

@Sugarcoat well I don't think its bad thats all tribes would do dance and sing to god

[Sugarcoat]

45 minutes ago, Hojo said:

@Sugarcoat well I don't think its bad thats all tribes would do dance and sing to god

Sounds lovely 

[integral]

@Sugarcoat Very cool experience, out of curiosity have you ever done any serious physical exercises before? Like anything self-competitive? 

[Osaid]

Is it like being a child again?

[WonderSeeker]

@Sugarcoat That's bizarre, spirituality has taken me in the reverse direction lmao

[Sugarcoat]

8 hours ago, integral said:

@Sugarcoat Very cool experience, out of curiosity have you ever done any serious physical exercises before? Like anything self-competitive? 

Thank you! 
 

yea. In my teens I worked out regularly at the gym and weight lifted seriously. Nowadays I move in general, have started to dance more, but don’t have any routine. 

[Sugarcoat]

7 hours ago, Osaid said:

Is it like being a child again?

Actually not

my first clear memories of my own experience of myself and reality as a child was not quite pleasant. 

I believe I was around 10 or so when I started to become aware of it, but basically I had this experience of being “sucked into my head”. The external world seeming very distant and me being detached from it somehow. This was pretty much my ~default~ state and very disturbing to me and I had this sense of unease in general. The closer to nighttime the more disturbing it was, which I believe is because during the day there is a lot of stimulation and everything is bright and “alive” so this state wasn’t obvious then and I was able to be happy during the day 
 

I have never found any explanation for what this was. Or anyone talking about having a similar childhood experience. I am very curious though! The closest I’ve gotten was perhaps on Reddit when someone said they had this “solipsism syndrome” experience where they described this “sucked into the head” experience.  

Edited August 1, 2023 by Sugarcoat