caesar13

Would you feel the same about this girl?

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Today i was contemplating my relation to porn...

At some point I felt that the pornstar in the video I would be looking at somehow belongs to me, in the same way you feel a sense of belonging to any other person. In this case it's not entirely the same but only a transcation of pleasure. I wanted to feel the pleasure (or this sexual lust) and the pornstar in the video is just giving me that.

Further in the contemplation session, I questioned myself this: "If you see this particular porn star on the street being slapped or beaten (beaten in the sense like a rude guy beating a girl) by a rude guy, would I get angry about that?"

My answer to that question was a "Yes". If felt that I would become angry.

I really couldn't believe I feel that way - that I would save a girl from being beaten up, with whom I am acquainted by is only through the "one-way" transaction of pleasure.

Do you feel the same? Is it this sense of belonging (it's distorted but yeah in some way) a reason one stays a porn addict?

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Yes because your mind creates association with anything you come into contact with, even if it's through a video.

You can say that you hate Owen Cook online but if you ever meet him in person, you end up "Hey I know you. Can I take a picture with you?"

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We have the ability to put ourselves in the characters we imagine. As a kid, I had many battles as Robin Hood.

Listen to some G.R.R Martin interviews. He talks like his characters are alive.

You have a great imagination. A gift. Use it to make some money.


What you resist, persists and less of you exists. There is a part of you that never leaves. You are not in; you have never been. You know. You put it there and time stretches. 

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15 hours ago, Ajax said:

You have a great imagination. A gift. Use it to make some money.

@Ajax Oh really?

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for me it's an endless quest of being protector provider prince... am always stepping into women's business way more than i should and ignoring plenty of men going through dire experiences

this is a pitiful attachment 

solution online is for example no profile picture

i am not god's gift after all

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