I'm feeling so much anxiety now.

[Sabth]

Because I don't have work.

I keep on feeling anxious and is in a state of anxiety. For now. 

 

[Sabth]

In the Islamic belief, they said, tonight and this evening is a time when your prayers or wish will be true ,(be answered,) so it's recommended to make your prayer and your wish.

It's been a long time since I've made a specific prayer or asked for anything. Prayer itself is something I don't truly believe in anymore. Like your prayer wouldn't be answered..so now, during this time it's a special time. I wonder what my wishes would be. I doubt it will become true either. 

But my prayer would be ,

 - a secret prayer

 - a secret prayer. 

 - I wanna go to mecca

 - I wanna work/

 - study again

 That's all are my wishes. 

If I don't believe in hell & heaven I couldn't ask for that too..... 

*I've become a very logical person now..

Edited June 27, 2023 by Sabth

[hyruga]

Don't worry, bro.

There are many people who pretend to find work but deep down, they don't want to work.

If you want to work, eventually you will find work. Our body constantly seeks what we want.

[Sabth]

I had fall sick for real. Couldn't eat. Constantly feel like I'm falling when I stand up. Black. Barely able to walk or stand up. And my anxiety is from this sickness and discomfort. Terrible vomiting. I can only lie down. When that too are giving me discomfort. 

Now I have slept well and idk what to do with my body. I couldn't eat or I will vomit. Is this caused by me having no work? And just stayed at home? I've had enough. I need to walk when I'm well

. Obviously I couldn't when I'm sick. I'm fasting again btw. I never liked being heavy. gotta work on that later. 

And tomorrow I'm gonna have a two hours flight to somewhere. I don't know if I'm gonna be well..  (don't wanna go~)