Bouncing back from a backlash

[Krife]

A few years ago, I moved from Nashville, Tennessee back to Washington state where I’m originally from, to live in my car and “find myself.” Spent the better part of 3 years in a 2011 Nissan Altima, successfully detaching myself from family and friends, and dove headfirst into a deep soul search, with a clear intention of connecting to myself as god. I had breakthroughs. Honestly it was an intense experience. Had  Leo’s videos, along with a few others keeping me company via YouTube (premium because no commercials ) and I would drive around my hometown, delivering food for Uber eats, making just enough money to keep the journey going. I came face to face with a lot of the plagues of my childhood, bringing up everything from painful ex girlfriend breakups, the park where I got teased as a kid, the swimming pool where I almost drowned. That kind of stuff. And I absorbed it all. Basically welcoming all the dark memories of my early years to come up and let me look at them through a different lens.

I did experience a few backlashes. Even posted here on the forum, asking for “gods advice”, hoping some of you on here, could help center me out. It took Leo’s gas lighting video to re-ground me and pop me back into myself. Also a member on this forum stepped in and helped straighten me out. Shout out to “puporing”. ?

So I’ve been a musician, professionally for the last 15 years +, working as a touring guitar player for different artists. Spent most of that time in Nashville. Then Covid happened and shut the world down. I took it as an opportunity to hit the pause button and go solo on myself. Was literally craving a cabin in the woods to do what I now understand to be contemplative, introspective work. And because I was foolish with money and immature in the way I handled it, I couldn’t afford a cabin in the woods. However I did have a car. And that car would be my solo retreat, meditation cabin on wheels.

The journey basically went like this: Contemplate. Breakthrough. Contemplate. Ego backlash. Start again. Contemplate. Breakthrough. Contemplate. Ego backlash. Contemplate. And so on for 3 years.

Thankfully I got out of the whole living in my car situation and I’m back living in Nashville, in an actual home, 10 minutes south of the city!and artistically inspired. Funny what a little conscious determination can do. Still a little shaky with staying consistent in I am god awareness, who’s been dreaming all this up. When it does come on it’s beautiful. 

Anyway, just a random update from a fellow forum member   

Leo I’m playing guitar for a rock band in Vegas July 1st at Stoney's Rockin Country @ 7pm. Your names on the list. Haha. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Sugarcoat]

Why u sound like the coolest  chillest dude ever lol

Edited June 23, 2023 by Sugarcoat