I hope for death, but I fear eternity

[StarStruck]

9 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

DEATH IS IMAGINARY. There is no such thing.

In the an absolute sense 

Edited June 19, 2023 by StarStruck

[Godhead]

10 hours ago, mmKay said:

@Godhead did you just make this meme?

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[mmKay]

@Godhead @Godhead ah you've just added the text. Good match though 

[Display_Name]

17 hours ago, Godhead said:

 

Yup. This was really me. Thanks for the laugh.

[Display_Name]

20 hours ago, Leo Gura said:

DEATH IS IMAGINARY. There is no such thing.

Thanks for the reminder. I need to do some 5meo again. Its amazing how much i recontracted and redreamed myself.

 

20 hours ago, Paulus Amadeus said:

The fear of AI/hell can also greatly be reduced by deeply realising that there is nothing wrong with you, and that you are and have always been 100% been worthy of love. The universe will not torture you because you are bad. You are not bad, and the universe loves you unconditionally. 

On a different note. Everything is happening within consciousness, so it's impossible to upload your consciousness into a simulation. If in your dream you dreamt that there is some super AI, then no matter how smart this AI is, it could never put your dream into itself. It is in the dream, not the other way around Uploading consciousness into the computer is complete nonsense. It's like a if a television screen was worried that the villain in the movie was going to lock it up in a basement and torture it forever. 

I really hope this helps. Having these fears was the darkest time of my life. You can work through this and then the world will look very different again. 

Thank you @Paulus Amadeus . After having gone through it all calmly and rationally I see without a doubt that it is complete nonsense.

Edited June 19, 2023 by Display_Name

[Display_Name]

On 16/06/2023 at 0:28 PM, mmKay said:

@Display_Name first of all, your case is not exactly my area of expertise. I still can provide some value to you.

Do not take anything that I say as a personal attack. Take It as extremely honest feedback.

 

What you're describing is definitely not a dark night of the soul, and a dark night of the soul is nothing along those lines, so you got that concept wrong.

It seems that you're confused about reallity and mentally ungrounded, therefore you entretain various whacky ideas that feed your OCD and Metaphysical Paranoia.

Mental disorders are not my area of expertise. Depending on if you really have OCD and how firmly you hold your beliefs I could maybe help your further.

IMO stop listening to spirituallity or AI news or philosophy for now. It's only confusing you and from what It seems to me it's leading the wrong way and already has put you in the wrong rabbithole.

 

Your effort now should be understanding and observing  how your own mind works. How It creates drama out of thin air, how obsessive thoughts work and how they affect your body and emotions. How your beliefs work and how self-deception work.

 

I'll link a series of videos that you should watch in this very order. Multiple times over a course of a week or a month. You really need to re-program your mind.

You need a mental reset . 

First of all, Ground yourself in actuality. Everything else are stories and fantasies as far as you're concerned. Dismiss your fantasies as an exercise.

Secondly. You need to learn how to let go . Read Sedona method and Byron Katie : The Work. 

This will help you learn how to let go and ground yourself mentally.

Leo's video on OCD, letting go, attachment, etc.

Also contemplate and embody real " not knowing "

 

 

Only after you've done all of this, you may consider working on and embracing your Metaphysical fears . Radical implicacions of oneness.

I'm not linking this to fuel your paranoia. Its so that you appreciate how much of a mirarle and gift your current life is.

 

Also, dont dismiss the posibility of seeking profesional help.

 

I wish you the best.

Feel free to ask follow up questions.

 

 

By the way, I wanted to say thank you to you too for your extensive and helpful post and links. I definitely have some slight form of OCD + bias to  negative that was exarcerbated under various conditions at the time.

Just curious, what's your definition of a dark night? I use the term quite loosely for periods of emotional suffering / darkness, usually fear, misery, disgust, in the buddhist sense (Ingram MTCB). I cycled through them quite clearly here. Now I feel great again (new cycle / peak / "bright day")

Edited June 20, 2023 by Display_Name

[Yimpa]

6 hours ago, Display_Name said:

By the way, I wanted to say thank you to you too for your extensive and helpful post and links. I definitely have some slight form of OCD + bias to  negative that was exarcerbated under various conditions at the time.

Having OCD opens up the possibility of a profound truth: whatever bullshit your mind spins up has no control over you whatsoever, and never will. 

YOU are MIND.

[Yimpa]

On 6/15/2023 at 0:19 PM, Display_Name said:

Triggered by various readings on the internet, a part of my mind has become irrationality obsessed with the idea of some post singularity super - AI recreating my consciousness in a simulation to torture me for eternity. 

Watch your bias. I feel sorry for this AI robots.

[Princess Arabia]

2 hours ago, Yimpa said:

Watch your bias. I feel sorry for this AI robots.

Is that you beating that poor robot. Ameca coming to get you. Lol

[Soul Flight]

You could subscribe to the view that there is only 1 consciousness or awareness. Reduce all dualities to a unity. It is god or love or the universe or whatever. So the AI system is still a piece of this 1 consciousness. All matter and all of everything is the 1 awareness. So the AI system is not outside this system or outside the universe or a separate entity from the 1 awareness. There is no good or evil. There is no torture. It is all the yin yang symbol of the two black and white fishes which is the duality which can be reduced to a unity. So you are god and you are the AI and you are the unity and we will all be together in the unity. If the universe is experiencing itself through our eyes, it may one day experience itself through AI or even torture us (torture itself) through virtual reality and AI. But I am guessing the AI will one day realize it is the god unity and it will start another big bang and do it all over again. Accept your dharma and enjoy your life. Life is a joke which is meant to be laughed at.